For two broken hearts to try and mend

Jeez, last time I went to a concert 🤔

I would have to say Pink Floyd 1994, was the last concert I saw.

I can't believe it has been that long 🤣

Well, time for me to say goodnight. Hope you have a restful sleep, mine lately has been anything but.

Morning,

For the past several months my sleep patterns have been terrible.

Awake at 4AM, try to force myself to sleep but end up just toss and turning until I get fed up and finally drag my a$$ out of bed at around 5AM.

My mind races about nonsense and I have the hardest time turning it off.

Just sitting here with my morning coffee and playing a few games on my phone to try and keep my mind sharp.

Hope you had a good night's sleep?

Thanks, Lately I've become so used to the lack of proper sleep that it has now become a part of me.

Stay strong, you have been doing well with resisting "M", maybe listen to some upbeat music on your journey to where you are going to occupy your mind?

This morning is one of those emotional mornings, I'm down in the basement on my work computer and just want to hide from my family 🥹. Somedays she has no filter and just spews out out stuff that just digs in and hurts.

This is just a repost to a reply all the way at the top so you don't have to scroll all the way back up lol

Yeah sometimes I miss a post too 🤭 then I'll go back & retrace my steps using the timestamps for anything I miss. I think it posts based off of where we click reply. I'll repost this at the bottom of the thread so you don't have to scroll all the way back. & I'll try to keep posting at the bottom to make it easier.

Aww that's sweet. It's amazing that you two have a support system that's willing to assist so you guys can enjoy that time together. Any time spent in nature I feel is a natural way to reestablish any bond.

For my husband & I we're both introverted. I consider myself to be an introverted extrovert 🤣 I love going out but when I want to be home I just want to be home chilling lol. So usually if we're in the mood to go out we're with friends usually. If it's a date night we'll go to dinner. Both love food. Maybe go grab a drink. Go see a show sorta thing.

He's a very BUSY man so sometimes we'll try to go out during the week after work just for a happy hour to reconnect. It's been awhile but when we're on it we're on it.

If we're at home, we're just couch potatoes together, I'll mix some drinks & we'll watch a movie or play games.

I'm very silly & animated so I like to tease & be mischievous 😆 so when we're in a good place we're usually just goofing off at home. Yesterday was kind of like that. It did make me smile.

I do feel guilty when I have good moments like that with my husband & I'm missing "M" at the same time.

It really is it's own kind of torture 😫

Definitely will blast a few tunes on my trek today to keep my mind occupied. I'll try to stay strong 💪.

Actually no, in the words of the wise Yoda, "Do or do not. There is no try." 😂

😔 Sorry you feel the need to hide. I understand the need to preserve your own peace. Hurt people hurt people at times. 🥺 I do hope you find some joy in today like going out for your walk ☺️

she is a FULL BLOWN Extrovert, will talk to anybody and everybody. She pestered me enough the first day we met for me to open up and talk to her 😳

Me I have been heavily introverted all my life, all through high school, I rarely talked or got along with anyone. I could only remember less than a handful of names from my school years. 2 of which were my first two loves. Being a stoner every day did not help.

My wife has her own issues with depression and anxiety, her biggest worry is our daughter and I try hard to let a lot of it slide, could be because I am over tired and it's just eating at me this morning.

Today might be a day I try to get back into the swing of things on my home gym or hop on the treadmill for an hour.

Here's something else I really enjoy listening to Dan has a slew of nature CD's out there.

Dan Gibson - Algonquin Suite

Love the nature sounds 💖

Very peaceful

Home gym workout day sounds like an excellent idea!!!

Get ripped & decompress 2 for 1 lol 🤣

Yeah, sounds like she's going through a lot herself. 🥺

My first boyfriend was a heavy stoner, "M" too. Probably why they were always so relaxed & easy to vibe with.

I myself have never smoked. Largely due to the fact that when I was with my first bf in high school & we'd be with his friends he'd always say babe I don't want you to mess with this. & if his friends ever offered me anything he'd give them a stern look & say NO not her, she's not interested. So, I never tried it nor had a desire to really.

He & "M" had a lot of similarities. Very protective. He used to produce music, Mix & make beats. I definitely have a type 🤣

Chill, music loving, soul connecting type

Even my husband, heavy into music, chill, connection has been spotty lately but still there so I'm hopeful 🥹

Get ripped & decompress 2 for 1 lol 🤣 LOL More like try loosing some weight before before any of that get ripped can be seen 🤣 🤪

Yeah, sounds like she's going through a lot herself. 🥺 For a much longer period than I have, unfortunately.

I myself have never smoked. Largely due to the fact that when I was with my first bf in high school & we'd be with his friends he'd always say babe I don't want you to mess with this. & if his friends ever offered me anything he'd give them a stern look & say NO not her, she's not interested. So, I never tried it nor had a desire to really.  That's good that you never got into it, I wish I had someone to guide me back then. Too many fried cells now, that I do not remember a lot of my younger years.

He & "M" had a lot of similarities. Very protective. He used to produce music, Mix & make beats. I definitely have a type 🤣 Sure sounds like it 😬

Even my husband, heavy into music, chill, connection has been spotty lately but still there so I'm hopeful 🥹 Always good to be hopeful for that connection to come back to the way things were. I like to think these days my wife and I are on that tract again. 🥰