Reconnecting
Hi @helgyafy @tinywhisper11 @mytwistedsoul
I hope you don’t mind me creating this thread. I’m sorry, I haven’t been online lately and I couldn’t find where we’ve chatted before. I think of you all often and the kindness you’ve shown me, and I wonder how you’re doing. I really hope you’ve been well. I’m sending you prayers. Please pray for or think of me too when you have a moment. Please let me know how you’ve been.
❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas @BlueDarkAurora sending you hugs and kisses, hope you are doing ok?
@Tinywhisper11 You're so sweet<3 I am okay<3 Thank you so much! How are you doing? 
@BlueDarkAurora all good💖😁
@Tinywhisper11
@WorkingitThrough2 Sending you some more love and positivity<3 You're in my thoughts<3
@BlueDarkAurora
Thank you sis, This came during a much-needed time. Again thank you for being here❤️
@WorkingitThrough2 always here for you<3 :)
@BlueDarkAurora @WorkingitThrough2
@Tinywhisper11 that's sweet<3<3
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Hi :) <3 Hope things are going alright<3
@BlueDarkAurora Hello sweet friend! ❤️ This meant so much to find, thank you. 😭 I started writing earlier but I lost it somehow.
I’m ok. I was feeling alright for a couple days a few weeks ago keeping myself busy rearranging furniture in my house. 😅 I’ve been making efforts to go to a couple social events and meet new people. It takes a huge amount of energy to do this for me, I feel pathetic admitting. I’ve only been to 2. The organizer apparently took a liking to me and has been contacting me quite a lot unexpectedly. I thought I was very upfront about wanting to make friends, not pursuing dating, etc. I told myself he was just being friendly with everyone but it became clear recently. I feel like I have to be polite to still have opportunity with the group, but I’m also trying to be very direct about not being interested. Because he’s the organizer I feel like I can’t go to these events anymore. I had met a couple nice women at the last one and was feeling hopeful, but now I’m so uncomfortable I think I need to stop. I’m depressed about trying again. I just wanted something to go smoothly. It feels like forces are against me, whenever I try to step outside and be brave, something goes wrong. I didn’t even really talk to the organizer, he just started contacting me daily. Women from my kids’ schools, church, those hadn’t gone well. I liked this group and awakened a good feeling, and now I feel defeated. I’m too old for this. I afraid I’m going to be alone the rest of my life. Either I’m unwanted altogether, or someone pushes my words. I’m so tired of people being people. Is life this complicated for everyone? It seems like it’s supposed to be so easy. I see so many people living. I am teetering on going hermit again. I can’t help thinking that I wish I had family so I wouldn’t have to try to make friends with strangers.
I don’t think I’ve really ever fully accepted not having family. I thought I settled my past, but I don’t think I have.
I’m sorry for going off. I keep staring at this wondering if I should delete. I’m sorry I’m always talking so much. How have things been going on your end? I feel horrible like I barely know much about you. I know how eloquent, thoughtful, and funny you are. I can tell you’ve been through a lot yourself just by the depth of wisdom you share. I hope we can support you too when you need.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I apologize for barging in. I just wanted to say please don't feel you need to apologize for sharing and talking here. This space is for you too. 💜 I do think that life is complicated for everyone but I think some people are better equipped to handle the complications. They have a good, safe support system and were most likely taught all about setting boundaries. Some of us are still trying to figure these things out.
@mytwistedsoul Thank you Twist. That’s so nice. ❤️
I have been thinking about this a lot too, being equipped for living. I don’t seem to be learning these skills, despite therapy, reading, thinking, trying, praying. I think I know what I need to do, but can’t seem to do it. My mindset just isn’t right. Some of my thinking and reactions are so ingrained like a part of me or my personality. I don’t know that I even dislike how I am, it just doesn’t work with society. I’ve been feeling so bitter about my upbringing. I thought I moved past some of these things. I’ve always felt like as an adult I was responsible for how my life goes now. So I’ve lived life and done things I need to do. But it’s as if I’ve never grown up emotionally. I can’t help but feel resentful toward my parents for creating this way I am. I don’t want to blame them, I know much of it solidified with events in adulthood. But they really did initiate the fear, anxiety, and lack of self esteem. I don’t know how to be that different. I thought I’d be better by now. I don’t want to be afraid anymore. But after going out and trying again, being vulnerable, and relearning, I just seem to be piling on more bad experiences and reasons to be afraid. To an extent I feel accepting that this is part of God’s plan, but another part of me is angry and doesn’t understand why God is ok with me having constant mental anguish. I thought at some point He’d want me to enjoy life and not be so lonely. Then I wonder if I’m just not trying hard enough, and I hate myself more, but surely He doesn’t want that either.
