For me and eyes
@unassumingEyes eyessssssss I don't see u much in group chats anymore and I miss you and I need to give you more grey hairs /j so I hope its ok that im making this if its not ignore me lol.
Hopefully by 5/16 i wil, have an update on when I can be back on teen side. Miss you all Macy and eyes
@Magicpawsoffuture looking forward to it paws, miss u on the teen side
@MacyLou82 glad about bobby. I know he likes your finger but hes not even paying rent xD
@unassumingEyes maybe his karate is his rent?
@Macylou82 we do not accept this rent 😭
Yes we're done fasting now
sleeeep! and then tell me what a birder run is 😭
@unassumingEyes aw poor Bobby, don’t make him feel unwelcomed
yay!!!!
So basically me and my mom are tourists here, so we have to leave the country every 3 months to renew drivers licenses and stuff or every 6 months at maximum, but mother wouldn’t be able to drive for three months so usually she goes every 3, usually I don’t go cause we’ve been going bk to the states every 6 months so I’m good but I decided to go with her this time. Free vacation! Lol. Does that clear up everything?
Alsoooo I thought of u yesterday. Our bus started smoking hahah, I can imagine u mother henning and worrying lol. Dw I don’t think it acc started on fire? Idk I was in the front and ppl were screaming and running off the bus in the back. Anyway it didn’t blow up or acc start a extreme fire but ye lmao that’s why I was so exhausted a 8hr traveling day turned into 12 haha
@Macylou82 no, bobby is not welcomed!!
yeah i do kinda get it we had to do smth like that back when we lived in the middle east too
oh dear :0 atleast noone was hurt? that sounds so draining, no wonder you were exhausted, you better be resting now smh. hey, atleast by remembering my mother-henning youre remembering theres someone out there who cares about you very very much. maybe thatll inspire you to stay away from dangers, thank you very much. Could I pay pain to leave you alone, i wonder?
@unassumingEyes poor Bobby just wants to belong somewhere 😔
yea no one was hurt, think a lil kid was scarred tho. What is rest? Is resting limping around like I’m 50? That is true, and hopefully when u pick up a glass of water u have my mother henning ingraved in ur head too. How can I stay away from danger, it follows me around lol. Lmao if only u could. Acc u kinda did, I am not in pain today, I’m just stiff haha.
@Macylou82
Bobby needs to find himself a family of bobbies, and leave macy alone
well– that poor kid. Thats not rest and you know it girl. Danger needs to be a given a stern talking to till it backs off...one in which im holding a bat in my hand. Just to get the message across.
We'll take any improvements from pain, wont we? But youre more than your tendency to get hurt– tell me how Macy is doing beyond that?
@unassumingEyes but Bobby’s happy with me. He gets to travel with me
yea, but the driver was really nice trying to comfort her which was sweet. Meanwhile I was cracking jokes and singing the wheels on the bus go burning down lmao. Haha I can acc imagine that tho
while we can I suppose. I think how Macy is doing is irrelevant, but how is eyes?
Since I can’t pm you all yet I can gift you the two things here . I still rise poem that really helps me when upset https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/46446/still-i-rise.
2 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2zyeVRcbs. The climb that really helps me when I get stuck. I just wanted to gift these both you as a way to say thanks FotvYour patience with me getting. Back to teenside
@Magicpawsoffuture I'll hold these gifts close to me, frnd 🤍 theyre both lovely, and I'm glad you shared them...especially glad after the day I've had. We're waiting for you, dont worry, youll be back with us soon and we'll celebrate it
@Magicpawsoffuture I love the poem ❤️
@MacyLou82
Thats sweet of the driver to do. He must have been stressed too, all things considered.
"the wheels on the bus go burning down"– youre a menace! you didnt really sing it outloud, did you? although if you did ill start cackling
how macy is doing is always relevant, you know that, and if you dont ill keep saying it till you do. but its alright, i dont force you to answer that one. how eyes is doing isnt great. everythings not exactly sunshine and rainbows, but oh well
@unassumingEyes ok my favorite eyes what’s up? I will respond to the rest later but rn, what’s up?
@Macylou82 should I make you a song?
@Macylou82
Im saving that song xD
thank you 🤍 i wldnt be annoyed by any msgs after i age up- you kidding? Im gonna be so lonely in oldie side 🫠🫠
eyes is just...having bad days, yknow? theyre taking a while to pass. but they will. they will.
@unassumingEyes Good please memorize it too
do you know what your getting into here?
Ok I think we need to learn smth else, Wanna sit down for this lovely lesson? Ok, if you are having a bad day, and it gets a lil too overwhelming or u need someone to talk to where do you go? And if your brain trys to talk you out of it with lies, what do you do? *sits here and waits for the right answer*
@Macylou82
i just saw this one 😭
yepp i know what im getting into and i have no regrets!
if i have a bad day i go nowhere and do nothing 😭😬😂
@unassumingEyes it’s ok lol
well I warned u 🙃
no! Failed! Try again
@Macylou82
uhh if i have a bad day i lurk in gcs xD bein honest here lol
@unassumingEyes no eyes! New rule, listen up. You come to me? Ok? You come to me and if u don’t wanna talk about how you feel, I’ll make you laugh or smth. Ok? That is the new rule. I sound bossy Ngl lol but I’m being fr I’m here Alr? Always ❤️
@Macylou82 ima respond here so messages don’t get confusing and jumbled
yea I mean u got a smoking bus on the side of the highway, I’d be freaked lol.
