thoughts suck.
i hate thinking sometimes, tbh.
if you'd met me a few months ago i'd still be okay. still mentally unwell, sure, but as it stands, i'd give anything to be that version of me all over again.
i'm not even sure if this is ocd,, but intrusive thoughts/disturbing thoughts in general have been bleeding into my everyday life since late august, ever since my mom had yelled at me abt finding a piece of my vent writing. i felt unphased for a good while, just a little angry, but i had a rlly gross thought/dream (not sure which it was atp) that same night, and i've never been the same since. im getting better at masking these thoughts and carrying on, moreso than ACTUALLY getting better. i'm aware thats rlly not good for me but i'm unable to address these thoughts to literally anyone in my personal life, because i know i'd just be labeled as a disgusting, depraved person. i have no intent to act on anything i think about but, like,, its scary. all of this is scary.
Hi Tokki, I can see how challenging things are for you and I am sorry to hear about your struggles. It will be best if you can connect to a medical professional for a diagnosis if you suspect OCD.
OCD tends to differ a little in approach to thoughts compared to most other disorders in the sense that in one of the more popular/effective OCD treatments (Exposure and response prevention therapy), the focus is not at all on exploring these thoughts. Instead, the focus is on treating all thoughts the same trying not to get sucked into how disturbing/annoying they are. Therefore it is important to know if you are dealing with OCD or not.
If you are interested in more info on OCD, this is a great channel for it.
Hi there , happy u were able to find help unlike me but as someone who has lost so so much in life because of these thoughts and someone who knows how it feels and how to overcome these thoughts i can help u , first understand what ocd is :- it stands for obsession compulsion disorder , in this disorder u have an intrusive thought and it's always something negative and something u never want to come in ur mind again but what happens is exactly opposite it comes to ur mind again and again and then u try to give explanation to urself y it is not right to have this thought , which is compulsion and that thought was obsession, the cycle continues, every time u made urself understand ok it was wrong, y was it wrong etc . It comes again destroying ur sleep , ur mental health, studies etc. so what's the cure for this , 1. Accept the thought whatever it is , no matter how gross it is , for example u might think of having s. ex with ur cousin or whatever and then u may feel disgusting, will oppose that thought, don't do it , accept it tell urself yeah yeah whatever and go to sleep , drink water , it will take some days but the moment u start ignoring those thoughts and stop giving reasons for thoughts they will vanish. Try this first step and keep us informed then we will move on to next step ☺️
