One milestone I have reached recently is.....

might sound a little pathetic but as of right now im 5 days sober!! im super proud of myself

Stepping out of my comfort zone and applying/interviewing for new jobs

I haven't cut myself in two months. And that says alot for me.

finding and using a way to prevent myself from getting into old self-harm habits and the recent thoughts about doing self-harm again.

I finally got an interview after almost 5 months of looking for a job.

I have confidence, trust in myself and I love myself again. I have worked hard and yet anxiety and depression still get to me. My mind is getting stronger. I have been focusing less and less and becoming myself again. My ambition is starting to come back as well. Time and patience. Guilt and grief are slowly gone too.

I've started meal prepping instead of hitting up the drive thru every day

I have overcome nearly crippling fear from this episode of depression. When they say step out of your comfort zone, it was all so real for me. I feel like I can still make the best of my life with the hand I've been given even still. It's okay to need people. This is a simultaneous step towards a brighter future and one of my long term goals while still doing what needs to be done in the meantime.

I definitely earned the milestone of bravery because I was so worried, but I know that I am loved and I want my family and friends to know I'm okay. I'm breaking out of the silence and isolation of what I'm feeling to still keep my promises and my will to... I guess live like this - in a manner of speaking.

Thanks for taking the time to read this.

XO

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A since of clam for what im about to go through I am interning a law suit over failure to file coworkers comp but tell me to put ice on it instead then ignor me when I say I need a doctor then say we will not pay you back for that doctor at all I'm not only hurt but pissed at my company and bosses right now. Word to the wise never befriend your boss.......

I got accepted to the nursing/medical nursing school I wanted to get in!😍