Sometimes I wish I wasn't a lesbian...
I remember coming out as bisexual two years ago because I didn't want to outright be disowned ( I knew I was a lesbian though, but if I told my family that I'm sure they wouldn't believe me. )
I'd like to say before I even came out to them I had zero self-confidence.
ever since I came out to them two years ago, which before had I had my hair cut short because I was exploring, y' know, my identity (How I wanted to express myself and so on, and I'm a stem lesbian... mainly a butch (masculine ) but with some feminine qualities so I don't outright dress as a guy but I don't mind it ) and after I came out they accused me of wanting to be a boy and then me not being serious about liking girls...
but thats not all, but the gyst of it is im not supported and its screwing me up.
I'm sorry you don't have the support you deserve. However, it was very brave of you to come out, even though not yet in a way that reflects your identity, and to start experimenting with your self-expression. It shows how strong is your desire for freedom, which is your right. If you feel like your family wouldn't even give you a chance to be listened and to challenge their mentality, you can look for support elsewhere. There are stronger things than blood, and a deep understanding is one of those. Family is who loves us unconditionally.
You can try to come out to your most trusted friends, or to look for support in an LGBT association, there are many local groups in a lot of cities, I'm not sure where you live but I trust you can find one near you. I know it's hard to have a non accepting family, but wherever it comes from, support can make you stronger and help you find that freedom you want and deserve. I wish you all the best!
@olivePenguin9300 can relate :(