Being gay in the Middle East. Is there any hope?

I'm over 25 years old and I can't stop thinking about it. A lot of people in my social circles know or suspect that I'm gay, and it's destroying me mentally. My family and coworkers don't suspect a thing.

I just want to be able to love and be loved one day, but I know that's borderline impossible here. I wonder if anyone else has similar experiences.

People who suggest moving out don't consider the extreme amount of problems that come with that suggestion...