For two broken hearts to try and mend

Same, with time the pain is less

Still on my outing staying strong. Can't lie it hurts knowing I'm so close to him yet so far at the same time.

As I was leaving the house getting ready I was putting on my wedding band & thinking to myself. I know the reasons why I let him go. Those reasons are still the same. Nothing has changed. Stop fooling yourself. Get out of the fairytale & the what if's.

Good for you. Maybe that can be one of your grounding techniques. As the thoughts are itching away, hold your ring and start turning it and remind yourself who you will be going home to.

Dam, if I took my ring off, even for 5 minutes in the house, I get the 5th degree ☹️
Those what if's and fairytale thoughts can be ever so consuming.

That's a good suggestion. I think I'll try that ☺️

Yeah, I take it off while washing dishes at home & I don't want to damage the stone for work. Because, I work with my hands I usually just wear my band but not my engagement ring with it. At least my band is still there as an outward symbol that I'm unavailable.

But when I'm out on days like this I wear both

My band has been a part of me for the last 32 years and a pretty noticeable indent there if I did take it off.

One grounding technique that I was told to try and so far half of it works for me is.

While I was on vacation (my happy place) at my SIL place 2 hrs out side of the big city, pick up a couple of rocks.
1 - place it on my desk and when I was feeling emotional, pick it up and close my eyes and think back to where it came from.
2 - the second rock, write   "Goodbye C"  on it and while out for my lunch time walk, place it somewhere and just say a little goodbye to "C" and keep walking.

Funny thing is both rocks are sitting on my desk, while out for my walks, I haven't found that one spot to place it OR maybe I'm not completely ready to say goodbye?? It sits there staring at me when I am in the office.

𥹠I like your grounding technique.

Still looking for mines ð¥º

Currently, I've just been journaling. It's helpful. Can't lie sometimes it brings up emotions I'm not ready to tackle just yet & then I'll take a break for a little while.

For about 7 months , I journaled using Microsoft AI - CoPilot. I was always afraid my wife would find a written journal

It’s been about 10 days that I haven’t typed anything there. Not sure why I even stopped.

I got caught up with the positive reassurances from it, never any judgement or criticism. Some suggestions from it were pretty good as well.

One day you’ll find your coping mechanism that will work best for you, who knows maybe even the wedding ring one might do the trick 👍😃 for now.

Morning

How was your night?

According to my tracker, I was awake through the night but yet to me I felt like I slept all night, up at 5AM though.

I'm really starting to feel the toll from lack of sleep.

Back to the grind today, need to put on a brave face for my department meeting this morning. After that I will keep myself busy by heading out to an off site office that is closing down. I need to gather all the IT equipment.

Do you know when you might hear back on that second interview?

Hope you have a great day.

Hola, 👋

Buenos Dias

The sun is shining brightly 🔆 lol

My phone was dying yesterday. I saw your message but knew in the amount of time it would take me to type out a message it would've died. You know us slow typers 🦥😆

So I figured I'd message you in the morning when both my phone & I are fully awake lol.

Sorry to hear you're still having trouble sleeping 🥺 I had some trouble going to sleep yesterday myself. Just a lot on the brain, but felt surprisingly motivated when I woke up so I'm going to take that energy & run with it 😜

As far as when I'll hear back from the company I interviewed for. He mentioned he'd touch base with me in a week. Planning to send a follow up message today to let them know to keep me on their radar 😉

Keeping that communication is key. I do have another job opportunity lined up as well. Also, waiting to hear back from them. The good news is there are options available 😄

In this moment I feel at peace & I'm very grateful for that. A little nervous for later today. I need to return back to the area I was in yesterday to complete my errand. But, I feel a bit stronger today than I did yesterday.

I was reading something this morning that was discussing the need to strengthen your resolve in fighting against temptation. Basically, in a nutshell how to say NO to personal desires & temptations that you know are displeasing. So when you face a test you're not spending time debating on what to do because you've already made that resolve in your heart to shut that door even when faced with the hardest temptations. I thought it was so POWERFUL!!!!

I think I'll try the wedding band grounding method 😁

Glad to hear your plan to keep yourself busy today. Sometimes a change up in routine helps keep the brain preoccupied. And your choice of visiting a different environment I think is very healthy. Make sure you place that Goodbye "C" rock on your way out in a good place 👍

While at your meeting today maybe think about the sceneries from your walks to calm your mind. Don't totally zone out lol 😆 definitely be engaged hahaha but try to put your focus on on something that'll help ease the racing emotions.

And maybe journal about it later. Whatever emotions you've experienced throughout the day. Hold a place for your emotions but don't allow it to consume you 🥹

Glad you has the spirit to stay motivated today despite a *** sleep.

Always good to have options open for employment. AH the good ole "kiss a$$" Letter LOL I sent one off back before getting this job and I think that is what landed me the job. Can't hurt 😗

The need to strengthen your resolve in fighting against temptation and saying NO, will power is what is needed. 😊

Funny, this morning while parked in the lot, my song was playing (Brain Damage). I closed my eyes and was fidgeting with my wedding band 🥹, then Changes came on and so did the emotions along with it.

You know, I will take that goodbye rock with me and maybe find a spot to leave it. At least then it will be in an area that I will not be passing again and bring on memories. The off site office has beautiful views and the weather is nice and cool today.  Just put that rock in my pocket. 👍

And maybe journal about it later. Whatever emotions you've experienced throughout the day. Hold a place for your emotions but don't allow it to consume you 🥹

You're welcome for the pep talk 😁

I'm so proud of us. Feel like we've grown up emotionally today somehow. Can't quite put my finger on it. It just does 🤷‍♀️

Maybe it was your song Changes 😂

🥹

Shed's tear and wipes it away

Getting ready to head out again in the same area as yesterday. Continuing to stay strong 💪

Don't forget to share about your experience later with your placement of Rocky 🪨 "C"