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@chillmoon how was ur childhood like? ( only ans if it feels safe ) Like do u use to play outdoors games and stuff a lot ? Or do you even remember those times... Cus' for me it has really become so blurry already, idk how some ppl remember things from their childhood for years at age of 40-50.
@fossilfellow I don't remember before like age 6. I was always outdoor when i was small. Climbing trees all the time. Running, cycling, plying with mud heh
in the years after, there were family problems so i always went outdoors. talked to trees
tell me about your childhood also
@chillmoon I see, yeah I use to play with muds too <3 i alwa4use to break my toysfor fun xd.
My childhood was pretty intense tbh, It's really mixed, like I use to play lots of outdoor games, we had a team of friends, my sis was the leader and we called the " Sparkle team" xd.
Those were nice memories, like playing with friends in streets with no worries, i didn't had much make friends at all. And my mom wouldn't let me engage in stuff that boys my age played.. like with big crackers and roaming around alleys.. for safety.
@fossilfellow lollll. Poor toys 😭
Such fun. There's always a leader in those child groups lol.
Nice memories indeed. We were care free then, don't you think. Simple creatures. Without much worries about the future. I miss that
@chillmoon yeah, didn't realise back then how much time I still had left to enjoy tbh, since i was 13 I felt like I'm running out of time to enjoy my childhood. But yeah... It was just i didn't had enough prespective to know there's so much ahead to experience and grow
And prob after some years, I'll look back into the stage in at rn, and think the same again. xD. It's a cycle.. I feel.
@fossilfellow Are you still friends with others in sparkle team?
I totally understand why your mother didn't let you play with them. and I think she was right to do so
@chillmoon sadly no :( after lockdown things changed, we don't talk much, I was in touch with one of them, but not anymore.. though I cherish those memories ð¥°
Yeah mom was prob right to not let me play with em' <3 although things had to go sideways as I entered my teenage years, got to toxic friend circles a lot of times :(
@fossilfellow those memories will be with you forever 💗
Toxic friends are literally the worst. Makes life so hard. I'm sorry you got into those circles.
@chillmoon Thank you 💖🫂
@chillmoon I actually have a lot to talk Abt childhood, but it was actually very traumatic for me most of the times, that i remember :( mostly because of my family.
@fossilfellow I'm sorry you had to experience those things. Shows how strong you are bcs you are here with an amazing heart and personality even after going through those things.
I won't ask you to tell things about your childhood, but if you are comfortable, I am more than willing to listen :)
@chillmoon Same here ❤️ I'm here for you to listen, if u wanna share anything.
*t.w*
It was actually domestic violence, my dad has always been really abusive towards family, he had anger issues. and prob much more, there has been times when he even had to go jail cus of the fights and domestic violence he use to do :(
@fossilfellow thank you fossil 😊
I am so so very sorry you had to live through all of that.
When there are family troubles and especially violence, it affects children a lot more than adults realise. It affects their brain and impact even after they become adults.You have to know how precious you are bcs you are such a loving and kind person even after that childhood. That alone shows how high up you have come. Despite of all of that.
I want you to know this - You didn't ask for that. and those affected everything. your tendency to get into addictions. It is not your fault at allllll. You are still a child i'd say :) and what are you to blame fossil. You are a worrier who reaches out and tries to become a better version of yourself. Not many people do that.
Sending you lots and lots of love and strength 💌💌💌💌💌💌💌vv
@chillmoon Thank you so much 😢💝🫂
@fossilfellow I can relate
I cried a lot in my childhood bcs of problems between m parents. I would cry alone. That is why I always went outdoors.
@chillmoon I understand, you were just trying to survive, and i think it was good that u use to go outdoors during those times, for your peace of mind <3 I use to do the same, and go into my friends house at times.. when too many problems use to occur, to distract myself.
@fossilfellow I cant find the texts abt Canada so ill reply here
Now it's really hard to travel cs the flight tickets and accommodation costs are super high. Hope you'll be able to go there someday :)
My experience was great. I went years ago. I went to visit my cousins.
They have children's parks. and they are awesomeeee. there's zip liners even in small play grounds. And these tall rope things where you can climb high. and beams made of wood.
@chillmoon damn, zip liners sounds so fun <3
@fossilfellow like these
@chillmoon Wowww, it's so different than how parks r over here...those wood like structures must be fun to climd on XD. have you been on zip climbers before ? ð¥°
@fossilfellow i've been on small zip liners like these on parks. but i want to go on a long distance one. like those over the trees
@chillmoon Yeahh, those long ones with views would be a really nice thing to experience <3
@chillmoon yeah i didn't knew Abt that, maybe hopefully <3 :)
@fossilfellow yeah hopefully
@chillmoon <33
@fossilfellow I'll tell you something. I don't want to tell my country but i think we live pretty close to each other so i want you to know lol. If you are south India, I live close to you. I'm not from india. but our country is below india. it starts with s. I just am afraid to expose on cups so i wont type it but i want to know if we are close 😭
@chillmoon Ah okai, no worries at all <3 :))
@fossilfellow so? you know my country ryt?
