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@chillmoon how are you? <3
@fossilfellow I just can't believe myself
like. i don't know why i'm like this
i imagined fantasies, different scenarios where this crush likes me 😭 . actually this imaginations are the source of suffering for me from like 13 years old.
after like 4 hours, i craved ....
but i don't have a device where i can watch ryt
so i went to the person's room that i gave my tablet to and searched their cupboard . i found my tablet. and so i relapsed.
now i should tell them to take the tablet somewhere else.
@chillmoon oh and how are you?
@chillmoon I'm so, so sorry :(( please know that it's not your fault, it's the pattern — addiction. not you 🤍
I also relapsed twice yesterday... and also had a bad experience, when I was out for a walk, and was feeling sad :( and didn't do nothing.
It's okay... please be gentle with yourself 💖 and have some rest.
We can get back up, and try again 💖
You're not alone, I'm here for you ❤️❤️
*Biggggg hugs* <33
@chillmoon ❤️
@fossilfellow 😭😭😭 thank you so so much
really mean a lot to me
i'm sorry to hear you also relapsed
it's not your fault
we can do this
i'm here for you too
*hugs backkkkkk*
@chillmoon Thank you so much 💖💖🫂
@fossilfellow
@chillmoon
@fossilfellow
Let's talk abt something else, shall we?
@chillmoon ofcourse <3
Today's is my cat ( Suffi's ) Birthday 😁😁
@fossilfellow omggggggg
happy birthday suffiiiiiiiiiii
@chillmoon 😂😂 thank youu!! -- from suffi
I think my family will definitely celebrate his bday today <3 like we did last year 🥰 it was really very fun.
Do you think your dog knows it when ur sad, and he's trying to comfort you? ( If he does ) like.. ik dogs r expressive in nature, but I've never had one of my own. Idk if this question makes sense :3
@fossilfellow no he doesn't 😂😭
but he always sits near me. i talk to him, and tell my fears. he never understand lol but it means a lot to me. i hug him and it is the greatest thing
does your cat sense it? your emotions?
@chillmoon lol, tbh my cats too small for really hugging, it's more like he does cuddles 😁
I think yes, he definitely sense my emotions... I feel, and we communicate through eyes and by calling his name ( he knows the tune of my voice )
Also he's really smart kitty he knows how to open doors with his paws 😁 like humans do..
@fossilfellow no way he opens doors. like how? he jumps?
yeah, cat's are the best for cuddling.
i've never cuddled a cat. i want to one day.
@fossilfellow wowwww. that's awesomeeee
@chillmoon Ikrrr :))
He's turnin' 2yo this year :)) i didn't even realise how fast these past 2 years went by... He's very close to my heart, everyday he's there for me to comfort ( idk if he even realises it XD )
@fossilfellow aww that's so sweet
i get what you mean . i have cried because of the love i feel for my dog.
like i can't get how unconditionally he loves me and i love him
she does know that, like , you are her world. you are the joy in her life, you are the safe place. she doesn't judge. now matter what you do, you are her world
i have wondered and asked in my head, if my parents would love me if they knew the things i have done, if they knew how much i've lied to them. i wonder if my friends would still be friends if they knew the real me. but then i see my dog and he is there for me unconditionally
@chillmoon Same... This is so relatable.
I always have this in my mind, if my family and friends knew my mistakes and my past actions, would they still see and love me the same?
And the answer always feels probably not, to me.. during some of my darkest days, my cat was beside me, he has always been... He has seen so much of my true self.. or idk what to cal that self.
I've shared my secrets with him, my feelings with him, when there was no one whom I can trust :(
I love him, and just.... Sometimes the thoughts of loosing him some say feels so heavy.. sry.
He matters a lot to me <3
@fossilfellow that is indeed a great feeling to have another living soul, beside you in the darkest days.
Yeah, same. I know my dog will live only 3 more years max. but he will live in my mind forever. in my imaginary world. he is there even now.
i plan to take him to the beach. he loves the beach. he loves water
isn't your cat a girl? am i mistaken??
