OCD

Hey, been a while since my last post but I just felt like sharing. I've been dealing with COCD for a while now(self diagnosed). Safe to say things have gotten much better since the last time. I used to have wild and disgusting intrusive thoughts that would offend me a lot. But lately the thoughts are much more calm.

I live at my grandparents house and we have a servant's quarters. The main house is an airbnb so when there's guests, me and our househelp share the sq that is a bed sitter. Now the thing about our house help is she has unhygienic habits and is obnoxiously loud; so with my OCD, it's really had to live with her. And on top of that the sq has an open ground toilet, and it does get smelly over there, including the small room. And at night when we close the windows the smell accumulates and it makes me uncomfortable I can hardly breathe sometimes. So you see how hard it would get when I have to share a bed with her living in the small bedsitter. It almost drove me crazy a few times.

Right now I'm in the main house, haven't had a guest for a while; safe to say it's been just much more peaceful. But the thought and fear of being stuck in the bedsitter with her still lingers. Everytime I'm in the main house I'm always reminiscing on how bad it is in the SQ.