For me and eyes
@unassumingEyes eyessssssss I don't see u much in group chats anymore and I miss you and I need to give you more grey hairs /j so I hope its ok that im making this if its not ignore me lol.
@MacyLou82
No such thing as in too deep thats a lie used to stop people from trying. hey cmon now i know its hard and it sucks and im 100% onboard w beating up life for it but we're not beating you down. Thats not helpful, is it? I know whats its like to relapse and idk what youre going thru but i do know that youve been thru crap before and youll get thru this too. Thats the Macy thing to do
Anytime you wanna exchange poetry/writing just send yours and ill send one of mine back!
I dont have a single friend who sleeps on time so go figure. I think the whole point of being in a coffin is you wont feel anything, and you cld just achieve that by sleeping. Also, howd you get that thru cups censors?
hugs if okay 🤍
@unassumingEyes I don’t wanna try anymore so maybe it’s working haha. I beat myself down daily lol, it does help me keep my mask on. I’m too weak to make it through again, weak and exhausted
Lemme think if I can topic choices so u can relate to one better, um theres pressure, people pleasing, masks, those topics I have a lot on and they are the most clean haha. Or if u kinda want a happyish one, I can do that too. Pick ur poison also do u have a problem with a cuss word or two? Most of mine don’t but some do cause I was pretty angry writing haha
U always respond like a hr or two after I go to bed lol. But with sleeping u always wake up lol I have no clue I don’t think censors are as strict on forums
Hugs, hru eyes? If im triggering u or anything pls lmk I can be pretty dark sometimes
@Macylou82
Okay, so we pause, right? You dont have to do self-improvement 24/7. Its okay to float thru the bad days and pick up the peices after. If youre weak and exhausted– thats the part where we rest. The world can wait for us.
No problem w swears and dw about any triggers or anything im okay w pretty much everything. I think i relate to pressure and people pleasing most but it doesnt have to be what i like, whatever you want to share is cool
I think its like— like sleep for no feelings at night and wake for feelings at day. And if feelings go well then yay and if no then, we're going to sleep for no feelings at night eitherway so we get a break. Like, balance. I'll stop yapping now lol
Im okay (honestly!) Im not getting triggered dw Ive had talks like these before. Been both the one listening and the one being dark. Its all okay no topic's off-limits w me
@unassumingEyes pick up the mess I’m making later lol
oki I got u but warning my poems arent as good as urs so dont expect greatness lol
What if I don’t wanna wake up for feelings in the day? I am so dark holy crap I’m sorry. I swear I won’t do anything lol. And dw I like ur yapping
Alr I just always worry about that lol I’m the same way tho no triggers not that I’ve found anyway so u can talk to me about anything too If u want
@Macylou82
My poems are not great so idek what youre talking about xD
Its okay its okay I dont judge. I absolutely get not wanting to wake up for feelings but also im selfish and hope you will always wake up for feelings cause i like you
@unassumingEyes we are our biggest critics but yea they are
Why did I blush so hard at that 😭
Macy did u tag me in a message on teen only
I am only asking since I tagged onnforun when tried to look it accesses declined the only possible reason that happen is if someone posted on teen only side and tagged me
@Magicpawsoffuture that's weird no I didn't
@Magicpawsoffuture
I got that too. I think someone made a post in teen side with alot of people tagged and didnt realize theres restricted access to that side of cups
@Macylou82
https://ibb.co/vxwdSJPv
@Macylou82
*inhales* girl–
how can you say your writing is not great? i loved the imagery. and the last two lines hit me right in the heart, honestly. Felt like i was there watching you on the tiles, but there only as a silent observer.
Not much use, that xD a silent observer. You get company but the tiles are still cold.
Ignore my thoughts theyre drifting as always xD but its my turn now so gimme a sec while I peruse (idk if i used that word right) my works xD
@unassumingEyes
P.s can i save your poem? Your call
@unassumingEyes this one was acc inspired by a song one of me by citizen soldier lol
Haha why thank u for ur feedback
and yea u can save it
Macy is there a com mod on teen side now
Never mind com mod showed after over 30 minutes
@Magicpawsoffuture is everything okay?
@Magicpawsoffuture yea I was waiting for a mod I liked and they didn’t come, I finally left but is everyone ok?
@Magicpawsoffuture
it seemed like a com. Mod Willow lost power and com finnn the alarm never went off that why there. No mod for over 35 minutes how did teennhandle no mod for bit Macy
@Magicpawsoffuture oh ok glad they ok. it was pretty quiet I think idk I left pretty quickly
@MacyLou82
Okay
I didnt know which one to send xD technically i dont have one w the same theme as yours but I have this one that I wrote when i was sick of everything is that the same thing 😭
This is from november i thinkk
https://ibb.co/hFRLzsj1
https://ibb.co/9mM8GYQJ
@unassumingEyes u didnt have to worry about the theme I literally write about everything so I get most themes
Girl this, masterpiece. All I have to say is it’s beautiful. I like your delicacy with words
mine looks like dust now lol
@Macylou82 dont be silly i likes yours so much 😭 and youre younger than me so by the time u turn 18 ull be like shakespeare
@unassumingEyesok that is a lil bit of a jump lol.
