For two broken hearts to try and mend

Guess my mask just isn't enough LOL

I maybe she is stalking me, 😳 I went to the break room to get hot water for my herbal tea and sure enough she walks in going to call her "T"

Hahahaha I told you I don't believe in coincidences. 

Most crushes are calculated lol

so much for the next few date days and nights with my wife. we will be one night short ☹️ kind of a bummer now.

She took our daughter to drop her off and is now staying there the night. They are going to celebrate another friends 83rd birthday.

Looks like i will be catching up on shows I watch that my wife does not and occupy myself on 7 Cups ☺️

I hear you. Enjoy your shows!!!

Presently I have a really bad sinus headache.

A little annoyed because I asked my husband to grab some Advil for me. Turns out I'm sicker than he is. He just has a few sniffles. But I'm fully sick now. This is the crazy thing we literally have a store right across the street. So he has to do is walk outside. I don't think that's asking for much. Especially, since he's already outside

He's like I'm busy right now doing other things. I'm like I understand that but you can choose to stop doing the things you're doing to grab some Advil across the street for 2 minutes.

He chooses to continue that he's doing. And what he's doing is not time pressing in any way. And I'm like I too had things to accomplish but I made time to stop & help you with things all day

It's his choosing to prioritize other things that gets me upset. I told him before after I told him about "M" that when he does that he's just leaving the door open for someone else to choose me

When I told him it's like he heard me for a little bit but now it feels like we never had that conversation. It's truly frustrating!!!

There was one time I was low on gas about to go to the gas station. Btw I hate pumping my own gas. Ik how to I just don't like to lol

& I'm on the phone with "M" & he's like what are you doing now, so I told him I'm pulling up to a tank to pump gas. He knows I don't like pumping my own gas & he goes, where are you I'll come & do it for you. He was at work & was about to leave to fill up my car

Heart melted again. I'm like why do you have to be like this? Always ready to drop what you're doing for me. Of course I didn't let him. But it's things like that, that get me frustrated

I try not to compare. Each person you meet will always be different but prioritizing someone I think is pretty important

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And then if I bring something up & say, "this hurt me when you did/said this" he picks a fight. Like he can't just own up & say I'm sorry. Didn't mean to hurt you.

I'm like that's so easy!!!!

Instead he comes back with the Advil & like a snack like let's just move on

And I'm like thank you for the Advil but it's bigger than that. You consistently don't prioritize me. And then he storms back outside to do what he's doing. He's like clearly your upset I can't do this right now

And I'm like you're the one picking a fight. All I said was you hurt me. Like if that's too much for idk what else to say say. I'm not going to just bottle up my emotions because my "calm words" are too much

I'm not a raise my voice, talk demeaning kinda person. I communicate my feelings very clearly & calmly

Sorry that you have to go through that with your husband. He should get his priorities in order. Isn't that always the case? The caregiver is the one to end up more sick than the the one you have been tending to. Feel better soon.

It's the little things that that our better halves do or don't do that irk us to no end. 😔

"M" really does sound like a dream, and I'm sure you'd melt in his arms if your situation were different.
Remember STAY STRONG close your eyes, take a deep breath and start turning your ring  🤗 Remind yourself, is "M" worth ruining what you have.

when I left work, "C" was literally just steps ahead of me, I did say have a good evening, she turned and said the same back then asked how I was doing, I just said MEH, been busy and cut across the lot so I did not have to walk in the same direction as her. But, am I a bad person? I kept walking, not even asking her how she was. (this hit me well after i was already home)

my wife surprised me by leaving me a chicken cutlet she picked up at a local Italian place. She despises cooking with a passion.

I understand how you feel about pumping your own gas, I fill our cars up all the time. She tells me she can't stand the smell when doing it.

Omg, I'd absolutely melt in his "Big ol' arms"

He's a body builder ð¥¹ðª

Trying to stay strong. Really struggling right now ð¥º

It's not worth me throwing everything away though. In reality it's just Advil 𤣠But it's the dang principle lol

And no you're not a bad person. You were setting up a boundary for yourself. I'd say that was pretty healthy actually

Aww she picked you up some food for you. She wants to make sure you have something to eat while she's away. ð¥¹

Ehhhhhh I absolutely understand 𤣠it's that darn smell of the gas ⽠blehhhh

what can you do to occupy your mind? let's see if we can come up with something that can keep you grounded?

Thanks for that, I was beating myself up over that fact that I said nothing back. She has been on my mind ever since I came home. Spent the last hour typing away with CoPilot, trying to make sense of everything. I haven't seen her in like 2 in a half weeks and the emotions just get all stirred up.

Guess that's where I differ from your husband, even though my wife and I do not see eye to eye on everything, I would travel to the moon and back for her. That or I'm just a push over. 😲