High school relationship insecurities and being a transgender

crying right now lol I just wrote an essay of a thread here then accidentally clicked off because my hair is wet and hit the screen. Time to try again. 

Hi. My name is Jeremy. I'm a sophomore in high school who has been insecure about my "relationship status" for 2-3 years. Feel free to reply to this thread with similar experiences or if you have any advice for me?? I know this isn't the stuff I should be worrying about at my age, but I think it's something all teens go through so... My turn lol! 

Anyway, so... I dunno where to start lol. I forgot how I wrote this the first time. I've been single since I was 13, so for three years. (I wouldn't call any of my previous relationships actual dating though. Nothing serious. Just a label really.) And a few months after I got out of that relationship, I watched as all my friends were incredibly successful with their dating lives. And they still are! All of my friends are very attractive people who know their way around socially. They're charismatic even when they aren't. I don't know how they do it. 

So I think I've gathered a few reasons why I am incredibly unsuccessful with my dating life in highschool. 1: Me. I am a transgendered person. I call myself a man. I go by a male name. I don't look anything like a man. I am overweight and my chest size is uncomfortably large and I cant do anything about it. I like having my hair long because it reminds me of 1970s and '80s musicians. 2: Attractiveness. Even if I wasn't transgender, I'm still a below average looking person. Plus, my voice is very annoying. People tell me I sound 5 years old over the phone. I also having a conventionally unusual personality. I am autistic and also have depression and anxiety. People commonly describe me as either "weird" or "boring". Which I understand. I don't mind it. But I definitely think it's a contributing factor. 3: My type. I like people WAY out of my league at my highschool (skinny, attractive guys and girls) or WAY older people (like in their 70s. Of course I wouldn't date them at my age, but I still find SOME of them attractive.)

I've had teachers try to tell me that I'm just too insecure and that the people I like like me back, and that I'll never know if I don't try. But most the time you can just tell, yknow? I think they just feel bad for me and say that to try and make me feel better. It doesn't. It makes me feel worse about myself lol!!!! 

My friends are more straight forward and tell me that I'm reaching too high. They are honest. That's what friends are for! But now I am stuck and sort of sad. Everyone else seems very happy! Even the people I meet online are in happy relationships. And I get to listen to them tell me how much fun they are having. It makes me feel very good about myself lmao!! 

Okay, I'm gonna stop writing now. If you're reading this, have a nice day!! :)