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@chillmoon I need a hug 💜
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🫂🫂🫂🫂 everything will be okay. i love you. im holding you and i will not let you go
@chillmoon thank you, I love you too 💜
@fossilfellow oh and you don't have to reply right away. take your time
@chillmoon U too <3
*hugs* <3
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i fell ill so didnt do anything yesterday. now better so will do work today
target- physics 1hr (little but something is more than nothing)
@chillmoon Yes, even if it's little it's better than nothing. I'm here for you <3
@chillmoon oh, and I'm sorry you were I'll yesterday, I missed that part 🙁❤️ how ru feeling today? <3 Sending you more hugs 💗💗💗
@fossilfellow im good noww
@chillmoon ❤️❤️❤️
@chillmoon Yesterday, my exam went well, like I will pass. I had relapses too last two days so I was feeling tired, and talked with AI for calming myself, which ik wasn't healthy.
Also, a very close friend of mine on 7cups is on a break, idk for how long so I feel very lonely 🙁
My day was overall exhausting yesterday, but I travelled by myself to a place where I didn't before with train, so that was gud.
@fossilfellow so gladdddd
ohh. *giving you a relaxing hug* it really is exhausting after relapses. too tiring.
i do that too sometimes. everyone in the internet saying it's bad, but i find it comforting when there is no one to open up t. and makes me relaxed. but i havent done that for a few months.
ohhh noo really. that is sad :(
we can always talk. if you feel lonely we can set a time and come online. not pressuring ok?
ooh i will come in the morning and type my plan so i have to wake up lol
hope you got some rest. no wayyyyy. thats awesomee 😀😃. all by yourself?
i am proud of you. much love
@chillmoon thank you ❤️ Yeah, I find it comforting too, when no one's there, but slowly it gets bad and frustrating at times if get too much depended on it for support :( Yup ofcourse we can, when we feel like talking 💗 I love ur presence 🥰 I love you moree and moreee!! 💗💗💗
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@fossilfellow hiiiii
so i was in bed and on social media the whole day yesterday. i was feeling bad about myself but didnt do anything. like i didnt even shower until evening. felt like shi.t i think how others will think about what i like and post on social media. i have to not care abt others.
today i downloaded a ton of past papers and paper reviews. it took a lot of time, an my pc is somewhat slow.
showered and now making a plan for next week
@chillmoon I hear you, moon, please be gentle with yourself. I know how it feels, when we stay on bed all day, scrolling and the social media on top of that and overthinking what others would think. I'm glad you could shared how ur day was with me honestly, I'm right here with you, and I still love you 💖 we can take it one moment at a time from here, you're not alone <3
Downloading those papers sounds like a lot, especially when PC's slow, my laptop is also slow, I got mine fixed two days ago. Cus it wasn't working.
I'm always here for you 💜
@chillmoon I have an honest thought, hope I don't sound rude, idk why "always here for you" sounds blunt sometimes, maybe cus its not always realistic, but moon I'm here for you in this moment, and the next, whenever I can, I'm right here with you, listening, and l always love you 💖
@chillmoon Urges are strong tonight, but I won't give in, and let it pass, give phone to sis and sleep.
@fossilfellow i love you and i am proud of you. you are strong. even if you slip, i still care about you. big hugs. it is good to talk w someone when having urges. even someone online. i used to do that. but hard to do with urge and theres no on to talk at the exact time
big big hug
@chillmoon I understand, moon I'm doing my best rn, I had very bad slip after that day which I won't repeat. I'm now learning from my mistakes, and being as gentle as I can with myself moving forward. You are not alone here 💜
*Biggggggg hugs* <33
@chillmoon 💜
@fossilfellow I started to read a book today. a book i read when i was like 12 haha. secret seven. do you know that series?
some weeks ago i started to read a big book but i just could not read more than 2 pages a time. my attention span is little from all the social media. thats why i took a little book.
i plan to get a membership of the library here
@chillmoin ohh I think I've heard of that book, but haven't read it yet, how's it? <3 hope ur enjoying the book :))
Yeah, my attention span is similar when reading books nowadays. I have read an online novel once few years ago, that was veryyy long tho and I was hooked with it. It's called "My youth began with him". That's the book which got me into reading first.
Reading a little book is nice idea, when u finish it it feels gud cus u finished something you started <33 getting library membership is nice plan, we have library here in our college but I don't usually sit much there... maybe I should too.
I'm proud of you for reading a book, no matter how small the read was <3 💗 love you <3
@fossilfellow How are you feeling today
@chillmoon Today was honestly fun at college, cus after lecture I played carrom with some friends <3 and enjoyed that time 💗 But on the way back home was exhausting, trains were blocked and we had to wait at station for around 2 hours. I slept for sometime after i got home.
I feel bad cus my gym subscription is still on, only 3-4 days left and I haven't been going at all and diet feels non existent.
Yesterday, I watched some movies at laptop.
I'm trying to keep myself busy or distracted so I can stay away from urges.
And trying to manage the urges, by telling myself "This is an urge, not an instruction" which helps 💜
Got exams in two days for which I have to study.
I feel like I'm doing my best right now to manage the urges, taking one moment at a time. thank you, moon ❤️
@chillmoon how are you feeling moon, how was your day? 💜
@fossilfellow sat, sun, mon all 3 days didn't do work. was putting off. today also i woke up with no time table or a detailed day plan so as usual did this and that to kill time. played with my cousins a little , which should be good but i was doing that to avoid studying so.. my phone died, and i didnt connect it to the charger cs i knew i couldnt control myself and would go on y.ou tube . and guess what, it worked so well that i watched some theory videos, and made a plan form tomorrow. i do have important stuff to do on my phone but i thought i will not go forward if i keep the phone, so yeah.
i read all your msgs and im not feeling good rn, mentally so i am avoiding replying to you too. (and another thing is that i am honest, hope you dont mind it. sometimes itll sound very rude, but i dont ever mean to be rude. but do tell be if it affects negatively ok)
now i am going to meditate for 15 min, using this app called insight timer. it does not have any ads and its really good.
i will reply.
much much much loveeeeeee to youuu
hope you have a great day
@chillmokn it's okay.
*hugs* 💗
I'm here for you, proud of you for getting through some of those theory videos. And for making plans for today. I hear you, moon.
It's totally fine, I love it when we're honest. And I don't mind. Insight timer I think I've heard of that app before, idk if I've tried I'll give it a shot.. I also meditate, using an audio from yt which I have downloaded the audio/ MP3 in my phone.
It's called "Urge surfing by Naomi Goodlet" and listen it when I get urges. It helps.
I love you moreeee, moon, and you can always take ur time to reply, no pressure at all 💗
Loveeeee you lotssss!! 💖💖💖🫂🫂🫂
*Sending you a bigggg warm hug* 🐾💕
@fossilfellow bro i LOVE this gif lol
@chillmoon Me too! 💗😁