@chillmoon Nah, we thought it's a girl at first... found out he's a boy after he was like 4 he got like months old... :')
Damn that's so awesome.. does ur dog plays fetch and throw? <3 and what games do u play with her? Is she neutered? <3
4 months*
@fossilfellow ahhhhh ryttttt
I remembered the other way around
I throw his ball, he get it but doesn't give it back to me 😂😂
he's a golden retriever but he doesn't retrieve lolll
@chillmoon My cat does the swme!!! He's like a mini dog tbh, but he just doesn't bring it back 😂
@fossilfellow lolllll
@fossilfellow no, he's not neutered
@chillmoon Okayy, mine also isn't neutered..
@fossilfellow ahhh
@chillmoon Yeah... probably the reason why he's so wild sometimes 😅
@fossilfellow lmaoooo
@chillmoon 😂
@fossilfellow What is/are your dream country to visit?
@chillmoon probably Japan for ite animes <3 ( have u watched any anime before? )
I'm responding late, heree lot of disturbance rn + charge is low.
What about you?
@fossilfellow oooo i want to visit japan too
nope. i've never watched anime. this must be news to you 😭😭😭
i know you are a huge anime fan☺️
But bad news, i won't be able to talk about anime things cs i don't know any :(((((((
maybe you could tell me about anime
@chillmoon Hehe.
It's okkk, I haven't watched an anime since almost 2 years.. I was obsessed with animes <3 hehe u know hehe?
I have forgotten most of them tbh, and.. don't watch animes anymore.
But I've got a list of those that I've watched somewhere, it has around 100 animes in it..
One of the reasons i stopped was, anime was turning into a trigger :( and I use to watch animes day nd night with no breaks.
It was causing health issues, and stuff.. I decided to not watch animes since then.
There's lots of amazing animes lot there tho <3
@fossilfellow ahhhh i see
yeah :) i saw in a forum, i can't remember what though
a reason i never tried watching anime was bcs i feared i'd get addicted. cs i get addicted to things very easily. i know people who are addicted and anime is their whole world. like, i get it. it's awesome. but i'm afraid i'd get attached too much and loose interest in reality
@chillmoon Yeah I guessed it <33
I totally understand! Same with games rn.. my friends always tell me to join them, learn how to play popular shooting games and stuff.. but ik myself, I'll get addicted for sure... So I avoid it, and just stay on my own space... While they play.
@fossilfellow I am so happy for you for doing that. You are doing the right thing, nobody knows you better that yourself. It must be hard to always refuse.
sending lot's of love to you
@chillmoon thank you <3
You're also right, knowing the triggers helps not to worsen something that's already a problem..
@fossilfellow I have many countries I want to visit lol
One is Switzerland. I want to go hiking in the alps.
@chillmoo Switzerland is nicee!
Have you ever seen snow fall irl?
@fossilfellow I have, once.
It doesn't snow in my country
@chillmoon ahh okay.. I don't remember seeing any, my parents says I've seen hail/snow fall when I was like 6yo old xd.
@fossilfellow ohh really. you won't remember cs you were small
@chillmoon yeah... do you remember your childhood birthdays?? Cus' i don't honestly.. like everything before 2016 is so blurry, it almost feels like a dream.. just some intense things i vaguely remember.. i remember my 12 birthday a little, but non before that...
I wanna do scuba-diving some day 😁 idk how to swim tho, I'll have to learn that first 😅
@fossilfellow No wayyy. That's so awesome.
I'm a scuba diver 🙃
you know what, you don't have to know how to swim in order to do scuba diving.
@chillmoon Woahhh, that's so cool.
Have you learnt it when u were small?
I don't get it... how can one do scuba diving without knowing how to swim? <3
@fossilfellow I did 4 day training and got my license at 16
Noo I've never learnt scuba diving before the training
Well, they say scuba diving and swimming are two completely different things. Swimming is all about floating and moving . but in scuba diving you don't have to float. you are underwater. I know this cs I swim too. and diving is different to that
@chillmoon I seee, this is kso new to me hehe .
