Chat Between @jesusredeemedme2425 and @cyanessence
Hi <3
What’s your other post about? I’m confused…
@jesusredeemedme2425
I've posted a fair bit recently... a bit hard to keep track of sometimes.
I've been kind of emotional lately. Feeling very sorry for all the friction and confusion I cause. I never mean to do such things. I just want to be... calm. Chill.
I am an open book, but there’s a lot of pages. I'm happy to talk. Though, at the end of the day, I'd like people to know: I'm trying my best. Trying to just spread kindness.
You made me sound like an awful person and idk why.
@jesusredeemedme2425
That wasn't my intention. It's why I often retreat into silence: I feel perpetually misunderstood. But, that's no-one's fault. Just a flaw of mine.
I feared this might not be the space for me. I never wanted to hurt or upset anyone, especially you.
I remember saying, a while ago, I would not allow myself to exist here if it meant bringing others down.
I know my pattern. It does need somewhere to breathe, but I feel I've taken up too much air here.
I truly wish you well. I've always looked up to you, and I will remember, fondly, all the good times.
Leaving isn’t going to help.
Your words, however, along with a couple of things, did send me into a bad spiral the other day.
And I still don’t understand why you were upset with me.
No leaving allowed.
Hey :)
