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@fossilfellow
SENDING LOVE TO0 YOU MY FRIEND
I'm a mess rn hehe. family problems and idk everything just fell apart.
i promise ill reply to ur msgs
your messages mean a lot to me, a LOT.
Everyday I think and hope you are doing well, and that you are healthy
These days I do nothing intentionally
I just go on the phone, play with the dog and sleep.
and talk with family
i hope to be better soon
How are you?
@chillmoon Aaww 🥰 thank you! <3 and it's okay, I completely get it 💖
I'm sorry ur having family problems rn, please take care 💜 I'm here for you to listen, if you feel like sharing 💗
I can relate to that phone, dog n sleep 🤧 honestly... I'm just bored n lonely almost all day, I'm at home... I started watching an anime recently which I once left on pause, except for gym. that's all I've been doing all day rn...
I've started a addiction streak thread recently... Cus i was relapsing badly almost every single day 🙁 it's going good so far.
*Hugs* for you 💝 I love you moon 💗🥰
@chillmoon
@chillmoon 🐾💝
@chillmoon 🧿💗🥰
@chillmoon
hey moon, I miss you, how are you? 💖
@fossilfellow
Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii 😭😭😭😭
im backkkkkkk😁
im so sorryyyyyyyy i went absent for so long without much note
@chillmoon Helloo!!!! 💗😁😁 I'm so glad to see u again :)) how's u been? <3 it's alright, I don't mind <3 i missed u a lot moon, and was thinking of you 💗
@fossilfellow I missed you tooooooo 😭😭
I too thought about you, and was thought i should tell you im okay. but i was in a bad state mentally so i didn't even come on cups.
I remembered you at least once every other day and always hoped you were doing well
HOW IS YOUR CATTTTTTTTTTTT
and how are youuuuu. is everything going okay.
im retaking my exam next year mid. i passed the exam, with S S C🥲. but its not enough to apply for the degrees i want. i had to move out of my home cs my parents and doctor said a change of environment will be crucial. with all the things going at home. so now im living with my aunts family, and its easier to go to classes from here. i do go home every other week.
i made a plan with AI. a study plan. detailed one. and didnt quite follow it. through the last months, i relapsed. a lot. felt a lot of shame, hate and guilt. but didnt study. i did class homework bcs it is a must. but i did not study much.
i think if i hold myself accountable, i will study.
shall i msg you every day of my progress, and day in general?
that's about it about my life lately heh. exhausted btw. from scrolling. i just cant stay without doing something. i get the button phone and play snake game when theres nothing else to do. i avoid studying as much as i can and that is so bad.
i think i dont want to stay doing nothing for even 5 mins cs, then i would have to deal with my thoughts. and i dont want to think for myself, i would rather let the algorithm think for me.
sending lots and lots of love💗💗💗💗💗
@chillmoon my cat is doing well rn, he was very sick last month but now he's gud 💗.
Yeah it was the same for me, I thought of messaging u but I was in bad mental state very often... so didn't, it's okay though, u can msg me anytime u want, and our replies doesn't always have to be long n structured yk, u can type however ur feeling n share what ur comfortable sharing, I'd be more than happy to listen and support 💗 like that'd be so nice to just hav someone to listen 🥰
I see, how ru feeling after moved out? I hope everythings okay at your home, going home every other week sounds nice 💗 I'm glad it makes travelling to classes easier.
I'm sorry u had so many relapses, moon :( but it's okay, you are not alone, I also hav been having so many relapses but I'm learning to be more gentle with myself.. shame only feeds the urges, but idk I still relapse very often :(
Just a reminder, this doesn't have to define you as a person, and your core values ❤️ You're an amazing person, and I still love you no matter how many times u slip n relapse, we can get back up together, one moment at a time. be gentle with yourself ❤️🫂
Getting the class home work done is still a win, I'm proud of you for that 💜
Study plans, I understand it's difficult to follow the plans, but you're trying, and I'm here fór you, moon 🫂
I can relate to that, doing nothing makes us hav to deal with all the thoughts and get bored easily. And then comes the phone. which has been an instant escape, ur not alone in how you feel 💜
I'll tell u how I've been doing lately in my nsmxt msg i guess, cus this one got very long XD Sending you loadss and lots of love too 💗💗💗🫂🫂
@fossilfellow glad to hear he is okay.