Thanks for sharing <33
when u did scuba diving, were there fishes inside the water? Like were able to see them...
If yesz was it allowed to touch Aquatica animals?
@fossilfellow yeah there ware fish.
noo. it's an ethic that scuba divers don't take or touch anything from the ocean without a letter from an authority. we didn't touch anything intentionally, though i touched corals with my hands and legs cs i couldn't regulate my suit air well lol.
@chillmoon Okayy <3 ð¥°
@fossilfellow I can't believe you want to go scuba diving one day. I rarely meet someone who is interested in scuba diving.
I was going to say let's go suba diving together one day but then remembered this is 7 cups and we are not going to know in real life hehe
@chillmoon Actually, I saw some post of people here at cups sharing their experience, and it got my intrest <3 :))
@fossilfellow I'm going outside for a little walk. Will try to read a book.
See you later :)))))))
@chillmoon okey moon <3
I hope you enjoy ur time out there 🥰
byie! 🐾💖
@fossilfellow 💕
@fossilfellow Heyy how are you today?
I watched shorts cs I had my phone today
but i also cleaned my room. like a huge cleanup and organized everything.
I plan to make a study plan for the next month now
@chillmoon I'm okay rn, i slept for 3 hrs but still feel sleepy rn. I've also been scrolling... But plan to study.
how are u feeling? <3
@fossilfellow :)) happy to hear you are okay
I too get sleepy a LOT. maybe it's bcs of scrolling? idk
I'm feeling tired
@chillmoon Probably :( I feel tired too..
@fossilfellow
@chillmoon
@chillmoon I scroll a lot on 7cups too :( It sometimes overwhelm me. I need to set boundaries...
@fossilfellow I used to have that too, last year. I used to come to cups cs i didn't want to study. so i wrote down that i'm going to use cups only for 1hrs a day. i scheduled two 30 min sessions, one in the morning and one in the evening. then i installed browser extensions (cs i use cups form my computer) and gave time limits for cups. it would automatically close after 1hr. then I i told my dad to set a password for the extension so i can't change the time (there's an password option) . and then turned the email option (an email would be sent to my dad if i uninstall the extension 😭)
I always wonder why i don't have a single bit of self control. whyyyyyyyy
@chillmoon I feel you.
I've had similar experiences, but sadly I still struggle with self control :(
You've tried to reduce the usage tho, that's was a win... It's hard to even admit it.. cus it feels like we're making a space made for support feel like a burden at times..
There needs to be boundaries which we gotta work more at :(
*hugs* <3
@fossilfellow like the main problem in my life is self control. that's why i watch shorts and come on cups a lot without studying
*huggsss*
@chillmoon Same :(
*Hugs back* ❤️❤️
Btw today was my one month into the gym :))
I'm enjoying the workouts and stuff... And have made some friends over there <3 which keeps me motivated to show up. 🤗
@fossilfellow
@chillmoon thank you 💖
@fossilfellow I am so happy to hear you enjoy the gym. That's greatttttt😃😃. Yep it's definitely a motivation
@chillmoon yeah 🤗 I've seen some crazy newbie gains since last month hehe <3 that's the best part I guess... Even tho I haven't lost much weight i feel different physically.
@fossilfellow ooohhh niceee. well you won't loose weight in one day lol. it'll take time. ohh it's great that you feel a difference
I should also start exercising. I ave gained weight the past two years cs i didn't do anything.
@chillmoon I see, tbh I've always been overweight since I was small. My parents use to bring lots and lots of junk foods and i was addicted to food.
It use to causes lots of health issues.. and my liver was also getting weak and stuff :(
When I turned 16, I realised how much of a problem this is... during vacations i joined gym, for the first time, got a trainer and lots a lot of weight within 1.5 months. through diet, cardio and strength training.
But then became inconsistent, changed gyms but didn't got enough time.
Now that I've joined again, I don't feel like it's completely new to me.. I'm almost 18 rn.