Um… to my mom maybe? I did multiple versions lol. The wheels on the bus go boom boom boom, or when we were 2 min away from where my sis was picking us up the wheels on the bus go snail snail snail (took us 30min to get five min and she was right there smh)
is it? Tbh idek how I am, tired i g I’m always tired tho lol. Why can’t life be sunshine and rainbows tho? Let’s dance on the clouds with the unicorns lol
@Macylou82
Smoking bus gives a different image/j
the snail one is just mean, the bus is trying its best! xD
yesyes how macy is doing is the most relevant thing in the whole universe
i dont know about sunshine and rainbows but its supposed to *rain* today so thats nice xD
@unassumingEyes lmao its funny bc after ppl started running off the bus I did acc smell smoke, its funny how after the fact we usually realize stuff eh lol
That is true, it was traffic that was snailing lol
So I might have to disagree with you here...
If I were with you irl, I'd force u to dance in the rain with me lol. I miss rain, we need rain. Next month! Then it won't stop raining lol
@Macylou82
hindsight be 20/20
*sniff* you'll believe me someday...
oh, i love the rain. I did get wet, had to go out when dad called me. I cant dance in the rain– judging parents, wldnt hear the end of it. Worth the risk of getting in trouble maybe. If you were here its a risk i wld take xD But its been raining on and off for days, and theres nothing better to fall asleep to
Im skipping some of my tests, with my parents blessing. Theres a legit reason- trouble with transport- and now I lie blissfully at home. "Blissfully" means still studying, but without such strict deadlines, so, yippee
@unassumingEyes Ugh bad parents smh, I mean I'd look crazy but its fun! Lol kinda weird that you'd get in trouble for dancing in the rain tho? Aw im worth the risktaking. so true love falling asleep to that sound
Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lets go screw u tests!!!!!! gl studying but yay!!!!!!!!!!!! im jumping up and down at that news, or I am in my head lol
@Macylou82 also completely random but when I saw u were online too, I lowkey started refreshing this page every 2sec and screamed inside my brain. Lmao
@MacyLou82 aw thats sweet xD im the same way when my frnds are online lol
yes you are worth the risk! xD im not allowed to dance at all, or sing, or anything to do with music. Religious reasons. I dont follow those rules so much– but only when alone. But I dont dance, I dont know that i even could
@unassumingEyes oh weird. I mean I’ve seen it in movies ppl can’t do that stuff cause of religion but I didn’t know it was a acc thing. I can’t imagine no music tbh I’d go even more insane
@Macylou82
Its because i'd go insane that i break the rule too. Tbh, the restriction is basically "music" i.e tunes– piano, flute, guitar etc. My point is, just singing without the tunes...its a grey area, a kinda loophole, but not a specified "wrong". And for me its really the lyrics of songs that I love– like poems– so, it kinda works? kindaaa? but ofc i cant tell my parents "no, see, since im not *listening* to the tunes and only singing the words, so its allowed-" because thatll open up a whole other can of worms and really who would bother xD
@unassumingEyes lol. Oh interesting sounds too complicated for me tho lol. Yea I get u, lyrics are what make the song good tbh. Lol valid tho. Why open a unnecessary can of worms lol
Also why do I keep missing u, second time today smhhhh I wanna talk to you in rooms rawwww
@Macylou82
yeah i do get away with listening to bits of songs in YT shorts tho cuz people put em as backgrounds so its impossible to avoid and i dont get blamed for it xD
ooops eyes isnt going to a groups much tbh only for like a minute now nd then xD
@unassumingEyes lol grey areas eh
Can I ask why? nfta
Also be proud of me alr? Im sick! Yippeeeee, gimmie a brick pls. IM not laying in my bed dying this time, its just a cold lol. Last time mom and sis went to nicuagua they brought back this terrible virus ive never been that sick before (also I rarely get sick except for colds)
@Macylou82
Awww hope you feel better soon 🤍🫠
i dont know why...im not doing great mentally. I dont know why i do or dont do things rn xD
@unassumingEyes thx my fav pair of eyes
aw what’s going on? Yk I’m always here to listen, yea? Did u memorize my song? U should bc it’s kinda true 🙃
@Macylou82 oh and if u ever ever ever hesitant to reach out I will make a book on why you’re amazing and why you deserve someone to listen to you too. say the word and it is done
@Macylou82
Here is where I stand 7 cupd made it harder to become a atl and they gave me a list things to work on. So I hope by 5/10 I get a green light. I own you a reason why it’s taking me forever,
@Magicpawsoffuture
Okayy good luck youve got this 🤍✊️
@Magicpawsoffuture gl paws, you got this. They’d be ridiculous to not let such a good atl come back fr
@MacyLou82 you dont need to make me a book! xD
...thanks tho 🤍
its not that somethings wrong. or, well, a few things are, but thats not it. i just feel like im going insane, and i cant pull myself together...i keep teling myself itll pass, it always does, but its been a few days and- and i dont know
@unassumingEyes offers still up tho ❤️
I get that, prob in a dif way but I get feeling insane 🫂. I’m sorry. It’ll pass tho, sometimes things just take longer to pass then other times. U wanna elaborate a lil more? Don’t have to but I’m here if u do wanna
@Macylou82
Like, crisis-ey but not? was crisis-ey last night, def better today. like im not fully there, kind of. i am, for some short periods, and then im gone again. Like i need to do something, but i dont know what, and even if i did i dont think I cld move. Or...im mad at something, but i dont know what or why either. Or...sad? its really just a big mess honestly
@unassumingEyes we are twins. God how I get you 🫂. Emotions are a mess tbh. They get all tangled and suddenly you’re just suffocating I g. Let’s take a breath together, yea? I’m doing it with u. Breath in, hold for a couple seconds, breath out. Does anything help to untangle the emotions? Maybe writing them down or writing a poem or smth?
