dysphoria vent cuz i h8 myselff! so uh trigger warning ig?
maxravennn
February 27th
I dont feel good in my body. i hate my curves, my marks, my everything. my voice is too high, jaw too soft, hair too long, stomach too big, thighs too big, hips too wide, everything. i cant even stand showering anymore because of it. i cry every night after everyone is asleep because of how much i *** hate myself. so many people still think im a girl and it sucks. i got birth control to stop my periods but holy *** i feel like i look so much more feminine now. the only thing that looks masc on me is my shoulders like i have freakishly wide shoulders and it doesnt fit the rest of my body.
Aayla
February 28th
@maxravennn I'm so sorry to hear this. Life for trans people who are not yet able to express themselves can be incredibly hard. If you need to talk about it, I'm here for you.
I hope you'll have the chance to openly be who you truly are as soon as possible. Hold on until you're in the right conditions to come out and pursue the life you truly deserve, including a body that fits your identity. That day will come and you deserve to be in peace with yourself and finally find your happiness. Hold on to give yourself the chance, one day.
In the meantime, I hope you can find ways to feel closer to your identity, be it by experimenting with your look or talking about how you feel to trusted and supportive people.
Whatever happens, remember there's nothing wrong with you. So many people have been through this. Don't let this steal your will to find your happiness eventually. I truly wish you the best on your journey.