@fossilfellow ohhhh 🙁🙁
junk food is literally long term death drug that tastes so good
we'll that is good that you are going to the gym again.
oh you are almost 18?
how old do you think i am 😂
@chillmoon yeah, that comes with lot of bullying too.
I guess 22?
@fossilfellow oh noooo 😕🙁
i hate bullying so so much. it's such a mean thing to do to someone.
@fossilfellow nopeee
I'm 19 lol
@chillmoon oh ok 😂
@chillmoon Yeah 😅 I'll be 18 next month
@fossilfellow someone's going to be an adult soon 😎
@chillmoon Yeahh ❤️ also I ran out of hearts here, so I can't upvote ur posts rn
@fossilfellow what does that mean? there's a limited number of upvotes possible?
@chillmoon Yes, idk I think it's a very recent update... It wasn't like this before, but now we can upvote someone's post a limited time ( maybe to prevent spams ) .
I simply reply with a heart emoji for liking post if I ran out of it :)
@fossilfellow ohhh I see.
@chillmoon Yup
@chillmoon do you like sports?
I've always been an indoor person tbh, I haven't played much sports irl, except for arm wrestling... That's one thing i was gud at in school.
Here, in my country everyones onsses with criket and stuff... Which sometimes makes me feel out of space cus i don't watch criket nor have I played criket in my childhood ( if I tell someone this, they get shocked xd )
Obsessed*
@fossilfellow I see. I actually thought you were an indoor person :) 💗
omg no way , that's so cool.
I'd definitely lose if we do an arm wrestle 😂😂
@chillmoon 😂😂❤️
You did hehe <3
I was obsessed with arm wrestling too <3 I use to watch matches all the time, including live ones 🥰
@fossilfellow wait whaatttt. there's arm wrestle matches???????
@chillmoon Yuppp.
East vs West heavy weight championship... If arm wrestling...
There are loads of popular wrestlers who participate hehe i remember names.
Like,
Devon larrat.
Denis cyplenkov.
Levan Saginashvili.
I'm a big fan of Devon larrat <3
@fossilfellow omg. i never knew there were championships
@chillmoon It was really fun to watch <3 🤗
@fossilfellow 🙂💕
@fossilfellow sameeeee 😭😭
Men are always talking abt cricket. my grandpa watched cricket so i have watched when i was small. i liked it at the time but now i don't. it's too boring for me.
but good thing is that i'm a girl so it's not a thing popular among girls. but for me gosh it's like if you are a man you should know cricket. literally nonsense
are you a girl or a boy ?
@chillmoon
boy.
And idk a thing abt criket except for bar and ball... Like Idk even a little lol. I've Rearly seen other males not knowing Abt criket... There are some though, we relate to this.
Maybe one of the reasons i don't like/watch criket is cus i don't know the rules... Nor do I take much effort to learn.. I've tried doing in past but it didn't got my interest..
I simply couldn't relate to the hype of others.. cus i haven't actually played it myself... :(
@fossilfellow
ahh okayy
ikkrrrrr. the hype looks so ridiculous to me 😂
I can feel you. It's hard to be included in those convos when you don't know a single thing. and it's a peer pressure too, cs some people laugh at others for not knowing cricket.
@chillmoon I came to other room xd, there's a lot of disturbing my house rn, nvm..
Yeah, i don't share idk how to play cricket , i simply stay quiet, unless I find someone similar 😅 who doesn't know about it...
@fossilfellow ohh
haha. hope you find more non cricket people lol
@chillmoon 😅 yeah.
My cat just climbed on top of shelf... Lookin for a mouse rn
@fossilfellow yeah I do.
I don't do any sport now bcs of exams and everything. but i used to. My main sport is badminton. but I also did swimming and netball a little
I did a lot of extra activities when i was in school. In middle school I never studied and got super low grades. 😭
I'm an outdoor person heh
FOSSIL AND MOON'S SATURDAY TRIP TO THE POOL
Things we need
- swimsuits
- doodles
- goggles
- lots and lots of snacks
- snuffi 😂
- moon's dog
@chillmoon do you travel often? <3
@chillmoon hiii, how are you feeling? <3