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@Tinywhisper11
Heyy! Hope you're doing great. I would love to chat with you more and it's so hard to do here. I am lost between all your different replies in my posts so let's just talk here, if you want ofc
So that's how it looks like. I got only one sweater. The other clothes were polished and they didn't fit at all so I returned them.
But i'm super happy with how this one looks!
@schrodingerscattt awwww thats a cute top ❤ ❤❤ good choice bestie ❤oh I don't know who schrodinger is😕 but I think you can only change your user name in the first couple of weeks by yourself🤔🤔you'll probably have to write of to cups🤔🤔 I'm not sure how you can do that though! Sorry. And yep! Doing nothing is still doing something😂😂 I hope your not stressing about this username thing? It's not gonna make you look like a bad person, ok. Gives you lots of hugs ❤❤ I love you ❤
@schrodingerscattt hey bestie? What's going on? Are you ok?
Hey. I decided to give another chance to this app but I'm still so scared of creeps. I just can't forget their mean comments on one of my posts in the forum. Even now I'm scared to say too much so they won't be able to comment and hurt me. It's really sad that the only place that brought me comfort made me feel unsafe.
Also I got so many jokes about *** in the groups or people who were telling me that depression is demonic and stuff like that. I got so much toxicity on this app. I hope the teen side is not like this because the adult side sucks. But I guess some people will never understand how they can hurt you with their words. It's so weird for me to think that someone will write a mean comment just to hurt someone. I am done of being nice and kind and not getting anything in return. I am just gonna isolate myself even more because I am tired of getting heartbroken over and over again.
@schrodingerscattt
Also I wanted to say that all these comments are not visible anymore because I reported them but the harm is done now. I've been crying for hours. I genuinely hate myself and I will never ever say something personal ever again on this app.
@schrodingerscattt 😞 if we can't speak the truth here, then where can we speak. You deserve support just like everyone else here ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ I'm so glad your going to try again ❤❤❤ I love you ❤ and yeah! I've cried many times before for words people say, it hurts I know. Hugs you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I felt way too bad thinking I would never talk to you again. You're an amazing friend❤️ it's weird how words can hurt so hard. But yeah we have to remind ourselves that it's not about us but about them. It's hard but I will work on it this upcoming year. How are you doing today? Have you done anything that bring you joy lately?
I would love to see more of your drawings and paintings if you have some new ones. They are truly beautiful.
@schrodingerscattt
@Tinywhisper11 that's the last painting I did, I finished it the day before I got ill. I've got a chest infection and I've completely lost my voice, I am now officially a tiny whisper 😥 I'm on steroids and antibiotics, so hopefully it will pass soon ❤ how is your day?
@Tinywhisper11
Girl!! You can't talk at all? Imma personally fight this illness for you. How dares it touch my bestie 😭 I hope you will get better soon Lola❤️
I'm sorry if some of my sentences don't make sense. I am doing my homework in electrodynamics and my brain is just fried. Thanks physics. But I still love it tho.
I hope you will get better soon! Gosh I feel awful now that I really wanted to leave this app. I'm really sorry I will do my best to ignore mean people. We're here to chat and have a good time and not to be sad about stupid people.
I am sending you lots of love and hugs girl. Love you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
@Tinywhisper11
OMG! Are you kidding me😭 girl it's so beautiful! How do you even do this?! You're so so talented. Here, you lost it 👑 You're really so good at this!
Hey. I have a bit more time now. I wanted to say that if you wanna vent just lemme know. I am so worried about you rn. I really hope you will feel better soon. You're so strong and you always have been bestie👑
I don't even know what to say to be honest. I would like to cheer you up but I only have nerd/physics jokes😭
I can share some if you want tho
Oh and also don't forget our cabin in the woods!
I am thinking about it when I don't feel well. I imagine how I would decorate it! I would like a big cozy couch there with so many fluffy pillows!! Any ideas what else can we put in our cabin to make it even better?😁
@schrodingerscattt can we have a log fire??? And candles but not scented candles (they start my asthma off) also a porch swing. ❤ nerdy jokes haha!😂😂😂 it's cool I love nerdy jokes😂😂 and hey! You didn't know I was ill, and I know how mean words can really affect us. I'm just glad you were brave enough to come back ❤ you are here for support, and understanding not nasty opinions. Wow! I don't know anything about pyhisics, other than it sounds incredibly hard. My bestie is very brainy ❤❤ and don't worry I get ill alot, my immune system is crap, I'll be fine ❤thanks for the crown🤗 your so sweet ❤ how are doing? I'm here for you remember this is your safe place, right here. You don't have to do this alone, you can talk to me I'll always be here for you ❤gives you a giant tiny hug but from a safe germ free distance ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
OMG! I love your ideas! Yes we will definitely add all of that in our cabin! I've always wanted to have a porch swing!! Yay!!
Yeah physics is hard but I like it❤️ it helps me to feel better on low days because it occupies my mind.
I am doing OK rn. I don't get enough sleep even tho I take sleeping meds. Otherwise I'm trying my best. That's about it.
