Chat Between @jesusredeemedme2425 and @cyanessence
@jesusredeemedme2425
It is no doubt sad. I will miss you more than I thought it possible to miss pretty much a stranger on the internet.
I look towards the future though. You'll be back! And you'll be stronger and brighter than before. You can use the time to reflect on your experiences here. You may just come up with nuggets of wisdom that take you by surprise.
You value me that much?
@jesusredeemedme2425
Yes! You are one of my closest friends! An inspiration! I know we barely know each other, and have only known of each other for the briefest of times, but you speak to me in ways that words fail to describe.
Ditto lol
That’s the cool part about 7Cups… You find kindred spirits here <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Kindred spirit is probably the best term for it.
Tiny, Amanda, Creamy, Torean, they are kindred spirits too. There are more... azurePond, Szellam, BastionKnight, the list goes on while my memory fails.
It feels a bit rude to the others but I have to be honest: you are my favourite. You are like an undiscovered colour, a new word that describes a new thing. A beacon of hope in the storm of life.
I swear you are all the proof I need to believe in God.
Sorry for being dramatic...! It's my inner poet coming out lol. I just want there to be no doubt. I appreciate you.
Heh. I guess I’m appreciated. ;)
I’m a new color?? Hehe
I want you to read your Bible while I’m gone :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
Haven't forgotten! First, Gospel of John. Then, Revelations.
Then, I guess I could start reading it like a book as you recommended. I have trouble doing anything linearly though.
Use an audiobook if needed. Download the Bible app, it has really good audio <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Downloading now!
@jesusredeemedme2425
Song you might like: Fade Away by Passion, Melodie Malone.
I do miss you, but it's important to me that you take your time.
I was worried about you!
@jesusredeemedme2425
Likewise! It must have been hard stepping back from a place of comfort.
I want nothing more than to hear about all you've been up to, your reckoning of things. But I don't want to push you and cause pain.
I'm happy you responded though ^^
You didn’t respond to posts :(
I’m still mostly taking a break. Ignoring most notifications lol
I haven’t done much lol, finished a book tho lol
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm so sorry! I'll try and find what I missed. It's not intentional, talking with you is perhaps my favourite part of 7 Cups.
What book did you finish? I should read my book lol.
The group chat, for one hehe
Awww :)
The People of Sparks :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
Ah sorry! I've been ultra distracted by my essay, which I'm not so much now that I've got a first draft.
I looked up a brief description of that book, sounds really cool!
I think I may have a cold.
What essay?
You should read it! It’s also a movie.
Uh oh!
@jesusredeemedme2425
My essay on meaning. It's up in the Reading & Writing section. It's kind of a hyperfocus at the moment but I'm taking a small break from thinking. You don't have to read it, but it's there if you're curious.
A movie as well hey? Have you seen it? Any idea which is better, or do they both have merits?
I'll get better, I'm never sick for long!
I feel like hiding
@jesusredeemedme2425
I felt like that somewhat recently. Just wanted to completely disappear. I think you saw the post about it.
It's okay if you need some quiet time. I'm really proud that you even put words to the feeling, it was a big step for me. Usually I'd just internalise everything. As much as it felt like I was letting people down by expressing my thoughts, ultimately I felt better for not bottling up.
No decent person is going to judge you for being human. You're allowed to feel the full range of emotions life has to offer. You're coping in a healthy way.
Hide if it feels right. Speak if you need to. The world will embrace you when you're ready.
I just wanna be invisible.
@jesusredeemedme2425
I wish I had the words to make you feel better, walk out of this place. But I'm not sure there are any that wouldn't just exacerbate your feelings.
Your pain feels like my pain! I just have so much empathy for you. Ride this out as best you can, say as much or as little as you want.
In times like these, my only solace is the existence of time. It causes change... things won't be this way forever.
Kiara isn’t supposed to be like this.
@jesusredeemedme2425
Someone touched on this, but I agree: you are perfect in your whole self.
What's happened has shaken you. It shows you are deeply in tune with your emotions and those of others. When someone you care about hurts, it seems to hurt you even more.
Empathy and sympathy are double-edged swords. They allow us to understand, but they also allow us to feel the pain of others. I think they are not only useful, but necessary for being a good, well-rounded person.
I personally would rather feel, cry, than have nothing inside. I remember when I couldn't cry, even when truly terrible things happened. A beloved pet passed away due to a car accident, and I was numb. I felt inhuman. It makes me cry now just thinking of that.
I accept every part of you. There is no bad in you.
:(
@jesusredeemedme2425
Thinking of you and your loved ones Kiara. You don't need to smile right now.
Make an encouragement post?
@jesusredeemedme2425
Like the ones you do? I'll get to one after lunch ^^
Mhmm
I forget you’re so far ahead. Lol
For someone new, tho. Someone we haven’t reached yet. <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
I was gonna do one for Creamyyy, I feel like I overloaded him with philosophy lol.
Maybe I could do two, one for someone old, one for someone new?
Sure! Creamyyy already has one tho.
@jesusredeemedme2425
Oh well I guess he has another now xD oops!
He’ll be absolutely honored to get one from you <3
He’s a dude, right?? Lol
Thank you! Don’t forget to add it to the Master List. I need to do that with my last 4, too :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
Master list? I think I'll need more info. Happy to comply, I'm just new and lost.
Lol. Search “master list of encouragement posts”. Just copy what I did lol
@jesusredeemedme2425
Alright, I think I did that correctly. Thanks for the help!
I think I'm gonna take a break, I'm dying lol. Might just listen to music, eyes closed and rest for a bit.