@Macylou82 also if u want sr is open, I’m ok with either just glad ur talking to me but thought I’d throw that out there
@Macylou82 im gonna have to poof soon, its 11pm and im already thinking up excuses for why im awake if anyone asks
@unassumingEyes ok that makes sense hope u get tired and ur brain lets you rest while you sleep
@Macylou82
I dont know. Writing does it, usually, but its all just so‐ fast? Today. i cant catch a feeling, or a train of thought– while typing this, im thinking of my chemistry sir, my uncle who passed away in septmeber, two cups users, a book character, a show character, the poem paws shared here, last night, my irl frnd– to name a few things. how can i write all that out, you know?
@unassumingEyes I get that. Thoughts can be really overwhelming fr. Is there smth u can do to kinda distract yourself from your brain? Go to sleep or smth?
@MacyLou82ast night was just- weird. I dont want to try to sleep inacse that happens again. The alone with the thoughts thing...dont like that
i thought of you last night, tho. when i got all crisis-ey. random stuff...what we were talking about, the music– idk why, just pooped in my head between all the bad stuff. helped me redirect long enough to fall asleep, so thanks for the good vibes xD
@unassumingEyes aw I’m sorry. Weird nights suck fr. But you’re not alone, cause I’m here! Kind of. I’m here until your ready to sleep ❤️
aw I’m glad I gave u some good vibes lol, that’s acc really sweet lol
@Macylou82 hmhm
I do expect weird brain mode to pass- eventually. just sucks hving to deal with it at all. its not that im not trying either, soent the last two days doing things that shkd hv cheered me up on a normal day. but nothing normal about this crazy brain
@unassumingEyes yea I get u. Hey if u got a crazy brain so do I. Sometimes things that should cheer us up don’t and then we’re like well now what. Our brains are weird like that tbh
@Macylou82
Weirdo brains. Ignore all my typos, ive been tired all day. S like the brains draining my physically too. Tried to do physics- brace yourself for when youre old enough to do theory of relativity. youre gonna make an enemy out of einstein, watch
@unassumingEyes I’m tired 24/7 dw I getchu. I’m already crashing out about school rn 😭. It gets worse?
@unassumingEyes I’m tired 24/7 dw I getchu. I’m already crashing out about school rn 😭. It gets worse?
@Macylou82 stupid api errors smh sorry for the double messages well now triple lol
@Macylou82 lets me give more hearts xD
@unassumingEyes u don’t wanna know how hard I blushed at that 😭
@unassumingEyes
werid nights can be hard for sure. We ever I have werid dreams it always hard to sleep next night. I can related.
@MacyLou82 i mean idk ur syllabus but yes maam 😭 dont get disheartened i always find physics hard so yknow
I shld sleep or atleast try, fore i get in trouble. Troubles not worth it nowadays, not till im myself and can actually respond like a human being to it
@unassumingEyes do me a favour and bonk me next time i use the words "human" (doubtfully) and "crazy/insane" i heard using negative words about urself makes u get worse or smth so trynna stop 😭
@unassumingEyes oh crap then I am doomed, I’m always talking negatively about myself lol. I will try my best to not forget that. My memory is kinda non existent nowadays lol.
@Macylou82 same feelingz but i heard saying (even sarcastically) stuff like "good job" or "genius" to urself makes u feel better so who knowss
@unassumingEyes idek what idk your syllabus means 😭. Lol I find school in general hard let alone just one subject
aw hope u don’t get in trouble and that you fall asleep quickly. I get u 🫂. Yk where to go if u can’t sleep tho? And if u can’t risk being on ur phone think of me, and lava and ice cream? Lol idk
@Macylou82
You and lava and ice cream *takes notes* got it
syllabus is like topics you study for each subject
okay imma go srsly srsly thanks for bejng here take care be safe goodnight lots of hugs 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🫂
@unassumingEyes lol yay!