trying to overcome my social struggles.

lately i had been just jumping from activity to activity and i kinda forgot the feeling of socializing and after taking the time to see how to change things, especially after writing something here to help me be aware of my situation, also talking to my therapist i kinda see that i need to do changes in my overall habits/agenda, etc. One of them is having more social activities to have chances to talk, so basically be in activities were i can become more sociable, nut just thinking about it, but just do them. in Friday i went to a nightclub halloween, it was a nice attempt, i lasted 1 hour 20 mins, cause it was late, i was tired , started to got stress out due to people smoking and mainly cause I had been neglecting my part related to women, like dating, or hooks up, or sex. So when in the nightclub i felt afraid to facing desires, kinda its easier to pretend I am not affected due to fear, maybe cause of not being used to facing some situations. Saturday i went to a meet up event to be sociable and it was great. It was mainly seating in tables and do language exchanges in one bar then we went to another with some of the people there, I notice how people talk more freely when with alcohol. So i still need to overcome my struggles.