Yeah I do XD 😁❤️
@fossilfellow yaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy
Are we close? like if you are from south we are close
@chillmoon Yeahhh we're pretty close 😜
@fossilfellow oommmmmmmmmmgggggggggg
@fossilfellow 8 letters. lollllllll😭😭
@chillmoon Yeah that was obvious ð¤§ð¤§â¤ï¸ Btw I wanna use this crying emoji but idk for some reason i hassitate.
( sry if this sounds weird m, just a thought I had )
@fossilfellow 😂😂. I use it all the time lol. I use it for everything ***. mostly to dramatic laughing
nope i don't think it's weird
@chillmoon I also use it on like comment sections 😭 but it's kinda new to me, I haven't been chatting much since last year, and trends seem to hav changed pretty much. But ok <3 will get used to it i guess 😁
@fossilfellow loll
trends have definitely changed. I don't know any trend tho heh
@chillmoon 😂 same, I'm rn not keeping up with most trends except for the 67 one. I got curious at what it meant.
But still, y.t somehow manages to give the most trending feed or idk if ite just coincidence or just how the algorithm works xD.
@fossilfellow yeah yeah 😂
I totally forgot abt yt trends
I saw this travel buddy dance with the suitcases
@chillmoon Travel buddy dance...? Idk if I've seen it yet XD lemme search it up real quick <3
@chillmoon I see now, why this song has been playing so frequently on my gym 😂😂
@fossilfellow 😂😂😂
@fossilfellow
Talking abt food made me hungry lol. I am going to have lunch. byee. see you later
@chillmoon okii byei!! <3 enjoy ur lunch 🐾🥰
@fossilfellow 💕
@chillmoon Gudnite 🐾💖🥰
@fossilfellow so cuteeeeeeeeeee
Good morning now 🤗
@chillmoon Guud morning 🍀🤍 I just came home from gym <3 🤗
@fossilfellow nicee
@fossilfellow I'm glad we're in the same time zone cs it's much easier
@chillmoon Yeahh <33
@chillmoon hii, how are you feeling?
@fossilfellow I'm feeling good. My friend came to my house to study. We studied for 3 hours and that is like mount everest compared to other days :)))
@chillmoon Damn that's so niceee!! 💖💖 3 hours is insane, it helps to have someone giving u company ❤️❤️🥰
@fossilfellow yesssss
@chillmoon 💝💝💝
I had many slips :( but somehow managed/got lucky to not relapse and slept for like 3hrs. I just woke up feeling drained..
@fossilfellow ohhhh I'm so sorryyyy
It's not your fault, you are constantly trying to overcome it.
Come i'll give you a bear hug 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂
Everything will be alright k?
Whohooooo letsgooo. that is such an accomplishment
If you feel guilt, gently remind it's not your fault and redirect your thoughts to something else
We're in this together
@chillmoon thank you so much!! 💝💝🥰
I'll try to focus rn, I went out for a small walk. And feeling a bit better now ❤️
@fossilfellow that is greattt. dont pressure yourself to do lots of work. your brain is exhausted. Even 15 minutes is an accomplishment.
@chillmoon okeii <3 you also have some rest moon 🤍 I love you 🐾💖
@fossilfellow okyyyyy. love you too
@fossilfellow It's okay to rest now. It's totally understandable why you feel drained. I'm here for you. You are loved for who you are. I love you who relapsed. not just the positive you.
hugs
@chillmoon Thank you moon, this means a lot to me 🙁💖🫂🫂 I love you too 💝 the real you, and I'm so proud of you for today 💖
*Bigggesst hugs*
@fossilfellow
@chillmoon I'll try to study for 30 mins, u motivated me ❤️🤗 Let's talk bit ltr 🐾💕
@fossilfellow yayyyy. how did it go? were you able to study?
@chillmoon Yes, I did study for around 35mins that day <3 :))
@fossilfellow ooommggggggggg
GO FOSSILLLLL
this is your treat 😁 (idk if you like cake or not)
@chillmoon Thank you!! 💖 I love them, especially chocolate and ice cream cakes 😁 :))
The melt is crazy lmao, I think this one's called chocolate lava cake... 😋❤️
@fossilfellow ommmggggggg
This is tortureeeeee😭😭
ice creaammmmm
chocolsate fudgeeeee
lava cakeeeee
I've never had ice cream cake. what is that?
