Sonebody PLEASE PLEASE hel !

Somebody please lease help me I have no one to talk to,my parents are so homophobic and transphobic tgat i can't even trust then with my issues.Every dmn Dy I have to suffer in this stuid masc body i hate it so much that id rather be DEAD than living with this stupid body.Every day im so depressed tgat im literally eating myself to deyh as food is the only thng tgat makes me somewhat happy other than the snall intimate times i get to dress femine when my parents aren't being such jerks.Also i have little hopes for my life ever getting better because im stuck on this stupid homophobic island where I'll probably get frealing killed just for being trans so for now im freaking suffering as testosterone ruins my body every single day.That alone just makes me want to chop off my testicles with a knufe nit to mention my enture sexual organs which I should never had had in the first place to begin with.It makes me so sad,i cry my freakin heart out whe i see ither trans people my age succeedin, going on hormones and stuff, and having a better life than me,because ill probably never have that good of a life,id rather be dead right niw than living,suffering all the timn time,i don't even care about going to college in this crap hole of a country,ill never get to go anyways so my aim right now is to save money,for a plane ticjet out of this stupid place where theb illl fo to seek asylum in a different country,one tgat isnt such a jerk to trans people.When I go to sleep at night part of me just wants to never wake up again because ill just wake up to more suffering.Please,im DESP for someone to just help or reach out to me or just be there for me,PLEASErake care,from Felicity.