I didnt know there was a name to what I did.

Let me start this off with I've never been diagnosed with this and just incase I will throw in a nice little self harm trigger warning here.

So I'm watching some videos on different mental health things and came across a counselor named kati Morton, in one of her videos she talks about this. I have always been a picker as in I pick scabs, I pick at imperfections on my face and body it's always at it's worse when my anxiety is high and I do have OCD. I never thought to bring this up while I was in therapy a long while back I just didnt think it really mattered. I compare my scab picking to someone who cuts, I've never cut so I just assume it's sort of how they feel. When my anxiety is really high and I have something to pick I start and i will not stop till the scab is 100% off, the little bit of pain you get from doing this is like a release for me i feel relieved and like i can breathe again, if I dont I will go into an anxiety attack until it's off to the point that I will use tweezers and other "tools" to make sure it's done. Everyone who really knows me knows I do this and I dont discriminate where I pick either and when I get into a picking ritual it is really hard to make myself stop so that it can heal. I've done this for as long as I can remember and it is just amazing to me that there is actually a freaking name for what it is!