Chat Between @jesusredeemedme2425 and @unassumingEyes
I thought that I would make us a penpal chat, because I love talking to you and I’d love to get to know you more! Please feel free to ignore if you don’t want to, or if you don’t feel comfy. No pressure! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 i got spooked xD i check my notifications like every 5 seconds, and i literally jumped on seeing a new one xD
I would love a penpal with you, but i warn you, i can be boring xD or depressing. Or confused- did i mention im smol xD but i can be here with you. I know how to do that atleast
Heres to chaos and lovely times *raises glass of orange juice*
Spooked how? Lol
I Can be incredibly depressing too. You cool with that? Hehe
You’re younger than me. That doesn’t make you smol. You are wise and eloquent beyond your age. I LOVE talking to you! <3
Can I have water instead? Hehe
@jesusredeemedme2425 yes you can xD
whyyyy do people call me wise? Im literally just as confused as the rest of you. Just a little good with words. Thats just like...........nvm xD
Yes im okay with depressing 🤍 if friends arent okay w that who will be? xD
Or a Shirley Temple. Those are gooodddd <3
Maybe that’s just it. You’re reassuring and comforting and have a way with words. You’re like… a fireplace. Warm and cozy and makes you feel safe <3
Right???? … but I’ve lost a lot of friends that way lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 those are what the internet calls ✨️fake friends✨️ (no offense)
thank you honestly i do wanna be all those things xD but i dont feel like i am xD
No idea what a shirley temple is 😃
Also, heads up, i gotta go. Its breakfast time lol. Hey, imagine the loneliness is a shadow monster. Either grab a bat or befriend it xD
take care of yourself 🤍
You must be on the opposite side of the world from me then. You posted right after I went to sleep lol! I’m in America. You? (You don’t have to tell me btw) <3
I think of my obsessive loud thoughts as bats flapping loudly around me lol. Does that count???
@jesusredeemedme2425 are they atleast cute bats? Think of them as bright pink bats. Not so scary now, are you, thoughts? xD
when i get upset, i like to imagine all my thoughts become pretty patterned butterflies and fly away from my head xD
im all the way over in south asia :D
Nah, dark bats. The cool kind. The somewhat creepy yet majestic kind <3
Awww
Too funny, I totally thought you were American lol! You write like one I guess hehe
@jesusredeemedme2425 im taking that as a compliment xD english is my second language technically, but i know it better than my first + was taught it first. I would pretend to be american and become a spy, but my accent is a dead give away xD
Bats are cool but also kind of gross no offence xD
I would never have known it lol! Most people who are ESL at least have minor grammatical errors to indicate such. Your English is practically perfect hehe
Gross??? Why??? <3 Have you ever seen a baby bat???? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 you should see me with my first language. Im...not good at it xD
i know biological facts on bats that make me go "what?" xD ive seen pics of baby bats, but never seen one (baby or adult) in real life
How come?
What kind of facts?
@jesusredeemedme2425 i spent most of my life in a foreign country, so i wasnt taught it in school + wasnt surrounded by people speaking that language. Just two years ago I moved to my home country and started speaking the language. I knew it before, but badly. I make do now xD
According to my bio sir, bats excrete liquid wastes all over themselves for...well biological reasons like thermoregulation and in some species to attract the female. Im not certain how true that is though xD
@jesusredeemedme2425 you alright? I just realized i havent seen you post anywhere since i think saturday
I’ve been posting sorta, you just haven’t seen it lol. Also, LOTS of events lately! Christmas is crazy. Lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 oops xD
hope youre having a good time in the holiday season. got any fun plans?
Not coming up. Kinda sad about that…
@jesusredeemedme2425 do you have any cupsmas plans then?
Do you decorate for the hols? Other than a tree, i guess. Do you get an actual tree, or a fake one? Did you believe in Santa? Do children get upset about the truth about him? Sorry for all the questions lol
No.
Mostly no. Yes to the last one. For good reason. Their parents lied to them. For YEARS. What else did they lie about? Did they lie about their religious beliefs too?
I have no family. Besides my mom. Nowhere to go for Christmas…
@jesusredeemedme2425 is there a reason you dont decorate?/nfta
I feel like the santa thing is unnecessary. Kids love gifts, so why not just give them as parents xD
well, the vibe i get from the whole christmas thing is its supposed to be cozy and with the people you love. youve got that down i think
I don’t have my own place, and never really cared about decorating. In general even. Let the walls be bare XD
Right??? Like why be dishonest with your children?
Yeah but you’re also supposed to like DO stuff.
…also I really have no real friends except for a select few. They’re all fake. So that hurts.