You did it perfectly! Thank you <3
Awww, I’m sorry for asking you to do stuff… I forgot you were sick. :(
@jesusredeemedme2425
Hey I wouldn't do it if I didn't want to. It actually made me feel a bit better.
It's just about managing one's cup. I want to be my best for others and right now I just feel foggy.
Thanks for spurring me on to be a better person!
Go rest. Read. Sleep <3
Where’s Red’s post?
Nm found it lol
@jesusredeemedme2425
Glad you found it!
I didn’t realize I wasn’t subscribed to that post lol
@jesusredeemedme2425
My nose betrays me. I sneeze like it's destined. Tears escape, and I can only hope that's the sickness leaving, but maybe it's just my soul crying.
I don't like being sick! If it doesn't get better soon I might have to get something from the pharmacy.
Cry it out, you’ll feel better <3
Cy?
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm here now! I had a full day.
I went out early and got breakfast, then bought some books a friend recommended. Then explored town for a bit before getting a haircut (it's still long, but neater and healthier). My hairdresser gave some excellent tips for healthy hair. Then I grabbed some lunch, and caught up with a friend after. Went home and spent some time resting before doing some grocery shopping. Dinner was a bit sad, just potato salad, but I do like simplicity.
Sorry if I kept you waiting, I did miss this place. I tried keeping up while out but it was too much to juggle. I have quite a few notifications!
Hope you are well, and Mrs Fred.
You want some help with your time management? Hehe
Which books?
Potato salad really is sad XD
Nah, I just wanted to see how you’d react if I said your name hehe
I’m ok. Hand strain, tired, etc. Mom is doing quite a bit better, not perfect, but a far cry from before <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
I don't know how to manage time very effectively! I feel so chaotic at times. I'm getting better but I'm open to suggestions.
The 48 Laws of Power (which I'm already wary of!) And The Prince. The person that gave the recommendations is highly curious to me. I'd like to read them just so I understand them more.
Lunch today was similarly sad. Just party pies, sausage rolls and a basic salad. The salad was my favourite, it had capsicum so it was tasty. I do worry about my health with the food I eat but I don't have a lot of choice at the moment.
I felt it was a call to attention! I felt like I was missing things again lol. You keep me on my toes.
I can tell you're taking it easier on here, makes me happy. It's always nice to see you around though. I thought of you the other night when I was trying to open a bottle. I just... couldn't! It hurt far too much. Neither hand was working. I ended up using a tea towel and it worked eventually. I don't know why but I laugh at my own pain (never others, pain isn't funny). I think it helps me cope.
I'm glad to hear she's feeling better. I pray for health and happiness for the both of you!
Did you see my suggestions in the summer reading post?
I just finished “Rolling Warrior”. Look it up hehe
Mmm sausage rolls <3
Capsicum? Is that bell pepper?
Why no choice?
Sorry! That wasn’t the intention lol
I’m really not…
Buy one of those rubber jar openers! They’re AMAZING <3
Thank you! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
They are good suggestions! I think I still suffer from a bit of black-and-white thinking. I thought starting a new book meant abandoning the current one. And different settings provide different mind spaces. I'll have to feel it out.
That sounds like an inspiring book! I love a fight for justice.
Yes I believe capsicum = bell pepper! I don't have much ability to cook for myself because of where I live. It's a Supported Residential Service, and so cooking is handled by the staff. I'm looking at moving out, just have to organise myself. I want to cook, need to cook. It has been nice being in a low pressure environment, but I need to get back on my feet. It was a last resort, coming here.
A jar opener may be on the cards!
Absolutely not! Even if it’s one book in bed, and one when you’re sitting at the table. Whatever works <3 Try it! <3
Right??? I never thought about the fight for accessibility before.
What’s an SRS?
Buy one hehe
You should do a penpal chat with BK :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
Always full of good advice ^^ thank you. I don't feel so boxed in now <3
I saw a video the other day of someone appreciating what is usually taken for granted. Sight, mobility, etc. It made me want to see for those that can't, walk for those unable. Disability rights are very important to me. Everyone deserves quality of life.
An SRS is like a low-level care facility. You're pretty independent, but life is just... simplified. It's making me feel like a baby though. If I could have organised a proper place, I would have. Alas, this was a blessing. It was here that I recovered from depression and mostly from anxiety. It was here I rediscovered my love for philosophy. I actually wrote something I'm proud of! But it's getting time to leave.
I'll probably do just that, talk to BK. I find it extremely hard to ignore any suggestion from you!
Want more life suggestions? Hehe
Mhmm <3
I wonder what the equivalent is here? I’ve never heard of that…
He’s incredibly fun to talk to, and goes deep, and loves hard <3 He’s one of my faves <3 Make a chat hehe!
@jesusredeemedme2425
Any life advice from you is golden.
I don't know if they have anything like SRS over there. I feel incredibly lucky that I didn't end up on the streets or living with people I don't like.
BK sounds amazing. I'll get onto it soon, might take a bit of a break for now though.
Go unsubscribe from 5 emails. Let me know when you’re done. :)
What makes people go there?
Okie :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
Thanks for reminding me to unsubscribe from emails...! It's a simple way to avoid being overwhelmed with unnecessary information.
That's a good question! For me, I was in the Adult Acute Unit and expressed I couldn't go back home, and so was introduced to a social worker. They led me here. There are others in similar positions, but I don't think anyone was really looking for a place like this. It's a place for the displaced, a home for the homeless.
BK has been showering me with kindness. I think I'll start that chat!
Did you do it? Are you ready for your next challenge? <3
Why couldn’t you go back home?
Is it like a shelter?
I saw you made one hehe. Yay! You’ll greatly enjoy taking to him <3
