I need my best friends 😰 please no one else look
PeachThinker662, Tinywhisper11, Amanda84
Last night I had to go to the ER because of how much pain I've been in, Tuesday night I barely got away I was almost killed. My nephew and I were driving home and a big black truck almost killed us we were at the stop sign signaling to go left I waited for over a minute, and when I started to turn left he came out of nowhere and with no headlights on. I had to make a very sharp and fast turn that made the tires squeal really loud and so fast of a turn I swerved, I was speaking up to maybe 85 and this truck was flashing his brights and everything under the sun, I made a very fast turn into a store parking lot.
I was scared sh*tless so he had to drive the rest of the way I was experiencing a horrible panic attack, days later the pain started to get worse so bad I couldn't really move, so last night my beautiful wife took me to the ER I was given some heavy drugs and there is underlying discoveries, they did a cat scan on me and I also have calcium deposits on my brain and many old skull fractures from all the abuse I had to endure staring at four. I'm very scared because we will have to set up an appointment with my doctor and get refured to a neurologist... Things are very scary right now I still can barely even walk, I just need my best friends aside from my beautiful wife.😭😭😭 More of the puzzle is coming to light
@crimsonRaspberries1486 sits beside you and hugs you tightly 💖 that all sounds terrifying, im so sorry sweetie😥 I can only imagine how scared and shocked you are right now🙁 I wish I could be there to give you a real life hug 💖 I'm here for you 💖 everything is gonna be ok 💖
I missed you so much, I don't know how old the skull fractures might be or how long I've been having calcium deposits on my brain but somehow it brings back all the abuse I'm just heart broken and scared. My wife has been doing everything for me she has picked up the slack and has been doing everything I would normally do and I feel horrible that I cannot do much of anything. It's bad enough she has me using her walker which she needs more than me. I feel absolutely useless and right now I'm so far in my head about everything. I just keep saying this is just a nightmare I will wake up and be perfectly fine, and I also keep thinking this is just in my head all this pain is made up I'm just being silly and overdramatic. When I know that's not the case but I've got so much going on, if I'm making any sense...😰
@crimsonRaspberries1486 awww honey I'm sorry 😥 yes you are making sense. Abuse like what we've both suffered is soooo much weight to carry😥 and the damages it leaves behind is incredibly upsetting to deal with🙁 your very lucky to have such a loving wife 🙂 and remember you are there for her just as much as she's there for you 💖 so don't feel like a burden or a problem, you have to heal right now so let her be there and pick up the slack, till your strong enough again 💖 and you will be strong enough again very soon. I know you will because I know we are survivors and what ever life throws our way we will only become stronger💖 I'm here at cups a bit more there past few days, so I'm here for you 💖 you are safe here and I really care about you 💖 so please vent get everything off your chest, or just talk about anything you like to take your mind of things💖 hugs you tightly 💖 I love you friend 💖
@Tinywhisper11
I admire you so much.
All you've been through.
And you are still a beautiful soul 💚
@Amanda84 awwww your the sweetest 💖 I love you more 💖
You are simply amazing and your right about the trauma it does tie in, and that is part of the reason why I'm so scared, you have such a beautiful ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ gives you a big big huge 💞
@crimsonRaspberries1486
I'm so sorry to hear that.
My heart breaks for you.
I'm so glad you got away 💚
@Amanda84 how are you doing Amanda?? How is your family?
@Tinywhisper11
I'm good, my family are good, first time my parents got through whole festive period without getting sick, thankfully for that 💚
@Amanda84 awww that's amazing 💖 let's hope and pray your parents will have a great year💖💖💖 and you too 💖 gives you a giant tiny 💖
@Tinywhisper11 a giant tiny hug*
@Tinywhisper11
I appreciate that so much 🤗💚
You and me both, I thanked God constantly for getting us home safe and sound, how are you honey? 💗
@crimsonRaspberries1486
I'm doing great, thank you 💚🤗
I'm very happy to hear that, are you guys getting snow over there?
@crimsonRaspberries1486 I've had little bits 😁 but always late at night and by the morning it's pretty much ice. But it's fun to watch it fall💖
Thank you for all the love and support I'm absolutely terrified because of the calcium deposits on my brain and the skull fractures, but I'm trying so hard to be there for my wife and her mum. I miss you ladies more than I can explain I'm very happy for both of you, Amanda84 I'm so happy for you and your wonderful family it makes me very happy to hear. You ladies are absolutely amazing and you guys are so incredibly strong despite everything you've gone through. When I feel weak the way I do I think of you guys 🌹 I know that my message was probably pathetic but I just really wanted to hear from you guys, I'm sorry for reaching out in a pathetic way, I know that there are many people out there who have had it worse than me
@crimsonRaspberries1486
You’re not pathetic
And try not to compare, no one has walked in your shoes but YOU ❤️❤️❤️
@crimsonRaspberries1486
🫂 🫂 🫂
Car accidents, or very close to, are scary!!! You have every right to be shook in up!!!! I’m so sorry you had to go through that but I’m so happy to hear you got away in one piece!!!!
