Homophobic family & household
I've been in the closet for a long time now. Throughout this time, I've continously become more and more broken. I've been raised in a homophobic, traditional and religious household. I've developed alot of internalised homophobia as well. I've been able to distract myself for the longest time with school and stuff. Now that it is all complete, I'm forced to face the burden I've been avoiding. All that facade is now breaking down slowly. I feel so deeply hopeless right now. Having to constantly hear the people I love with all my heart wish the worst on people like us. I've got noone to share this with. I've been bottling all of this up.
Oh that's a shame!.. I'm sorry you're in such a terrible situation! That must be creating a big internal conflict for you.. Hope you find some hope though!
I hope you know you are valid and loved, there will always be a family and place for you in this community. I’m sorry this is happening, you are who you are, and that’s beautiful in itself. Don’t ever change that for anybody :)