Goodness, I didn’t think I’d go on that long to you too. I hope my bad mood doesn’t bring everyone down. How are you doing Twist? The last I read you too said you were having a hard time keeping the darkness away. You’ve been seeing some nice wildlife. Is the weather getting nicer for you?
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I'm going to apologize in advance because this is probably going to be a long winded post.
@mytwistedsoul I had to smile that you apologized for doing something so wonderful. 😊 I see on sites people write TLDR, and I chuckle because I look forward to longer posts. Sometimes I get disappointed when they end too soon, is that silly? 😅
Thank you for letting me know I’m not alone with this. I do feel like it’s just me at times, even being on this website now.
It sure is tough trying to convince myself that I don’t need all these safety measures anymore. Even writing that just now gave me a weird feeling.
I have mild Tourette’s Syndrome. I don’t cuss, but I have several vocal and motor tics. 1 of my kids inherited this from me, and another has a milder tic disorder. They say it’s possible they might outgrow it, I have seen progress with the oldest as stress decreased. Mine has been around since a child. I had never given much thought to how this might tie in with my emotional immaturity. I’m sure like most things there is a lot to it.
You’re right, my inner child needs reparenting. I always enjoyed getting into all the younger child activities when my kids were younger. I could join right in with them in a way that was embarrassing around other adults. I haven’t talked to myself the way I did my kids.
An opportunity for boundaries, you are right, and I’m already cringing. 😬 I’m sorry that sounds so bad! I know you’re right! Can I just put up a fence instead of talking? 😂 Thank you so much for your support, I will do my best.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Thank you for being so gracious about my recent novella. :) I try not too take up too much of anyone's time with my wall of words.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas Hi :) Glad to see you<3 I like to think that all our lost messages are in some parallel version of cups :3
Even okay is not okay sometimes so I can imagine how that ok must be like ^^ You always have us here and all your messages no matter the length are always appreciated and listened to warmly<3 Also I must say there's no addiction like the want to rearrange furnitures xD I do all the shifting and then do it all over again cause I realise that I preferred it all just the way it was @_@
The guy that you talked about, I'm already annoyed at him. Can I just say something I feel<3 I don't mean to be rude at all<3 What I want to say is that please do give some thought to continue going to those social events. You did nothing wrong and this to me feels like you are keeping yourself away cause of the behaviour of someone else. Why punish yourself for something that you didn't do?
Everyone says that the first step is the hardest and that's true but the journey after that can be just as difficult. You can tell him clearly and firmly again, and if he decides to cut your opportunities with that group than it's on him to explain why. You don't have to step aside from your own journey so that it's convenient for someone else<3
You said it feels like the forces are against you, that's relatable.. the amount of times I have silently sobbed with words like "why are you out to get me?" to the universe. But recently I'm trying my best to ignore the failures or situations that feel like failures. You do the same, with me :) we'll be on this journey together. It's so exhausting.. I'll appreciate the company<3
You don't have to apologise for any text you send here<3 It's a safe place for all of us. I see myself relating to you and maybe in that way you do know me :) I'm okay and I feel nice that you find me funny too
And all the other nice things you said about me *-* You're all already doing enough and all that means alot to me.
