is this OCD it's so exhaustiingg
My mind is controlling me.. It's screaming at me, it says, that I am not allowed to think. to think anything. like a normal human should be. And then I talk back to my mind and say things like "but I am a human, humans have a brain and they think, please be quit" but then my Mind/OCD is like: "nah, you are thinking again, don't think" and that is a cycle.. i hope you understand what I mean. it's sooooooo exhausting. I am fighting with my own head and it stresses me so so much. Because of the stress I got skin rash all over my body. :( is this OCD?
I am no health expert, but this is exactly what happens with me.. But i have now made peace with my own mind,i let it speak when it wants to i let it scold me. or talk to me about anything. It's one of the best feelings now to be talking to myself. I know i am an exceptional case up until now noone else i have heard of has found such a mental state pleasurable as much as i do. In the beginning, It was similar as yours. Not rashes but yes Facial acne, were there.. it's not like they have disappeared completely but they are much less almost irrecognizable some weeks while quite visible the other ones.. I hope you do see a therapist, and a skin expert. they can really be of great help.
@sarassn
I completely understand you, I have ocd. if you are getting intrusive thoughts, and they are difficult to stop, they come again and again, you feel like you have to think of something better or count numbers, wash hands repeatedly, place things in correct order, etc, to stop them, you may have ocd. I suggest you to take a diagnostic or visit a professional. take care
@sarassn I am sorry you are feeling that way <3 OCD can really feel like another entity hijacks your mind. I hope you are able to find some help soon. We are here for support if you need.
There is an OCD support session on Wednesday 8pm EST if you would like to join <3 The next one will be coming up soon.