Feeling alone

Life is really hard as a neurodivergent human in a male body who doesn't resonate with the male experience and is intensely lonely as a human like me. I am burnt out on decades of being me in a world that doesn't support individuality and especially men. I am exhausted looking for someone. I have been ghosted by multiple therapists, after working with them for multiple sessions, so it is hard to trust that anyone will care. It makes me feel like I am too much, and indeed my experience is that no matter how much I show up for people, no one will ever show up for me. I am posting against my fear that I will be judged or rejected. Someone please prove me wrong.