@chillmoon It's awesome! <3 I've eaten ice cream cake like 3 times till now, nd I loved it every single time 🤗
@fossilfellow ow my gawd
Looks so yummy. We don't have that here. Hope ill be able to try one day :)))
@fossilfellow thank youuuuu :)))))))
@chillmoon 💝💝
@chillmoon hiii, how's ur day going? <3
@fossilfellow We had to take my dog to the vet cs he vomited. He got medications and he's fine now. I did 5 MCQ questions lol. and watched a movie. :)
How was your day?
@chillmoon oh, okay.. I'm so glad he's fine now ❤️ 5 MCQ is still a progress <33 Well done 💖 I hope you enjoyed the movie :))
I didn't study yesterday :( My day was a bit tiring, had a bit rough time at gym cus my partner who helps with training didn't show up, then after coming home, i went out with my mom for some work in the afternoon and got tired, slept/scrolled most of the time.
I just woke up, and feeling better, I had a nicee sleep <3 ❤️
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@fossilfellow hey, thanks 😊
that's okay🫂. I say it's a productive day. You showed up for the gym, despite how it went (i'm sorry your partner didn't show up :( didn't he inform you before? ) you still showed up. and you helped your mother. that's greatttt.
Hope you are less tired now
Comforting bear huggggggg
@chillmoon Nope he didn't :( maybe i should've called him, but he's actually a gym veteran... ( he's been helping me with training for free, cus i resemble a name of his childhood friend + we use to go to the same gym when I was 16 XD ) Nd i didn't want to disturb his sleep..
@fossilfellow there's also some other veteran, who's a bit harsh with his words when i make mistakes at gym :( so I was feeling kinda low.
@fossilfellow ohhh I'm so so sorry. I know how it feels. And it affects everything. You have just started gym again and it's only right that you make mistakes. Don't take it personally (tho i too find it hard to do that).
Lot's of love
@chillmoon Yeah, I try not to ❤️ thank you 💖🫂
@fossilfellow ahhh I see.
That is such luck lol
@chillmoon Yeah it is XD 😁 I love training with him, but just always try to be careful... not to anger then too much 😅
@fossilfellow To meet him again and have a resembling name. like damn
@chillmoon almost like movies, but yeah <3 I like his vibes, I try to copy his forms and stuff when he does his excersises. He makes me do some very classic gym excersises i didn't even know existed <3
@fossilfellow That's so cool
@chillmoon But he's not consistent...like I'm more consistent then him at gym 😭😭
@fossilfellow than* but he's very kind person <33 I told him the other day to let me know if I ever start feeling like a burden, and he said no ur not and u don't disturb me.
@fossilfellow aww really. He seems a great person. well bcs he's doing it for free, you can't pressure him to come daily ryt. But it's great that you get to learn from him. even if it's not daily.
@chillmoon yup, right ❤️
@fossilfellow ohhh :( .
haha
@chillmoon how are you? <3
@fossilfellow I'll reply in this hehe
I saw a dream last night that had my crush in it 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. I AM SO EMBARRASSED
The dream lasted 2 years. yeah 2 years. not day by day. but like 2 years. idk how to say it even lol. It was around my crush.
I'm so tired now.
I'm going to sleep
@fossilfellow It's a toxic crush
@fossilfelow I try to think of other things when thoughts about the crush pops. and i do succeed cs i don't think about him like last year. I didn't even think about him once this months. but suddenly i see this dream. like w.tf.
@chillmoon I understand, it's like we try to avoid certain thoughts... But they just subconsciously keeps lingering in our mind.. and shows up in forms of dream and all :( there's nothing wrong with you, it's just the patterns and how addictions are. I'm here for you ❤️
@fossilfellow Yeah, true. I try to think like that.
@chillmoon it's okay, you're trying so much, the fact that you didn't think of him last year and this month, shows that ur capable... It's just it's not a straight path, slips do happen, but you're here and still showing up... Instead of bottling things up.. all that truly matters ❤️
@fossilfellow that's what*
@fossilfellow No I meant I didn't think of him this year, like last year. last year i thought of that person almost every day.
@chillmoon toxic?
@fossilfellow oh sry. It just means that he affects me negatively. Not a problem of him, but from my side. Thoughts of him affect my studies, my emotional well being, my routines,..
@chillmoon I hear you 🤍 I'm sorry he's thoughts effect you so negatively 🙁
Sending you lots of love ❤️❤️
@fossilfellow Thank you 🥺🥺💗💗💗
@fossilfellow I am tired and going to take a nap. I will reply when I wake up :). Hope you'll have a good day.
