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@Tinywhisper11
Heyy! Hope you're doing great. I would love to chat with you more and it's so hard to do here. I am lost between all your different replies in my posts so let's just talk here, if you want ofc
Hi. It has been an awful day today. I self harmed a lot and cried so bad I was shaking uncontrollably. We had once again a big fight with my parents. My mother bit me and slammed me into the wall, calling me names. I think I should call the police at this point because it is starting to be scary. I am scared for myself living in this household. Nobody cares about me. I'm sorry if this message doesn't make sense but I'm writing it right after it happened and my mind is a mess. I am hurting so bad. I feel like I'm going to pass out. I am so mad at myself for not doing anything about the abuse earlier. I am so done with it.
@schrodingerscattt call the police please
@schrodingerscattt I hope your ok😕 I'm worried about you. I'm gonna have to go lie down for a while. But I'm here for you ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hey. Don't worry about me. It's ok. I am going to be with my uncle for now. I really need all the rest I can get right now. I am so exhausted, but trying to hold on💪
I hope you're doing great! I don't wanna worry you. I shouldn't have told you this. I feel guilty for making you worried.
@schrodingerscattt oh that's a good idea, going to stay with your uncle ❤❤I'd rather you tell me, than keep it all to yourself. I always worry about my bestie ❤❤ I like that you can open up, and talk to me about all this ❤❤ I love and care about you ❤ how are things going at your uncles? Are you feeling ok? Did you get sleep?
@Tinywhisper11
I obviously feel very depressed after all this. Forcing myself to eat and sleep. But I'm trying. I'm at least not with them. I stopped studying for now and feel so bad about it, but I shouldn't worry about it that much. I am reading my new book now and it brings a bit of comfort. Especially as I can relate to one of the main characters. I feel very heartbroken and wanna cry, but I don't wanna give up! I am strong and I can do this! I just need time and a lot of rest. How are you doing? Does your chest still hurts?
@schrodingerscattt what book are you reading?? It's ok to not study right now, take it easy and rest for a while ❤ I'm just glad your away from those people for a bit ❤ I'm ok ❤ I had to have emergency oxygen tank mask thing yesterday, but I'm not doing to bad today ❤❤ I'm here if you need me ok? ❤❤ I love you ❤ try eat something ok! Or go and get a Starbucks coffee and snack😁
@Tinywhisper11
Hey! I am reading the book Little Women by Louisa May Alcott. It's pretty interesting. I am on chapter 2 already!!
I'm so sorry you had this! It must have been so tough! I hope you're doing better now❤️
@schrodingerscattt couldn't get a doctor to come out to see me today but one is coming out tommorow, just don't know which doctor or what time. I've run out of all my inhalers, and my carers don't like the sound of my chest. But I'll get better soon ❤❤ how's today been for you?
@Tinywhisper11
That's great that a doctor is coming tomorrow! Your health is the most important thing! Don't forget to drink warm drinks it helps. But ofc do what feels best for you.
Today has been ok. My head hurts a bit,but I took a med so it should be fine. I'm gonna go to the library to have a change of place and just being around people😂
I'm just feeling a bit down so I struggle to write anything. It's like the words are not coming out😭
In all honesty, I just wanna lay down and sleep all day, bit I know that going outside will make me feel better ❤️ the weather is really good and it's sunny outside so i hope it will improve my mood. I also decided to watch the news less as it can be a bit depressing. But some of them are really interesting tho. Like the last news I read was about the first implant in a human brain. It's scaryy. But interesting! And it can help people so that's great. Anyways I should be spending less time reading the news because it's still anxiety inducing😂. I'm gonna read my book, it's much better.
And by the way, did you get your plant?
I also want a plant but they are really expensive here, so I think I'll pass. I don't wanna ask for money to my uncle. So I should save up some money and then buy it myself.
