Metaphysical contamination OCD
I've always struggled with this specific subtype of ocd yet over the past couple of months it's progressively gotten worse. I feel strong energies and vibes from "bad" places associated with the trauma. If I do something I like there, or associate something with that place then it'll get contaminated by this energy or vibe. Yet these vibes and energies feel like my whole life ever since I was small. I enjoyed discovering and feeling new ones, I would feel very powerful positive ones and it has a lot of amazing benefits. It feels like an entirely new sense in itself and just like I can't imagine my life without sight or sound etc.. I feel the same for this. Yet it's hard constantly trying to avoid things not doing what I love etc.. and getting good things contaminated with bad vibes. I wondered if anyone experienced something similar or has any tips or advice to offer for this.
@leaMoon123 Hi Moon thank you for sharing your experience with us. While I do not have experience with metaphysical contamination OCD, I have contamination OCD and some superstitious OCD. Like avoid black cats and all of that. Honestly I just had to do the things I tried to avoid to get better. We had this very old black cat in our neighborhood and it was a particularly important day at work. But I made myself go over and pet him to show that nothing was going to happen from petting this cat. While something bad might happen with work, it would not be because I touched a black cat. OCD is a doubting disorder, and we have to learn to accept the doubt that comes certain actions that could make our "clean" or safe spaces (literal or figurative) "dirty." Have you been doing exposure therapy at all? We are here for you!