@jesusredeemedme2425 why do you keep them? The fake friends?/nfta
I have one (1) real friend irl and she lives in another ✨️continent✨️
Do stuff...hmmm...gift giving? We dont celebrate christmas etc but we have a religious holiday in which we basically make barely-held-together decor and give handmade gifts (handmade because im broke lol). And then we watch a movie or go to a park 🤷♀️
Remind me to respond to this tomorrow lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 i forgot to remind you to respond 🫣
@jesusredeemedme2425 ello! hows 2026 going for you?
Bleh.
You??
@jesusredeemedme2425 real.
So far....5 bad days and one okay one. So...the usual? xD
Do tell?
Yeah. Basically… But it’s getting better. :)
@jesusredeemedme2425 thats good to hear!
lifes just weird lol
Do tell, I’m all ears <3
Go check out my cultural foods posts in Around the World! <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 i saw them! Theyre fun. I always wonder what people around the world have for breakfast. Other than pancakes lmao
Go respond to some hehe
Hey :)
@jesusredeemedme2425 hello! Sorry for the absences. Life was chaotic, bit better now. eyes is around once again :D
how do you do, you spectacular you?
Yayyyy! We missed you <3
Why chaotic?
Eh. Mid. Lol
Not enjoying my ED tonight…
@jesusredeemedme2425 bonk the ED. several times xD
✨️exams✨️- theyre over now :D
anything i can do to help?
With what hehe
Yay!!! How’d you do??
Just… be there. <3
@jesusredeemedme2425 i am very here. Im so here youre looking for a broom to use to sweep me out of here xD
Bonk it with a... tricycle. Yes that makes sense
They were pass/fail exams. I passed. Woohoo xD 🎉
I fail at responding. Lol
I never wanna sweep you out of here <3
Wha
Yay!!!! <3
How’s Eyes doing lately? <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Its ok, i fail at responding too xD
eyes is a little bit...not okay. not very not-okay, or concerningly not-okay. just enough to feel it, yknow? and a fog in the brain. tbh, i dont know why i opened cups rn. yet here i am.
hows kiara doing? anything on your mind? good, bad, lovely, weird...im all ears
What causes that? How can I help? <3
You opened Cups because you needed love <3 You should write an emotional post and get it all out <3
I’m not ok :’( Check my last post under general
@jesusredeemedme2425
I dont know how you do it. Youre braver than I am. To make such a public post– and what? People face worse than me. Its not...I dont even feel better from the responses, tbh. I dont know why that is.
I feel better, today. A little more alive. I cant predict days like yesterday, or understand them. They just are.
I did see your posts, albeit very very late. Howre you feeling now? I replied to one, about venting about men. The ptsd...ive got no experience there. I only know that you are very very loved and very very loveable, and i hope the difficulty passes quickly 🤍
I don’t even remember what I wrote.
Comparing doesn’t help. Your experiences matter.
Sometimes pleasantries are just… words.
Same. Emotions don’t make sense.
I’m ok. Ish. Idk how I feel atm… Tired. Good. Idk. Who knows.
I wish someone would love me. I’m tired of being used.
Hey. I suck at responding. I’m sorry…
@jesusredeemedme2425
That's okay. Never worry about that. I'm good at waiting 🤍
I get the wanting to be loved. Romantically, im young still, although sometimes I get a glimpse of that kind of longing too. I dont understand, but Im starting to
And otherwise? I know I am loved, I know, but its not in a way that I can feel it and understand
Comparisons dont help, i know. But im so used to it...so used to every move being measured on someone else's scale.
Yeah...words. and in my experience, words never saved anyone. Maybe they do, really, but ive exhausted the english language and lost people to the darkness anwyways.
Theyre just words.
(Hugs if ok)
Thank you for always loving me and being there for me <3
Have you ever dated?
I hope you never live life like I have. I hope you dance <3
I love you. I hope you can feel that. <3 And I totally understand, I’m there too.
Who’s measuring you?
***TW*** Sometimes words do save lives… People find pages from the Bible, or someone smiles at them or says something kind… and they go home and don’t do what they’ve planned to do. And that’s my goal in life. To show people Jesus and to save lives. <3
Words can burn or build. We must choose.
If you could have anything in the world that you wanted, what would it be?
@jesusredeemedme2425
Thank you for letting me love you
No, Ive never dated. Where i live, our culture focuses on arranged marriages etc
My mom measures me. Or well...everyone does, but she does it the most
I know words have..helped me. But its like some people are too far gone. But thinking that feels like giving up on them. I think im more giving up on my ability to be any help
Anything in the world...for all the cruelty to end. What about you?
