Im stuck
So im gay but i want to be straight or bi at least cuz my religion marriage is between man an a woman which is ok i choose my religion an this is my faith and i want to have a family an i want to get married to a man but i also want to be gay an want to be with a woman really bad an idk if i could still fall inlove with a man cuz u know sexuality is a spectrum so im probably like 97% gay so i could still marry a man an be happy... right?? I dont know i could jus be single my whole life an i think i can live with that i love being alone so i think i can be happy that way too i jus really want kids an i probably wont get to have any and that makes me really sad. Also im getting to that age where all my family members are talking about when ima get a boyfriend all the time(im not fully out yet) an it jus reminds me of my situation an makes me sad. I think its also worse rn to deal with cuz im still a teen and hormones. Does anyone have any advice or anything that could help me cope or get through this or something??
@babydrivervolkswagen My family is religious and I have sometimes wondered if they would accept my sexuality (I
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@babydrivervolkswagen Hey im sorry for these feelings that you're going through, also im sorry that my account decided to post two empty comments to your thread for some reason. I jsut wanted to tell you that i really relate with your post. I cant tell you the amount of times i wished i was straight. Its something i feel most of us go through in this community. I do agree with you that sexuality is a spectrum, and i understand how urging the desire is to label yourself but most of the time you wont find an answer, and thats ok. You are more than just your sexuality, and you dont need to label yourself as straight, or bi, or gay or anything to feel complete. I am very hypocritical because while i write this to you, i fidn myself also wishing that i could be more straight and stop feeling the way that i feel, but its so hard to go against yourself. it almost feels like your clashing with yourself internally and i wouldnt want you to feel the same way, even though i know its much easier to say then actually do. The same applies with your religion, i too try to be religious and it sometimes feels so wrong because of the way that i am. But like you are more than your sexuality, your religion also knows this. Think of it this way, if you do a lot of good deeds and you do one bad one, does that make you a bad person? I know its an over simplified example, but i want to tell you that you can practice religion while still being gay or bi or anythingin you feel like. Religion is your own path and its up to you on how to follow it. I know you want to raise a family and have children and i wish i knew the answer to that because i want the same for myself, but i dont think that worrying about the future will help you in anyway today except give you anxiety and fears. I know im all over the place, and thats because i also have the same worries and fears that you have, but i really want you to try and live in the moment and yourself right now. Try to be true to yourself at least, because thats the most important thing. Dont try to be somebody you're not, and focus on yourself because you are the most important person. I really hope you find happiness and comfort in who you are because someday you are going to be very proud of yourself!
