Me and @fossilfellow
Hi there
I've seen your posts around the forums and I find your voice to be very kind and wise.
Id like to know you better - if time permits you to exchange some notes once a while?
Take care
Creamyyy.
Hey! Thank you for thinking of me ð¥°
hope you're doing well ❤️
@fossilfellow im fine thanks. I hope its not awkward being requested for a pen pal exchange from someone almost a stranger. I'm sorry Im not sure how this is best supposed to work. Im exploring this feature. I dont have many pen pals although id really like to know people better and share whatever I know of me. 🙂
no it's completely fine 🤍 I've never had a pen pals before actually, I'm glad you took the initiative to make one... I've been feelings heavy for sometimes now... and it I've seen myself being in a little ease by posting threads and forem so it's actually helping me a lot ❤️
@fossilfellow oh that's great. I feel really good about posting things too. Its cathartic just to express. And then people show you love so its healing.
What are you feeling heavy about right now? Anything on your mind?
Actually a lot in mind... But I can't seem to figure things out and am confused about my own feelings, I have actually been facing lots of issues from my m.h before I joined and they're not okay...
@fossilfellow oh im sorry youre feeling overwhelmed...
M.h stands for ?
mental health
I have feelings like guilt,self hatred for a while I have shared everything with listner here few weeks ago and that helped me feel at ease...
I'm doing a lot better rn
I'm able to eat right, and think things more clearly... Then before... Ik this must be confusing for you... as you don't know the context behind.
T.w
I was exposed to lots of very dark media since young age and it effected me badly...
@fossilfellow I'm glad youre able to eat right. That's a big step forward.
Im sorry about what you were exposed to. As someone who is careful with the amount of news i consume (only yesterday did i have chestache anxiety driven on reading about Iran war ... ) i can relate. Im also very sensitive to other dark things that happen in the world and im getting better ... building more compassion and resilience and not absorbing all the energy of pain.... but yes... it still has an effect.
We are normal to be this way. I was reading about how war doesnt just impact those living it but also those watching it from far - people like us - because we are coexisting ... and the trauma is carried forward even to next generations through genetic impact....
Is this the kind of thing youre feeling or is it different?
Actually it's different... I can't go into details because it's not something to be shared but it's just I used to interact with adults and was exposed to very bad things. But didn't stop i knew it was wrong but still kept going deep and was in a loop... It's messed up I'm still figuring things out... i think I have a pretty good idea of what happened but I just need time to grasp and understand things better.... I'll take help if it's needed but for now I'm seeing improvements. And want things to go how it is...
I'm sorry if I made you feel sad ❤️ I didn't mean too,
I'm doing well Rn it's just some things I wish I could unsee but it made me realise many things. and I don't want this guilt to make me someone worst...
And be real with you guys
I can't fake being completely okay.. 🙁
Ik I'm not but I'm trying
@fossilfellow sorry i wasn't able to catch on.
Self awareness is awesome. Its half the work done.
You'll get there ...step by step... we are here for you ...
I've had my own journey too with trauma -- toxic home, relationship/ consent violation, faith struggles , peer isolation due to competitions, but most importantly-- my struggle with a health issue i haven't talked much about yet here to anyone bcos its so complex.
But all the talking , journaling --- has led me to profound understanding and thats progress im quite happy with ... and i feel hope things can get better.
Thank you ❤️ and I'm really glad to have found this community and have you guys here 🤍
I have been into journalism or maybe it's just me writting down my raw thoughts... now a days I do it in an app bcus it's convenient and secure... and it helps me reflect on things better
I'm sorry you had dto go through so much, I'm glad you're doing well know that I'm here if you ever feel like sharing something 🤍 I may not have the right words always but I'll try to understand you ❤️ things will get better ❤️
It's almost mid night for me rn, I should get some sleep, Good night ✨🤍
@fossilfellow
Thank you so much for your support. I feel your kindness.
Id like to offer you a listening ear as well - that's why i made this thread so we can get to know each other
Journalism sounds pretty awesome . I did some writing for a magazine as well. Once. I was writing on current affairs and entertainment news. It was fun
Glad you had fun with that ð¥°
