Soo... Anyone else feel like this?

So I'm a 16 year old male. I'm gay and I feel like I need to come out. I feel very ready and even have gotten up the courage to try then I start to and have one of those "Can I tell you something important?" (I'm gay) Other person "Yes?" Me (I'm gay) "Oh never mind. I forgot." Kind of moments. (That may look silly but that's how it happens.) I am constantly anxious and depressed about it and I would really like to be out but I always end up taking myself out of it. I have a safety net and am in a safe place to come out. That is honestly part of the depression. I start thinking "Look how many people can't come out. Look how many people would be beaten or kicked out, just for coming out. You can! Why don't you just do it already!" I feel like I'm being stupid or silly but I just can't seem to go through with it. So anyways, I was just wondering if anyone can relate or if maybe I am just crazy? Sorry for the rambling.