Chat Between @jesusredeemedme2425 and @celestine22
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Hey :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
hey how are you doing?
Awesome! I got 4 bags of free books today <3
How are you???? How’s the bf thing going?
@jesusredeemedme2425
Awesome!!!
It's a bit rough right now. Im honestly all over the place trying to juggle a million things all at once and feeling completely overwhelmed but trying to find ways to stay on track, and right now, this morning apparently we aren't even talking, my boyfriend and I. We are fighting again, I send him a letter this morning. Let's see if he will read it and try to help out more but I doubt it honestly. But I am going to take the decision to focus on me and my own boundaries and energy that I can give him. Which isn't a lot right now
I think you’re making really good choices with the boundaries thing <3 He needs to get himself together and mature.
How’s my girl doing? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Heyy how are you? Im sorry for not being online a lot, have been busy and kinda just forgot being honest...
I'm doing really well. Making some big changes in my lifestyle and already feeling so much better overall. My relationship is going a lot better as well, my boyfriend started working and it has made such a big difference between us and how he is etc.
Still having my ups and downs of course, good and bad days but just trying to do my best every single thing.
How are you doing?
@jesusredeemedme2425
The only thing is that I finally told my parents that I have a boyfriend, not even yet that we are living together. They don't know him nothing, but they are against this whole relationship, not for what already happened between us as they have no idea, no, just because he is a Dominican. (We are Dutch but moved to the Dominican Republic, 8 yrs ago). Like why did you even bring me here if you are so racist towards locals? -- they aren't as intelligent as us / they cheat / be careful / ask his ex wife and friends why that relationship ended.... Like some ridiculous things... And no matter what I said, they still found something wrong with my answer. It's tough, why can't they just try to be supportive?
I am SO sorry… I am such a bad friend. I’m still here… Been dealing with a lot and came down with the flu. I’m so sorry for not response sooner :(
@jesusredeemedme2425
Heyy It's not a problem at all. I haven't been online that much myself neither. Just been busy and not a lot of downtime lately anymore :) How have you been?
Good or bad?
Ehhhh not so good… Did you see my last post under general? Beware the TW…
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm so sorry... Feeling any better?
Know that you can always vent here, I'm here for you
I think I’m ready for change…
Hey :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
HI how are you doing? Im sorry for disappearing
All good, you ok? <3
Eh life, but life is ok <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Good!
For me, i've been having a tough time. I got some very annoying noisy neighbours and the music just got too much - it was daily just blasting sometimes from 8am in the morning until the evening so I might have gotten angry.... and got the landlord and everybody involved, so it's nice and calm now, but my boyfriend and I are loooking for places to move. It's just too uncomfortable now and new years eve it got so bad that the entire house was vibrating from their music (they are like 30-40 meters away from our house so that says enough I guess about how loud it got) and it triggered some old traumas. So I went into this state of immense anger, then dissociation and now im getting sick with the flu. So yeah, not a great start of the new year. but getting there
Neighbors are annoying. :(
Hey :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
Hi how are you doing?
I fail at responding lol
I’m currently exhausted and trying to rest, but also accomplish things at the same time lol
Watching/reading anything good lately??
@jesusredeemedme2425
Hi not a problem, Life is incredibly stressful and chaotic here, completely in break down right now, or burn out I don't know. just taking it one day at a time right now. Not reading anything right now but I ordered some books, always wanted to read the hobbit and the lord of the rings series, also ordered Pride and Prejudice, The little prince and the power of habit.
i"m currently watching the serie: the neighborhood. Just something easy to relax in the evenings.
I’m sorry I didn’t see this sooner :(
How are you feeling now??
Be aware that The Little Prince is unexpectedly triggering at the end…
What’s that about?
I’m watching The Mole rn :)
Also, if you could have anything in the world that you wanted, what would it be?
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm feeling ok-ish. Pretty sure I'm in burnout though - not as severe that I can't get out of bed anymore but just enough energy left to get through work and collapse in the evenings... I'm working with a life coach that also has lots of experience with people that are in burnout now.
Just doing the best I can and have protected rest hours after work as much as possible.
Thank you for letting me know, haven't started reading The Little Prince yet, but always good to know.
The Neighborhood is just a show about a white family that moved next door to a black family.
If I could have anything in the world.... at this moment I think I would just want peace, no loud neighbours or people bothering me or making me feel bad for every choice I make...
How are you doing?
I’m there, too.
You should read “The One and Only Ivan”. <3
Are people bothering you?
@jesusredeemedme2425
I put the book "The One and Only Ivan" saved on amazon, for the next time I order books again.
I just broke up with my boyfriend last week. He still needs to pick up his stuff but I already feel so much better. More in control, and just happier without me.... less stress and no one that just uses me for money, at least that's what it felt like for quite some time now... Still in like a transitioning phase, but overall feeling better.
You’ll love it <3
I’m so sorry… But also, I’m so proud of you! He needs time and space to grow, and so do you <3
How are you feeling now?
@jesusredeemedme2425
It's for the best, at least for me - the breakup.
I'm not sure how to feel though - I feel good and relaxed but also bad and guilty - he is having some health issues and has already been in the hospital for over a week now... I kinda feel like a b*itch for not being there for him but I mean we broke up, he isn't my problem anymore though....
but also now I finally have time to work with past traumas and all the emotions I never fully worked with and released so lots of ups and down. It's a bit tough, but i'll get there
How are you doing?
@jesusredeemedme2425
Was working on this tonight, in case you want to read it or also, feel free to share it.
https://bit.ly/4ebXYd5
I don’t click most links, sorry!