I'm glad to be here talking to you. You're so understanding and nice❤️❤️❤️
So I've been looking for porch swings. I know I'm taking it very seriously 😁 but it really helps me when my mind is affected by all these negative thoughts. This one looks pretty nice😁 but honestly there were so many pictures it was really hard to choose😂
@schrodingerscattt I like that one ❤ we'll choose that porch swing. It's perfect 😁❤ trying your best is more than anyone could want. And I know for a fact your the best version of you there could ever be ❤ I'm sure pyhsics would keep your mind busy😂😂😂 your the brainyest person in the whole world ❤ picturing a cabin in the woods is a very nice dream, and who knows, maybe one day a reality ❤❤ 🤔🤔 my doctor gives me zopiclone sleeping meds 7.5mg. They work really well for me. What ones are you taking?
@Tinywhisper11
Awww thank you for all these kind words❤️❤️❤️ today is not a good day and even now that I write I am on the verge of tears so thank you. Really, really needed to hear this❤️❤️❤️
So I am taking Atarax. Don't know if you ever heard of it. But today it definitely helped. I still feel sleepy😭 ugh. I took the same dose tho.
I never heard of your sleeping meds. But my doctor told me to stay on Atarax for now.
I am just feelings very low, demotivated and sad. I lack support and it feels tiring to do it all on my own. I just need a big big hug right now😭😭😭
I am lacking hope for a better future. I wanna be hopeful but I'm not right now. I can't imagine how my life can change for the better. I just wanna move out of this country as fast as I can because it makes me feel even worse being here
Update. I just cried a lot and feel truly miserable. I mam so scared i won't make it because it's so hard and everything seems pointless. I am still hurting from all the damage my parents did to me and i don't think i will ever forget them. I don't know how to deal with the pain😞
@schrodingerscattt
Another update. I just self harmed. I truly feel so bad. I want this year to be a good one but it's not starting great now. It's just exactly the same. I am in a very bad place emotionally 💔
So I haven't eat anything today and cried for 5 hours. I think I should just take a break from studying at this point.
@schrodingerscattt 😞 gives you a giant giant giant hug ❤ yes I think you should take a break to. Maybe just relax for a day or two!. Buy you favour treat and eat that, cuddle up warm and do absolutely nothing ❤ I wish I could give you a real hug ❤ wipes away your tears. And the future is always a worry, but you got this. You got the brains, you know what you want, and you got great dreams, like our cottage😁 I have no doubt that your life will turn out amazing ❤ so try not to worry about it too much ok?. I've never heard of your sleeping tablets no. But it they worked last night, that's a hopeful thing ❤ and unfortunately I don't think we can forget about our traumas. But we can learn to live alongside them. There will be sad times, but you have the power know to make your life a happy one. And you will, I believe in you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 and self harming. Are you ok? Is it bad?
Don't feel to bad about doing it, sh is a coping method, sometimes our coping strategies can't be helped, it's not y your fault you did that ok?
gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I mean I feel bad about it because it makes me feel worse afterwards and it sucks. I don't wanna use this coping mechanism anymore. It's not good for me. I need something more peaceful and me friendly. I have to show compassion for myself❤️ even tho it's hard.
I really wanna hug someone in real life rn. But I already have an amazing internet bestiee❤️❤️
How are you doing today?
Did you draw today or done some other activities?
I also forgot to ask how your rabbit is doing?
If I remember right(my memory sucks rn) he was supposed to be neutered. Did it go ok?
@Tinywhisper11
Thank you. It really means a lot to me. Thank you for all your support. I'm very tired right now and just need to relax. I will maybe write something more elaborate in the evening if i will have the energy.
@schrodingerscattt yeah sh is not the best coping mechanism, bless you ❤ I'm ok, I've lost my voice again😞 and I feel really ill with this chest infection. Gizmo (bunny) after his operation his gut stopped working, and he never recovered😞
did you take a little break from studying? I hope your feeling a bit better today ❤gives you a giant tiny hug ❤
@Tinywhisper11
OMG I'm so sorry for your bunny. It must be so tough. I can't imagine how losing a pet feels like.
I hope you're gonna get your voice back soon and you will heal soon❤️ you're so strong to battle all of this.
Yeah I took a bit of a break and feel a bit better.
I'm genuinely so worried about you. I really, really want you to feel ok and be healed❤
You're my bestie and I wanna do everything I can to help you❤️❤️❤️❤️
@schrodingerscattt awww thanks ❤ but dont worry about me, my disabilities and all the operations screwd up my immune system so I'm sick most of the time. You get used to it ❤ I'm glad you took a little break. How is studying going? Are you still worrying about your future?? I know you are, and it's ok, you have every right to worry. Hows things going at home? Sends you big hugs ❤ I love you
@Tinywhisper11
Hi. I'm not feeling good rn. I'm feeling very sick and I have a lot of flashbacks again. I feel like giving up altogether. I'm so sick of everything. I don't wanna be here on Earth anymore. I am done.
@schrodingerscattt
I seriously wanna give up on myself. Nobody loves me anyways. What's the point anyways. I am sick and done of all this pain. I'm so sorry of disappointing you but I'm gonna give up.
@schrodingerscattt 😞 you will never disappoint me. Are you ok??? Please be ok😞 giving up sometimes feels like the only thing left to do. But when you stop and think about it, you survived for a reason, you are here for a reason, you have held on this long without giving up for a reason. So I strongly believe that something great is waiting just around the corner, all this pain all this suffering will one day be a thing of the past, and your life will be happy and full of beauty and magic ❤ so hold on just a little bit longer ok? Hugs you tightly ❤❤