i totally understand it. it's okay
yh yh sometimes it's hard to write long and put emojis and everything. i will sometimes write short and texts with no emotion but don't worry, i do have emotion, even happiness. i just don't have the energy to put emotion to text
😭😭😭you made my heart warm. it feels the world to have someone care for me even for the shameful parts. and is the same to you okay.
much love
And yes, ofcourse you can msg me about your everyday progress and day in general 💗💗 that's something I also need XD. No matter how boring ur daay was , even if all u did was stay in bed, u can share with me 💜 I'm here for you, to listen n to simply be ❤️
@fossilfellow 😭💗
@chillmoon 💝
@fossilfellow omg let me give you a hug
@chillmoon I need that 💜
saw another member's post on searching their username and when i searched, it was so alarming for me. i know there's nothing to worry about. but it was unsettling. bcs i can search any username and get all info. others ones also
@chillmoon yeah, that was alarming for me as well at first... That's why its not safe to share personal info on cups.
@fossilfellow yeah
@fossilfellow I always knew the guidelines and safety tips telling not to share personal info, like phone number, address, socials and real name. but i never thought about AI and how it can collect pieces of information and complete the puzzle. like if i talk about cuisine of my country, and about landscapes of my area and stuff, it can process and complete everything.
but then again, i think im just paranoid. and nothing serious is there unless somebody wants to find me. and im sure nobody does😂😂
@chillmoon yeah lol, I actually search my own username in Google often to see what info it has of me on 7cups, so often. But then it's just me looking at my own stats and all 🤧 even though no one really cares that much..
@fossilfellow lol
It's always better to be cautious ryt
@chillmoon Yup! <3
@chillmoon So, since my birthday a lot happned, firstly the addiction recovery streak that I had started on cups, my longest streak was ~20 days. I eventually stopped the streak cus it wasn't helping much or maybe I jus felt suffocated.
I kept having relapses, which made me go to get to crisis helplines online..around two months ago, my experience was terrible with helplines 🙁 which caused something Iike a panic attack that day, and I was so scared that I shared everything and opened up what things I've been going through with to one of my sis, that day. and felt less alone, in all this.
*T.W* ( mention of dimestic violence and health problems )
my dad also had angioplasty done around 2-3 months ago ( bcus he had been feeling chest pain, my eldest sis says he had something similar to an heart attack that morning but she doesn't share much details.) after surgery lot of problems at home, everyone was struggling with health issues, cat, sis, even mom.
dad losing temper n causing domestic violence n the same day in the evening when I had a panic attack, and all 🙁 but we're all safe now.
I've also made post on 7cups that day, on the day of his surgery and recieved lot of support from people ❤️ dad's is good and recovering well rn.
I'm still been struggling with these compulsive behaviour, often. But I'm learning to be gentle with myself every time, and focus on my next step and handling triggers.. also have blockers setted on my phone there's an app called "screenzen" and "blockerhero" these two help lot.
Also, I give phone to sis omar 12'o clock at night, cus i slip lot at night mostly due to exhausii5n lack of sleepi, but I'm being inconsistent with that rn.
I had to pause the blocker cus of college related stuff n all 🙁 it causes me to slip. It's still off rn, maybe I should put blockers back on but exams r goin on n I mostly study with phone. So I'm not sure what to do exactly. Maybe I'll block again but with limit n stuff for sometime.
Thanks for listening 💗💗💗
@fossilfellow
I can feel you. but 20 days is a win. even if it wasnt continued.
ohhhhh😭😭😭 i am so sorry you had to go through all that. i am so glad everything turned out okay.
you are a hero to have opened up to ur sister. im so proud of you. i admire you.
im glad you felt less alone after that
ohh, that is so unfortunate to have everyone have health issues. hope everyone are well now.
im sorry about what happened to your dad. hope he is doing well now.
ohhhh 🫂🫂🫂🫂
it is wonderful to hear you received support from cups people 💌
yes, shame only makes things worse. being gentle is the way.
oh rly. that's awesome. i should try them too.
no way that's greatt. that you give the phone at midnight. that way you can get good sleep.
ohh i see. so the blockers are not for specific sites? is it for the whole app?. yeah, maybe you could set timers and limits
know that im always here for you fossil. even on days i don't msg. im here with you. im so proud of you to have gone all these things and still working on improve everything. i love you so so much. i love every part of you. you are an amazing soul. and i know you are going to do great. im here, holding you and supporting you. don't ever underestimate yourself. you are capable of achieving everything you dream of.
i too am struggling with addictions and having relapses a lot. but i believe in growth
we are doing it. together. im here for you anytime.