Letting you?
Where do you live? (You don’t have to answer that.) I’m American.
Why do they measure you?
Some people you just have to pray for.
I want everyone to know Jesus <3
@jesusredeenedne2425
Ofcourse. Its hard to be loved, isnt it? Teens find it hard, at the very least. Easier to...not.
Im generally okay with mentioning where I live, because i trust cupsers, but with the recent development of google ai apparently knowing things about you from what you post in forums...
well, i hope youll excuse me not wanting to say it.
ive mentioned it before, somewhere on cups. they measure and judge me for the crime of not being my sister.
but theres nothing we can do about that
genuine question, with no ill-intention behind it: how are you so sure in your belief in Jesus? even christians are divided (orthodox, catholic, protestants etc) yes? how do you know, for certain, that your faith is right?
did you never doubt?
Being loved after PTSD I definitely hard…
I was a homeschooled teen, so I don’t know how most teens live and feel.
Yeah, whatever happened to that post btw?
No worries <3
Why is that a bad thing?
I doubt all the time. But I’ve experienced Jesus’ love and care, and I also know what life is like without Him. It makes it easy to know that Jesus is real, when you’ve lived it…
What do you believe?
@jesusredeemedme2425
I think you do. Know what teens feel, i mean. Alot of us relate to you, easily. And homeschooled teens are still just...teens. Some experiences are astoundingly universal
Why is what bad?
What do I believe? A little bit of everything, a little bit of nothing. But I was born in a Muslim family, and so im Muslim by birth
atleast you admit to...wondering. i cant stand when people are so..sure.
I’m honestly just a kid in a big body… And I can tell you that other adults feel that way too. We don’t have it all together. We fake it. We stumble along the way and google things like you guys do.
Why do they relate to me easily?
I meant like… going to school. Besides a tiny bit, I’ve never been to a real school. I don’t understand how that stuff works. I don’t even know how grades work.
What kind of experiences?
Idk what I was responding to lol
Do you have Muslim beliefs? Or are they more universal? Or more atheistic?
Yeah… Questioning is good. Blind belief isn’t. You should always investigate and delve deeper into your beliefs. You should check out some apologetics books. One I like is “Seeking Allah, Finding Jesus.” You might look into that <3
Also, I personally don’t like it when Christians are SO passionate about their faith that every sentence sounds like a Bible verse or a sermon. I have friends like that… It drives me nuts. Just talk normally and occasionally mention Jesus. It doesn’t have to be constant. It’s just going to drive people away because it’s irritating. And yes, I’m saying this as a Christian lol
@jesusredeemedme2425 The grading system differs, not only from country to country but also school to school. So thats- thats just a mess. Dont even worry about it xD
How was homeschooling, tho? Did you like it?
I think teens can relate to you because you admit to the negative emotions. Most adults dont, have you noticed? They can be raging, but if you say theyre angry theyll deny it. Maybe to encourage us to avoid negative emotions, by pretending they dont have any? But everybody feels everything, good and bad. So its a little ridiculous
Blind belief bothers me. I know to some extent you cant- explain everything away, with logic. But not even asking, that doesnt sit right with me
There are some Muslims who go around online just adding religion into everything, too. It irritates me. If you want to invite someone to believe...i guess do it the way youd invite someone to your home, i think. You dont bring it up every few minutes.
Ill check that out, when Im free. Thank you 🤍
I take SO long to respond lol
True lol
I LOVED it! I could get all my homework done early and play all day <3 And I met lots of people and did lots of volunteer work <3
I didn’t think that was necessarily a good thing XD
True, emotions are a thing lol
Yeah, at least look at the evidence.
Exactly. People who work at McDonald’s don’t talk about hamburgers every few minutes. That would be annoying.
Did you look it up?
@jesusredeemedme2425
That does sound good. I always wished I had more time for volunteer work...but school leaves you spent xD
Im too busy 😭 ive got like 2 months of tests and then after that Very Important Exams so im not doing anything besides studying cupsing and sleeping
Me too, I wish I could. I work a LOT. Lol
And hopefully eating and drinking water too hehe
I’m really struggling tonight :’(
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm sorry darling 🤍 want to talk about it, or something else, or sit in silence, or communicate in GIFs? I'm here for anything 🤍
It’s ok <3
Idk what I was even thinking or feeling when I wrote that tbh. I guess im just… exhausted.
@jesusredeemedme2425
Yeah i get that. Wish we cld turn our brains off for a bit, eh?
Always. Or just have a day off from our normal lives…