I feel so jealous when I see other trans people living their best lives

Comparison is the thief of joy. Jealousy is completely normal and nothing to be ashamed of, but it’s not good for you and can also lead to hurting others. Tune out these kinds of thoughts as they only lead to unhappiness. You need to be doing what’s right for YOU, not what seems right for others. A lot of people fake their happiness online and even in real life. Take things one step at a time, and be grateful for even the smallest of blessings in life (they’re what count the most). Listen to yourself and what you really need. Best of luck to you moving forward!