@BlueDarkAurora Ah, so you too take up the Olympic sport of furniture rearranging? 😁 It is funny when we spend all that effort and just end up putting everything back the way it was. I have done that a time or 12. 😅
You’re so sweet, not anything close to rude. I appreciate your words. I think I will try to continue going. It will probably just be awkward for a while. I’m trying to not be so afraid of people. You’re right that I shouldn’t punish myself by leaving, thank you. ❤️
Ignoring the failures sounds really nice. There really isn’t anything to be gained by dwelling on them, is there. Only a false sense of control that we could have changed the past or can prevent future pain. I will join you. 😊
I hope something good happens for you today. ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas :D
@Tinywhisper11
@TinyWhisper11 Hoping you’re feeling ok and having a nice weekend. ❤️
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(Leaving a trail of ice creams for you to find your way.)
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I saw your post about depression. I hope you don't mind me replying to that here<3 I feel comfortable sharing here.
I've struggled with what you talked about, I think it's comforting cause there's no effort, no work but just acceptance as you said. It hurts but is easier than admitting all that's destroyed and comprehending all the work that needs to be done. All the patching up, the meds and the aftercare is an exhausting process, and the depression keeps talking about how it's so much easier to let it fester. "It's destroyed half way already so why not just sit back and watch?"
The biggest hurdle for me has always been finding the strength and will to mend myself. The one thing that has worked is that I promised myself, even if the end felt near, I do not get to give up on myself. There will always be something that I fight for, something that I improve even if it feels useless. I get to give up on people, on situations, on everything but not on myself.
It's not easy of course<3 it's terrifying and the depression floods our mind with scenarios of why this is a bad idea, of how there are endless repairs to make and why accepting what it says is the only solace we get. But what it says is false, what it shows is fake. True solace is what we get when we look back and see how we challenged every negative belief, how we fought a war at every turn but still tended to our soul. It's okay to rest, it's okay to take breaks and it's okay to let the darkness be a comfort for a while but always have a light on, one that you can follow. It doesn't have to be the sun or a bright bulb, it can be a candle you light, a hope that you ignite.
I hope this made sense ^^ sometimes I just go blah blah blah @_@ <3
@BlueDarkAurora I almost tagged you on that other post, but I shied away from risking putting pressure on anyone. I’m so glad you wrote here! I was really interested in your take on it, whether you had that experience or not. You said so much of how I’ve felt. And it’s so relieving when I find out it’s not just me. Thank you for sharing.
I had so many thoughts at once reading your answer. A few slipped out of mind just as fast 😅 but I really like what you said about how it’s ok to feel it for a little while but still leave that light on. I like the visual of it to help me remember. I like how you gave yourself permission to let some things go if you need to, but never yourself. On this earth the only person we know for sure will always be for us is ourselves, so we really do need to treat ourselves best we can. It’s too easy sometimes to sacrifice ourselves for everything else, but that doesn’t lead to being our best selves or our other goals.
I’m really hoping this revelation about feeling comfort in depression can be a key to helping me overcome it. I’ve wondered if it’s almost an addiction for me, seeking that relief from the anxiety and pulling myself into the depression almost willingly. Maybe healing wasn’t happening because on some level I didn’t want to. That sounds bad. 😳 But like Twist said our minds get into a familiar pattern, and we know what to expect rather than risk vulnerability with the unknown. I can tell there must be some truth to that, because when things go well for a few days I feel uneasy. I’ve been aware of it and try to distract because I don’t want to sabotage myself looking for the next shoe to drop. I have worried that I won’t be able to handle more pain when I haven’t fully processed the old ones yet. I have had some alcohol dependency over the years, and I noticed strangely that I got to a point where I wouldn’t want to drink when I was depressed, but I would feel the pull when things were going well to distract from the unease.
I’m getting out my bike today to go for a ride. It’s been a long time. I want to find ways to incorporate exercise that I won’t give up on. I think that’ll help a lot if I can stay motivated. Do you have activities like that that help you? I feel like you might’ve mentioned nature walks somewhere once.
These kinds of deep conversations really lift me up. I hope it does for you too. Thank you! 🙏
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas You can tag me in anything you want<3 I'll come lurking like a ghost lol. I almost didn't reply cause I thought you'd think that I'm following you everywhere xD But thank you for saying you were interested in what I had to say :D you make my words feel meaningful<3
This realisation is also a part of healing<3 You are healing but it'll take time for you to feel it, I'm sure there are so many things that you've achieved and changes that you've welcomed, and this is all part of your healing.