@chillmoon thank you!! 💗 Yeah, i was very scared of opening up abt everything but I felt safe with her <3
*hugss back* 💗💗🫂
Thank you, moon, everyone's doing well rn at home, health also ok <3
Yeah these two blocker app r the best I've found, especially screenzen cus it lets u set timer and all, also there's a free option for "disable uninstall" which creates a friction , also I can add unlimited websites and apps which u wanna block or limit accordingly, and set timer to how long u gotta wait before changing the settings of ur app.
"Blockerhero" is nice too, but it has a bit less features but it also adds more friction, it has one day limit to "disable uninstall" option u gotta reset everyday. U can also add block "Key words" in both the apps, both r on playstore 💜
Your presence mean a lot to me, I love you too moon <3 ur an amazing, awesome pawsome person! <3 and have a good heart 💗 I'm proud of you too, for being here, and still trying, and I believe in you 💜🫂 and I love every part of you too! We will get through this, together, I believe we will get through this one day, where the urges are less, and we have more control over our actions. I know it's very hard, but you are truly not alone. I'm here for you too 💗
@fossilfellow i will try those. all the time apps that i found had some loop hole that my sneaky self could go back to addictions. like uninstalling and changing timers. i should try screenzen
ohh, it means a lot. i love you too
@chillmoon yeah, I can totally relate to the loop holes 🥲 You're not alone. yup, you should give it a try 💗
I love you more <3
*hugs* 💖💖
@chillmoon
@fossilfellow love you tons
hugsss
@chillmoon I love you moree!! <3 💜
*Huggggiesss* 💗🫂
@fossilfellow today i woke up late. thought of makign a day plan, but then got the phone to check msgs. and then i relapsed. for about 4 hrs. at the end i was so exhausted and guilty. but i forgave myself and took a shower. i played with my little cousins for like 5 hours (its a lot lol but, i thought it was better than going on phone.) i was using plying with them as an excuse for myself to not study. these days i use every excuse i can to escape from studies. and go on social media. now i am writing this and i plan to make a plan for tomorrow and sleep early. if there is no plan, i will not study. i will make a plan including everything, and give it to someone. then that way i will be held accountable
you are more than welcome to share your day too. i will not ask bcs i dont know if you want to or not.
sending a warm hug to you
@chillmoon Aww, I'm so sorry you had relapse 🙁 but you're here, and the next kindest thing u could do is being gentle with yourself, forgive urself and also you took shower after that, and that's a win <3
Yeah, spending time with people and cousins is better then scrolling for sure... hope u enjoyed hehe 💗 aww, it's alright ur already thinking of making a plan for tommorow, it's human to look for excuses, but we can take the next one small step at a time. You'll give ur plan to someone else? That's nice way to hold urself accountable, I'm here for you through it all! 💜
*Bigggggggggg hugs* 💗💗💗
@fossilfellow i will hold myself accountable to you too.
i will not lie about my day, maybe i would roughly set a target in the chat in the start of the day
idk, ill see
@chillmoon Yes, that works too <3
@chillmoon My day was very good, in the morning i made plan with some of my clg friends we went on carnival cus its festive season here, I experienced gaint wheel for first time today.
Also there was another ride, and we were shouting like crazy XD it was super funn!!! <3 And some parts were very exhausting but overall I enjoyed a lot, jus reached home an hour ago.
I got exam the day after tommorow, so gotta prepare for that too, I'm tired though, so I'll probably sleep in some time and start tommorow.
@chillmoin also, u can also tell me Abt ur day and how ur feeling whenever u feel like it, and I'll listen without judgement <3 I prob won't be asking very often too, but I'm always here for you, and I love you 💗
*hugs* <3 💗
@fossilfellow i knowww 💕
@chillmoon ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@fossilfellow omgggggg. sounds so fun 😃
ferris wheel is where there's little baskets like things to sit and you move ryt
this?
i can imagine y'all shouting lol
i didn't know u were going to collage now. you said you were going to apply and visit some collages w ur sister. im so happy for you.
ohhh exams never end ryt😖😖
wait so the exam is today ryt. wishing you all the best. is it and online one or do you have to go to a center
@chillmoin Yep that's the one! <3
Yes exams today, now I'm few hours, I'm trying to study rn, but I haven't done much of studying in this subject and just hoping I don't fail
@fossilfellow im glad the exam went well
@chillmoon ❤️❤️❤️