@Macylou82
That is so great tho. Like no dont you dare undermine it that is actually great and im proud of you 🤍 we'll have to throw two parties when youre 18: one for ageing over and one for the manuscript
If i wasnt so socially anxious id probably throw a hundred parties irl. As it is i dont even like parties (cept small ones) but the most we cn do on cups is party to celebrate stuff 😭
@unassumingEyes it’s not even great lol. If i ever publish it. It’s lit finished I’m just being lazy with small deets
@Macylou82 what even happened I do not know
I am the same way irl. I went to the deadliest 4th of July party with my grandparents yesterday. I was so desperate to get out of there I lit looked up how long it took to walk back to my grandparents house. Took ten hrs to walk lol
@Macylou82
I get you tho i started A Project (its boring) and I did the major parts but now Im lazy 😔
Genuine qs no offense intended, why is 4th of July so...loud in the US? I mean every country has independance day but the US seems extreme. With all the fireworks? Which Ive heard is triggering for the veterans so whys it still a thing? The US confuses me
Hru doing today?
@unassumingEyes so real lol
Good question lol. Idk Ngl. Fireworks also hurt dogs ears. I’m dog sitting rn and I’m praying for rain bc one of the dogs is terrified of fireworks
the US confuses me too sometimes it’s ok lol
I’m Alr. Freezing my butt off it’s summer and it’s cold? What? Hru today?
@Macylou82
Aw poor dogs
Be glad its cold lol everybody else on the planet is melting
Im good got back ache today which boooo xD but otherwise ok
@unassumingEyes that is very true lol
Ew back aches. Hope they go away soon
i Got like swollen lymph notes in my neck? Idek whole bunch of bumps all over my neck. Annoying ngl lol
also I’m dogsitting rn but they got a cam in the living room and door censors so idk if they get notified when I open the outside doors or if it just makes noise but I’m lowkey afraid to move rn bro Who invented cameras fr
and my cupcakes she made for me are in the garage past the scary door 😭
@Macylou82
Did you ever retrieve the cupcakes 😭
Swollen lymph nodes? Dyou hv like a cold or smth? Hopefully thatll resolve itself soon it does sound annoying
@unassumingEyes I did lol, but I’m still lowkey so afraid 😭. My anxiety has been nonstop for like 3 days now haha, lowkey almost had a mental breakdown over opening a door yesterday lmao
Nope, it’s somehow linked to my inflammation/knee pain but hey massages twice a day sure ain’t bad
hows My favorite pair of eyes doing?
@Macylou82
Oof anxiety i know the feeling 😔 atleast u got cupcakes for ur trouble
I mean this w love, why are you always in pain? and how do i change that?
Your favourite pair of eyes is conflicted in her emotions rn so we're ignoring all of them 😌 physically im good ✨️
@unassumingEyes true true
Acc my knee pain has been almost nonexistent recently, which is lowkey really nice
aw I’m sorry what’s up? I’m just 11 hrs late but I’m here for u fr hugs if ok
im glad ur physically good tho
@Macylou82 I get ignoring them but we both know that’s not healthy lol
@Macylou82 oh yay no knee pain 🎉🎉
Nothing specific but uk when life goes okay so the brain decides "this isnt fine" and sets everything on fire (mentally) because it cant stand peace? That
Hugs 🫂🤍
Healthiness is for....other people
@unassumingEyes I so get that, wanna talk about the fires it’s setting? Always here if u do
Uh uh it can be for us too
Happy cups b day to both of you
@Magicpawsoffuture
Im late but happy cups bday 😭🤍🎉
@Macylou82
dont wanna talk about it but i appreciate the offer 🤍 hru doing?
maybe im boycotting the healthiness 🫣
@unassumingEyes no worries at all if u want but maybe one u will be ready to share
@unassumingEyes I’m fine
We both are lol. Maybe some day we’ll work on that
@Macylou82
Actual fine or "i should say im fine so eyes doesnt worry" fine?
Sorry lol you dont hv to answer that
Yeah maybe
Hugs if okay 🫂
@unassumingEyes lol I knew you would call me out so fine as in *im trying to deflect and not think about it* fine
Hugs
hru today?
@Macylou82
Yeah, I get that. Wont make you sit w smth uncomfortable but I am here if you want to talk about it, yea?
I'm better, i think. A little low still but out of the grey-depressing area now
@unassumingEyes thx eyes same to u yea?
Hey we take progress!
how’s the trip going?
@Macylou82
Its good ends in about 8 days tho 😔 then we'll be w out dad which is ew
@unassumingEyes aw soak in these last 8 days fr
hugs if ok
@Macylou82
hugss 🤍
@Macylou82 since me being online this week is going to be spare ima start smth here, and then I won’t feel bad about going quiet lol
How’s my favorite pair of eyes?
@Macylou82 oh ok xD
Im okay-ish??? I dont know up and down several times a day but overall surviving with sm good moments sprinkled in so we'll take it xD hru?
@unassumingEyes surviving is good let’s keep surviving
I’m Alr for the most part
You guy ever get back into cooking? If so how’s that going
@Macylou82
Nop cooking became equal to fighting plus my practical exams are coming up (like a week left 😭😭) so I dont hv the time
hugs if oki 🫂🤍
@unassumingEyes damn that sucks fr. Ew exams go away no one wants u
Hugs
@Macylou82
hugss
I am so anxious for exams cuz theres an oral part where sm random teacher will ask me questions and I am terrified of that 😔
@unassumingEyes that sounds terrifying but yk smth? You’re gonna do amazing bc u are amazing.
Do you know what questions they might ask? Maybe u can study the questions,, and idk how to help u with the teacher asking questions if I had the answers to anxiety god id be unstoppable lol
@Macylou82
Youre too nice 😭🤍
No we have a VAGUE syllabus but i hv a book with questions. Its not 100% that those questions will come tho sadly
Hru doing hows ur life?
@unassumingEyes nah I just speak truth
Ew so u just gotta study a bunch. I wish u luck
I am exhausted lol. It’s a week full of anxiety and exhaustion lol
@unassumingEyes
good luck with the exams