I want to ask you, do you try to anticipate good things? Do you let yourself believe that something good that you're expecting is possible? For me this was hard because I always went by whatever happened in the past and then it all felt like a self fulfilling prophecy. The way we talk to ourself, the core beliefs that we have, the direction our thoughts usually float towards, this is all very important. (I feel like we've talked about this before :O I'm sorry if I'm repeating things<3)
I want to gently encourage you to not distract yourself but see why those feelings exists, why is it hard to believe that something good can happen and stay that way. Keep a journal for such questions, your answers, and the reason why and why not. It'll help you understand the pattern that your brain is following to draw those negative emotions. You have to understand yourself, you deserve that<3
Oh riding bikes is fun and yes a great excercise. I love to see all the efforts you're making, it all counts. And yep I love walks, it's always refreshing. I also paint, it helps me forget everything and just focus on the present, I also write a lot, sometimes just my thoughts, sometimes silly little poems. I do monthly mood trackers to, this time I have a tree with 31 leaves for the days and I colour them based on a colour scale which represents my mood, red for angry, green for happy and so on.
I love talking to all of you here and it does help<3 :) Thank you for being here.
@BlueDarkAurora 🥰
Your words are so meaningful! You’re such an insightful person, and I love how you give me new things to think about.
Thank you for saying, “I'm sure there are so many things that you've achieved and changes that you've welcomed, and this is all part of your healing.” This is so validating. I forget sometimes when my mind goes into catastrophic thinking, but it’s true that I have grown a lot. My thinking has evolved, and I’ve left behind some immature behaviors thank goodness. I’ve had some issues for a long time and get discouraged, but it’s important not to give up hope.
Anticipating good things. I would say in general, yes. But reflecting fully, I had gotten very pessimistic in this way in the last couple years, hitting an all time low in the last 6 months about. I can remember feeling a different level of hopelessness that went far beyond the depression that’s been with me my whole life. I’ve felt empty and numb before as well, but this was different. In the past I’d give up hope, but then I’d dig myself out of the hole and start again with high self motivation. This time it wasn’t coming back. I was getting more dissatisfied with myself and my actions, which was so much more devastating to me.
But what’s ended up happening interestingly, is a process of surrendering control. I got so down that I started to let go and say to myself “I have done everything I can think of. I have no more energy to try. I’m going to stop trying to figure things out and just let them unfold.” I was still going through the day doing basic things I needed to do, and feeling empty. But I noticed my fear started to dissipate. I’ve had some events where something “triggers” me and I fall (like with the event organizer), but the episodes haven’t been as long. And I’m starting to be able to see that things are turning out fine when I let go, without needing to be prepared and understand everything. So each time my positive outlook builds. The last couple days I have felt very uplifted and also detached from the outcome of things. Like I’m not worried about how things go with the social events. I’m not worrying about if I will be alone. I’m feeling less afraid of people and was a little more outgoing at church today. It’s been around 20 years since I remember feeling that.
One of my new goals is to become comfortable again with silence, like you said not to distract myself when feeling good. I’ll save the distractions when I need a break from anxiety.
I’ve been thinking about journaling again. I think you’re right. This morning for instance I had so many great thoughts in the car that I wish I’d written down.
The activities you do sound so nice! I don’t think I knew that you paint and write poems, that’s so cool!
Thank you for being here too! I hope your weekend has been a nice one! The weather has been beautiful here.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I'm glad you remember all your positives<3
Why do I feel like I relate to you so much xD I've been in that kind of low as well, I never thought my mind could go so dark and I remember feeling how scary that was.
@BlueDarkAurora "finding the strength and will to mend myself" this IS my biggest hurdle as well. I often tell myself that I simply just don't care anymore.
