The Musings of Ki, Cy, and Mr. T
I hope y’all don’t mind that I made us a group chat… I was just really jealous of your awesome convo! Hehe. Is that ok? <3
Also, need a better title, please. :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
I love this idea! I feel it's a good balance. I do have to get back to Torean soon, I've been procrastinating for some reason.
You bring people together Ki. You've really changed my life, and others.
You say you two are best friends? How long have you known each other? Of course you don't have to answer, I respect privacy.
Oh, I procrastinate all the time. Torean’s used to me disappearing randomly lol
I really hope so. That’s my goal <3
Uhhh idk tbh. Maybe a year? He’s been there most of the time I’ve been here. I think he was one of the first friends I made <3 He’s kept me sane for sooooo long hehe
I just wanted to give you a heads up (I’m sending this to all my active penpal chats):
I’ve been on 7Cups a lot lately and typing is bothering my carpal tunnel. I’ve also been reaching burnout, and haven’t been accomplishing things I want to do lol!
So I may be slow in responding, while giving my hand and my mind a bit of a rest. Please be patient with my slower responses! <3
ALSO… If I ever take longer than maybe 5 days to respond, the notification may have disappeared. Just send me a reminder post to send me a new notification, to remind me to respond :)
Thanks for understanding! <3
My hand’s feeling better already <3
Super glad to hear that! Maybe it just needs breaks occasionally
My break has been good for another thing… Reading! I just finished “The People of Sparks” :)
Where’s Cy lol
No se. He's probably doing something super fun and interesting. He will have to regale us with tales of his adventures
He’s probably playing hockey against a snail :P
That's random. 😅 Speaking of random... I found a new Asian store and tried some stuff. I really loved these seaweed/chili chips. I also tried some barley tea, and it tasted like being sad on a farm, but Rosie flipped out when I brought it home. She wasn't even excited to see me, she just wanted my tea, and apparently it is safe for dogs, so I let her have it. 😂
“Being sad on a farm” XD PERFECTTTT hehe
Seaweed is good. I don’t understand the haters. Lol
Lol, right? 😂. I've never seen Rosalina get so excited for something. I have a dog of discerning tastes... Her favorite things are apples and barley tea.
Seaweed is sooo good. I got a big 3 pack deal for like 2 bucks. One of my favorite snacks and additions to stuff. 😁
I thought it was Rosie lol
She’s gonna be soooo healthy hehe
Nice! I like those kinds of prices hehe
Lol, it's both. Her name at the rescue was Rosie. I didn't want to change it, but I did want to possibly riff on it. When I tried calling her Rosalina, she acted really animated, so I decided on it.
Heh, she is healthy, despite my mom trying to spoil her with human food. I've been taking her jogging lately... Even though I hate jogging.
I still gotta try the seaweed packs I got. I got a green tea bun, but it just tasted like sweet bread.
Riff on it? I don’t know slang. I am OLD hehe
She’s helping you get healthy hehe
I’m not a fan of green tea lol
Beginning to worry about Cy…
Lol, I don't know how to describe that one. Its what it sounds like. Not completely change, but somewhat?
She is helping me get healthy. 😊 Hopefully it works.
Green tea is ok. I like matcha much more.
He's only been gone a day or so. I got messaged by someone on a different platform who went silent for like 3 weeks. The important thing is that this place is here for him to come back anytime
Riffing on something sounds like a guitar term lol
Yay!
Ewwww matcha
I just worry about people on here, yk? When they go silent… When you know they’re on here for a reason… You know?
Lol, it might have started that way.
Yeah, that makes sense, but he's totally around somewhere, I think I have a notification somewhere. I had a lot today, so I'll double check
Sounds good :)
He's good, he was busy with writing a philosophical paper
Good. He actually wrote back to me before I saw this lol! Ty :)
@jesusredeemedme2425
@Torean
I love short stories! The Weird sounds pretty interesting. I think perhaps my favourite book is Sum: Forty Tales from the Afterlives by David Eagleman. Just a fun read.
That nightmare you had Torean where your cellphone was stolen would have shaken me. The other parts of course, but I couldn't bare losing my phone :P
Rebirth sounds cool, I will definitely play some day.
The first book I mentioned is about two time agents of opposing sides that end up corresponding, challenging their missions and loyalties.
Ki - I'm very happy to hear you're not in so much pain. What does playing hockey with a snail mean? I like snails, I hope I'm not hurting them ^^
Torean - I like seaweed in food! It's a special kind of flavour. I'm glad you agree Ki. Seaweed gang!
Sorry to cause worry, I should be able to keep up with this thread now.
That sounds like it could be a cool book, and so does the one about time agents.