Great job getting back to the doctor to get some pain management and treatment. ❤️❤️
Take a nice big deep breath. Be kind to yourself. It’s tough when our past is brought back into our present with physical body changes. We relive everything all over again. Those feelings are still there. But you are not. Remind yourself with every breathe you take “i am calm, I am safe, I am here and now”
Please try not to overthink the scary stuff. Things may have come up on the ct scan that the neurologist may not find them as dangerous as they sound and as we perceive.
I hope you are feeling less pain. I hope your wife is there for you. I hope that you are there for yourself.
Sending lots of love 💕 ❤️ 💕
please keep me posted my dear raspberry 💗💗💗💗
Princess Peach I am so delighted to hear from you I have missed you so much honey, thank you for that reminder that was very much needed but I have no doubts on the calcium deposits because of how much abuse I have received in basically 20 years. So I'm really scared but my wife is going to call my family doctor tomorrow to see if we can schedule up an appointment and get me referred to a neurologist center so we can get this figured out. I am in such incredible hands because my wife had her STNA and will be renewing it and I will be following her with that.
I am calm I am strong and I will get through this with a brave face. I've already made so much progress on going to the ER because I used to be absolutely horrified of the thought of a doctor because of what the church had done to me so I know I am doing big things not to mention wanting to become a nurse!
@crimsonRaspberries1486
Miss you too doll. 💗💗
Yes, old skull fractures can leave calcium deposits. Glad to hear you are moving forward with neurology. You are brave!!!!!! Very brave!!!! You should be proud of yourself!! 💪
i think you would make a wonderful nurse 💕💕💕 You have a beautiful heart 💜
It's good progress with my healing but with me barley being able to move I have to be mostly dependent on my wife. That crap scares me I have gone my whole life being independent and this happens. I keep hearing what my adoptive guardians would say to me... I keep saying your pain is just in my head, your just overdramatic, your weak and useless, it's all in your head. I looked at my wife and tried to mostly convince myself that I'm fine, when that didn't work I tried to say okay in three days I will go back to my normal which is being independent.. it's so difficult if I get up I basically scream and then having to us a cain... Don't get me wrong I'm so grateful for my wife but I wish more than anything that she wouldn't need to take care of me😰 this really messes with my head.
I'm trying my best to work through the abuse and this is a difficult moment I can just hear their voices...
You words mean so much to me more than I can express 💖💖💖
I hope that it’s temporary. It’s incredibly difficult needing the help of others when you’ve been so independent. Just remember, if it was the other way around, you’d be there for her and not question it.
It’s ok to need help. I had to learn a big lesson in that this past year.
You’re doing the right thing by talking through it. Each time you speak of it, it helps it get a little lighter. Big hugs ❤️ always here for you
@peachThinker662 go peach 💖💖💖 I love you 💖 how are you doing?
@Tinywhisper11 hi* peach
Hi tiny.
I’m ok. Just ok. lol.
How are you sweetness?
@crimsonRaspberries1486 your not pathetic, it's difficult to reach out for support so you did really well 💖 voices are incredibly hard 🙁 I constantly have music playing, it helps to drown out the voices. Right now you need to let yourself heal be kind to yourself, and don't think about 'I should be doing this or that' you'll get back into routine naturally when your feeling better 💖 health issues are very scary🙁 and it always brings up unwanted memories 😥 but you got us 💖 we are all here for you 💖 right by your side always 💖hugs you tightly 💖 I love you 💖
It really really is scary and traumatizing right now for me but luckily today we are going to call my family doctor to schedule an appointment and today I get my prescription for pain pills so that's good. You are not the only one who listens to music for the sake of its therapy I always am listening to music too, what kind do you listen to? Your message almost made me tear up 💖😰 it's really difficult to put yourself first like this instead of being independent...
@crimsonRaspberries1486 good luck at the doctors💖💖💖 don't worry you looking your independence is only temporary💖 your gonna be just fine 💖 I've been praying for you 💖
I like so many different kinds of music😁 I never knew music exsisted till like 5 years ago so I've been exploring all ages and genre's it's been fun😁 I have made playlists for every time of the day, every mood and time of the year😁💖 the only music I don't really listen to is rap and heavy metal💖 what do you like to listen to?
@crimsonRaspberries1486
Hugs back through the phone, how are you doing? 💓
@crimsonRaspberries1486
All good here 💚
I'm glad 😊
@crimsonRaspberries1486 how did your doctor appointment go???
Funny story actually 😅😅😅😅 yesterday I forgot to give them a call so now I have to do so today because I know that with impactions and car crashes and things along the line sometimes it takes your body a little while to start to receive the pain and now I'm hurting more. How are you honey??