@mytwistedsoul
Soul, you have such a caring personality that I have never seen or felt that you too struggle like some of us. You and Darkblueora and Piecesofwhatever and Tiny all encourage us so much. I feel really ashamed of myself for not being a better encourager. I am probably the oldest person on this site and I feel that I have not learned yet how to not have this negative attitude and complain about my life and the people in my family. Giving up on who I am for the sake of making others feel good who have no respect for me or my needs. Praying and wanting things to change and it makes a bitter taste in my mouth. It's been said many times that we can change if we want to, I want to very badly but it has not worked. Maybe you can't teach an old dog new tricks????
@WorkingitThrough2 Your are so incredibly amazing<3 I have seen you being encouraging and kind towards others even when you were going through dark times. Your vibe is very warm and caring.
You do things for others with all your heart, the moments of anger or resentment does not take away the kindness you have. Your heart still glows very brightly<3 Change is hard, you're not alone on this journey<3 It hurts me to see you feel this way, I have so much respect and admiration for you.
@BlueDarkAurora
Thank you for those encouraging words. If I could only feel comfortable in my own skin, it would help a lot. Sometimes I wonder why I do what I do, do I have any underlying motivates, and if I am real or if this is a fake me. I am not even certain I am just people-pleasing to get friends. At home, I have no one to talk to and I don't drive much. Since my husband has been sick no one from our church bothers to call or come by. I am not sure if I will ever feel really accepted anywhere
This site is pretty much all the connections I have with adults. I so hate that I am not more fluent in supporting you all but I have to say I am trying to be a good friend to everyone. I really care about each of you❤️
@WorkingitThrough2 Some people, their actions or the words they say intentionally or unintentionally, it all makes us want to doubt ourself. It's a crazy cycle, for a long time I thought everything I did was fake and as you mentioned, with a hidden motive. It's so easy to not be able to hear our self in all their noises.
We easily believe the negatives about our self but need so many reasons to trust the positives. Maybe it's not people pleasing but just your heart wanting to make people feel comfortable, make them feel welcomed. You show them kindness cause You are kind.
You are doing enough, you being here with us is enough<3 And I'm sure all of us here would love a neighbour like you<3 But life likes to surround us with selfish people @_@. I have no doubt that you'd be warmly welcomed with people who have a kind soul, people who are willing to put efforts, people who are there, people who care, people like you<3
@WorkingitThrough2 I agree with Aurora. You are an amazing person and friend! I might be searching for a random topic or happen upon an interesting post, and have seen you there supporting and checking up on people. It makes me smile, and thankful that our paths have crossed.
@WorkingitThrough2 I have to agree with the others. ❤️ You're a wonderful person with a big loving heart and a beautiful soul. You care deeply for your friends and family and try to help where you can. I struggle to be a cheerleader for people sometimes too. Some things require a great deal of work before they begin to even think about change and it is hard. We get tired. We get frustrated. Sometimes we're not even sure where to begin to work or how to even start. Sometimes there so much other work that needs to be done that it's almost impossible to find a moment or two for yourself.
@mytwistedsoul That type of indifference towards oneself, hurts in a special kind of way<3 At least we are not alone in this sense<3
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas hiii everyone 💗💗 I'm I'm a lot of pain, so I'm not gonna be around much, but I will check in with you all when I can💖 don't worry this is kinda normal for me, it's almost time to get my spine injections done, then I'll be alot better and around a bit more💖💖 love you all 💖
@Tinywhisper11 hi<3 You were missed and will be around in my mind<3 I hope this time passes quickly and things improve so much<3 Always remember we are with you<3
@Tinywhisper11 Sending you lots of love. I'm sorry you're dealing with so much pain ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
@Tinywhisper11
@WorkingitThrough2
@Slowdecline48
Sorry working for using your page to reconnect.
Hi old friends, (some roots of my isolated life).
For 5 months I have been away from 7cups (because I was too fatigued to care - lol! - for other persons). I will just write a bit at 7cups - not much. The good Lord gave me a big present when I became worse of my illness (ME/CFS) - He gave me YouTube on my TV. The first singer who came was a Brazilian singer Dan Vasc, you can listen to him singing "Sound of silence" if you want to. (He is good to look at also - says the 72 year old woman - me). Then I can listen to fine Christian talks and politics - about the President for some of you - Donald Trump. (Can somebody teach that person (lol) to love some other than himself?). He makes enemies everywhere; Greenland, Canada, Mexico.