Heh, the phone part was kind of a last minute panic. I dunno what else I dreamed since then, but I seem to keep dreaming about fist fights.
Bwaha, seaweed gang indeed. I uh... Confess that I often add it to pizza. 😅
@Torean
I am terrible at fighting in dreams. Just... no strength! Also find it hard to run when I need to.
Seaweed on pizza is a fantastic idea. I love pizza in general, so versatile. Can't remember if I've said that before... but I should actually get some seaweed!
I think I had to "level up" in my dreams by always fighting. Running doesn't seem to work well in my dreams, always turns out badly.
Pizza is absolutely versatile. That makes it a lot of fun to me, I love playing around with flavor profiles. I have a knack for knowing what additions to make to things. I uh .. still need more experience actually cooking though. 😅
Seaweed on pizza????
Actually, yeah, I can see it. Lol
@jesusredeemedme2425
I had the exact same reaction xD initial shock, then warmed up to the idea. I think it depends on the pizza. Kind of like anchovies.
Yes, anchovies! 😁 So underrated
I’m on edge
@jesusredeemedme2425
Me too honestly. I can't imagine what it's like for you.
This is not fair. Too much has happened. We are here for you.
I’m trying to be calm inside. Like subconsciously trying.
Someone called me strong… I HATE being called that… I’m d****g inside and no one sees it. And it’s so much pressure…
@jesusredeemedme2425
Sometimes those words can really miss the mark. I imagine you don't feel strong at all, like you are falling apart at the seams.
I wish I could offer more comfort. But things just... suck right now. I like to think it's just a passing storm, but you're right to be upset by it. You've been in one too long, it must be testing.
It’s misguided good intentions. It just makes me resentful…
I’m trying so hard not to fall apart.
I’m really struggling. I feel guilty for talking about me struggling when it’s Mom who’s sick…
@jesusredeemedme2425
She is a part of you. We share the struggles of our loved ones. In speaking here, you are finding a way to get yourself through this so you can be more present and able for her.
She’s my other half. Not in a romantic sense, of course, but she’s part of me, like you said… What I hate is the fact that I’ve had to become numb and unfeeling in order to survive all this for so many years. I feel like a bad person…
@jesusredeemedme2425
I'm never trying to inflate ego. I think you are one of the best people I know. You are kind and feel deeply. The people whose lives you grace are lucky.
Praying for Mrs Fred.
I feel like… an invisible, awful person.
@jesusredeemedme2425
I get that. I'm not sure there's much I could say to change how you feel. I'm not sure it's right to even try.
If I could just sit beside you, I would.
Sorry… I’m just venting. I feel better… You guys are really good at calming me. <3
@jesusredeemedme2425
Letting it out is better I think. I think! I'm still learning this lesson.
I'm glad you lean on this community. It's its purpose.
Am I a bad person for still reading your chat? I’m bored and lonely and you guys talk about interesting stuff…
@jesusredeemedme2425
Not bad at all for reading the chat :) as there is no call for privacy it is therefore an open conversation. I'm happy for anyone to read it.
I feel like an annoying, nosy little sister
@jesusredeemedme2425
I think it's very natural to be curious, especially about the people in your life. It shows you care and want to learn more.
I don't think any boundary has been crossed here. You are like... the epitome of innocence!
Maybe partly boredom too… lol
I second that there's no reason to feel bad about reading our chat. You know I've always been chill about that. 😂 There's also no reason we can't talk about the same things.
As for what you're going through, I second everything Cy said. (Dude, you're way better at words when it comes to this, I have a hard time expressing comforting even when I want to so badly.) That doesn't mean that I don't want to try though. I like to think this is a passing storm too, and im sorry if it's triggering when I call you "strong". I've done that a lot... I do really feel that way, but I also understand that it's a little complicated with expectation and not feeling strong also.
I’m embarrassed, I read and commented on another penpal chat in a moment of weakness. It’s so humiliating, how I feel rn. They were super gracious and welcoming, but I’m cringing at myself rn…
Actually, maybe that happened for a reason. These are people that might be good friends in the future if not now. Don't be so hard on yourself. You need some kinds of connection and you're under a lot of stress. Much of it is the stress of caring. I think it's really cool that they were welcoming.
I’m close with both of them, so I knew they’d understand. But I feel like an intruder. Doing the same things I hate. You know how I feel when others intrude on our chats…
It doesn't make you a hypocrite. Try to understand why you did it without judging yourself for it. There's a reason, and it sounds like everything is turning out totally ok too.
No
Whatcha mean?
Idk. Sorry, I was in a bad mental place when I wrote that. I went to a coffee shop and had food, so I’m good now :)