feeling lost and alone rn

hey, I don't even know how to start this, but i've been feeling really depressed and anxious lately. Everything just feels too heavy.

I'm gay, but no one in my life knows, i've never told anyone before, and keeping it all inside for so long is starting to really hurt. I feel invisible sometimes, like no one actually knows who i really am. I guess i just need someone to talk to, someone who gets what it's like to be scared of being yourself, or who understands how lonely this can feel. I'm not looking for anything big, just someone kind and real to talk to.

If anyone's been there or wants to listen, I'd really appreciate it :)