@Helgafy
Hope you are doing better, you are missed and I don't mind you posting here at all
@Helgafy hiiiii 💖 we missed you soooo much 💋💋 a hot singer might have to check that out😁
@Helgafy Welcome back friend. You’ve been in my prayers.
@Tinywhisper11 It’s good to hear from you Lola. Rest and take care of yourself. We are all thinking of you and love you. ❤️🍦
@Tinywhisper11 
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas thankyou all💖 my spine injection appointment has been pushed back again😥 I'm in soooo much pain😥😥 so prepare yourselves for grumpy tiny🙂 good luck putting up with me 😁
@Tinywhisper11 Oh no I’m sorry it got pushed back and you’re in so much pain. 😞 I hope you get some relief soon.
(It’s hard to imagine you grumpy.)
Love you ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I can be grumpy
@Tinywhisper11<3 I hope it gets done soon. I'm ready with ice creams :)<3
@BlueDarkAurora yaaaaay! I need icecream now😋😋😋 and then after the injections for being a brave girl😋😁😁
@Tinywhisper11 of course<3
@BlueDarkAurora yaaaaaay I love you I love you I looooove youuu😋😋😋
@Tinywhisper11
@Tinywhisper11 
we love you reguardless of Grummpyness......Bring It On❤️❤️❤️❤️😊 We Got You
@WorkingitThrough2 😂😂😂 thanks 💖 I mean fluff fluff fluffedy fluff
@Tinywhisper11
@mytwistedsoul
Thanks angel😁😁😁😁 fluffing fliffedy fluff fluff😁
@Tinywhisper11 Sometimes we have to let the fluff fly 😂😂
@mytwistedsoul 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 fluff it all
@Tinywhisper11
@BlueDarkAurora 😍😍😍😍😍😍 he's so fluffy😍😍😍
@Tinywhisper11 I knoww :D imagine that fluffy cloud just following you around with the sweetest smile<3
@BlueDarkAurora that would be the best💖💖😁😁😁😁 I want one
@Tinywhisper11 me too
@BlueDarkAurora awwwwww😍😍😍😍
@WorkingitThrough2 and @Tinywhisper11 Sending positive energy your way<3
@BlueDarkAurora
thank you, I am making peace with this. Just so many triggers have began to surface that had been dormant
@WorkingitThrough2 I will keep you in my prayers too 💗 I love you sis 💗
@WorkingitThrough2 Sending you so much strength and love<3
@BlueDarkAurora
Thank all of you for your love and support. Tears rolling. I truly love you all soooo much. You are the family I wish I always had.
The funeral will be next week.
@WorkingitThrough2 I'm so sorry sweetie 😥 hugs you tightly, wipes away your tears 💖 I'm right here for you 💗 we all are💖
@WorkingitThrough2 I’m so sorry for this loss. You have gone through so much, I wish things could settle for you to have some peace. We’re here with you. ❤️
@WorkingitThrough2
@BlueDarkAurora 💖 awww thankyou 💖💖 I'm currently say up in bed with tears streaming down my face because I'm in so much pain 😥 the appointment is now on next Tuesday 🙂 I just somehow need to make it through the next couple of days
@Tinywhisper11 Sending you lots of strength and love ❤️ I hope the next few days pass quickly for you and your pain eases ❤️
@mytwistedsoul ooo! Heart's nom nom nom 😋 thanks Angel 💖 I'm gonna need a miracle to get me through this😭😭
@Tinywhisper11
@BlueDarkAurora 💖💖💖 what about you?? Is everything ok in your world??
@Tinywhisper11 You sweet sweet angel<3 :) I'm alright<3
@Tinywhisper11 One day at a time ❤️ It's not easy and it hurts to know you're hurting so badly 😞 I believe you can do it ❤️ we're all sending you strength right now!
@mytwistedsoul thankyou💖💖
@Tinywhisper11<3 I know you're going through so much. I hope you get some relief soon<3
@Tinywhisper11 I’m sorry you’re in so much pain. 😞 I wish I could take it for you even just a little. You’re almost to Tuesday. ❤️ We love you so much.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas 💖💖thankyou, just one more day 🙂💖
@Tinywhisper11
@BlueDarkAurora
Funeral is tomorrow, I am not going. Am I wrong?????
@WorkingitThrough2 no honey your not in the wrong💖 you've been through so much and still are it's ok to not go💖💖 you got to put yourself first sometimes, hugs you tightly 💗💗
@WorkingitThrough2 not at all<3 It's okay to not go, with everything going on, I'm sure it is exhausting and overwhelming<3
We are all here with you, here for you<3
@WorkingitThrough2 I agree with Tiny, you’re not wrong. Grief is complicated, there are so many feelings and memories pulling us in different directions. Sometimes it is better for our health not to go. Maybe there is a way to make your peace in a different way, where you’d rather do something on your own?
@WorkingitThrough2 How are you feeling today?
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas
I have not been able to sleep at all, and when I try to lay down, my heart goes to racing, and that scares me, so I get up and start doing work around the house to keep from lying down while my head is full of flashback stuff.
@WorkingitThrough2 Oh that sounds awful. 😢 Are there things that have helped with flashbacks in the past? Maybe if those aren’t working we could find a new one to try, or try out one that didn’t work before. I hope your mind and body can rest soon.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas on the 'I'm in pain' post I started, someone just wrote, no-one cares about my broken spine and I'm pathetic 😥
@Tinywhisper11 Did you flag it? Some people are just filled with so much negativity, we can't help them, not even showing kindness helps in any way. I'll be there<3
@BlueDarkAurora maybe their just having a bad day
@Tinywhisper11 I flagged it.
You've got a heart of gold<3
@BlueDarkAurora thankyou 💖💖 I love you 💗
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@Tinywhisper11 I can’t believe some people. 😤 I looked through and didn’t see it, so I’m hoping that means it was taken down quickly. I’m sorry that happened to you. There are going to be people sometimes who think that they can make themselves feel better by bringing others down. It’s a false “better”, they’re only fooling themselves whether they realize what they’re doing or not. Evil is never enough, it needs more and more, only love can fill us up properly. You show your beautiful heart by giving them the benefit of the doubt about having a bad day. ❤️ Let’s pray that their eyes be opened for how to have real happiness in their world. You may have to see those kinds of things from time to time. See if you can imagine it bouncing off of you, because we have a love bubble around you, all the lovely people here who really know and love you. That’s what’s genuine and matters.
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas thankyou💖 luckily aurora was there to help me at the time💖 I don't like to flag people unless I have to🙁 cause I know sometimes their going through their own issues, having a bad day or didn't mean to say it like it sounds💖 I normally get upset, this time I didn't🙂 Amen to that prayer for them💖 and that gif looks like so much fun😂😂 I wanna play😂😂
@Tinywhisper11 how are you doing?<3
@BlueDarkAurora terrified anxiety really kicking in. I get to take my first calm down meds at 6am it's 4am now. Then 8 I will have my sleepy calm down pills which make me go pretty much out of it. Then 8:30 we leave and 9am I have the injections. Sorry I don't know why I wrote all that. I'm ok💖😁 I made it through though😁💖
@Tinywhisper11 I'm glad you wrote all that<3 I do want to know it all^-^ *let's my ghost sit beside you* It'll be alright, you've made it this far and this will be done soon as well.
So proud of you *-*
@BlueDarkAurora hugs your ghost😁💖 thankyou for being my friend 💗 I love you 💗
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@Tinywhisper11 Hopefully you're feeling better by now and are resting comfortably ❤️
@PiecesOfWhoeverIWas I had injections 13 hours ago I'm home and I've just woke up 💖 everything went well, I'm a bit sore and tired but I'm doing good 😁💖 Thank you all for your support💖💖
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@BlueDarkAurora 😁😁😁
@Tinywhisper11 I’m relieved you’re feeling better, and hope the soreness goes away soon. You made it! You did it! You were so brave through this delay and I’m proud of you.