Hope you have a great dayyy!! Sending you lots of love bestieee ❤️❤️❤️
@schrodingerscattt yes a little walk and being around people will hopefully make you feel better ❤❤ is the headache part of your cold/flu do you think?? Yep I got my plant 😁❤ yaaay! He's so cool 😎
@Tinywhisper11
No, definitely not. It's because of my anxiety and lack of sleep. But with the meds I'll be fine. So cool that you got your plant!! Did you find a name to it? Is it big or small? I've always wanted a really big plant! But small one are really cute too!
I bought a red lipstick recently and was bold enough to wear it😁 ha ha! So proud of myself!❤️ And the color is so pretty! It compliments my dark hair really well❤️. Today I mastered the courage to work a bit and it's going ok. I've also did a bit of yoga and my body is so thankful for it. I guess that's it for today.
How are you doing? How's your chest??
@schrodingerscattt oh stress and anxiety headaches are the worst kind😞 I use theese cooling gel head patches, you can buy them on Amazon and probably lots of places, I find them really helpful ❤❤ I'm glad you did a bit of studying and yoga, it'll help take your mind of bad things ❤ I'm ok ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Oh! I never thought about it! Thanks for the idea!
I am right now in the process of treating myself to all the things i want and can afford obviously. I bought some new clothes on the spare money i have and my new lipstick. I am trying to say nice things to myself because i deserve it. But i am still struggling and wanna cry deep inside. My mind is a mess. There are so many emotions and thoughts entangled and i am scared. I am tired of this constant fear of my own mind. And on top of all the wish of wanting to be better and do more is not leaving me alone. It's like my wings are tied up and i can't fly. It's such a bad feeling and it leaves me bitter and irritated which then leads to anxiety and headaches! I can't stop thinking that i'm just a big dreamer who won't achieve anything. My head is not in a really good place right now. I just feel being in this fight or flight mode waiting for something bad to happen. I just want someone to step in and help meee. My uncle is so busy with work right now and he did already a very good thing for me so i don't want to ask him for additional emotional support. I just want someone to hug me and tell me its' going to be ok😭
I'm probably gonna go and lay down. Naps help. I also thought about buying myself a massage thingy to help with my body pain.
Hello bestie! I really hope you're doing OK. I'm worried about you. You're such an amazing person and your messages are the highlight of my day! I love you so much and hope you're ok❤️❤️❤️
Sending you lots of love, hugs and the biggest vanilla ice cream everrrr. 🍦🍦🍦🍦Here that's for you. But make it ten times bigger 😂
I'm gonna vent because I feel so bad.
I feel so sad today. Like everything is pointless. I'm so sadddddd. I cried so much today. I am so so sad. I'm also extremely worried about you. I just wanna sleep the whole day. I don't have the energy to fight today😭
@schrodingerscattt hey bestie ❤❤ I'm sorry I haven't been able to use the computer for a week or so, that cold/virus thing I had got really bad and my eyes became sensitive to bright lights. But I'm back now😁❤ massarge thingy sounds a great idea. How is your cold?? I'm sorry I wasn't here for you when you've been having bad days. I know it's frustrating not to be able to do all the things you dream of, and want to, but one thing at a time. ❤❤ first concentrate on college and mental health ok? Although you don't have to focus on college to much, cause your the brainiest person I know🙂❤ how are you feeling today? I'm glad you bought yourself some nice things, you deserve all nice things and one day you will get everything you dream off ❤ gives you the biggest giantist hug in the world.❤ Have you had any contact with those horrible people?? Oops! I meant your parents😁 are you ok staying with your uncle ❤❤and don't worry everything will be ok ❤❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hi. It's so great to have you back. I really missed you. My mental health got really bad. It's at an all time low. I barely have the energy to keep going. It feels like both my mind and body are giving up. But i HAVE to keep going. So yeah, not a good time for me. My messages will probably delayed due to this. I would love to talk to you more but when i feel better. I really need all the help in the world to feel better😭I'm barely holding on.
@schrodingerscattt
Hi. I don't want to scare you, but i'm not doing ok. Everything is pointless. I am hanging on by a thread! I just wanted to say that if i don't respond anymore it's because i'm not on this Earth anymore. I'm sorry but i can't live anymore. It's my time to go. I can't.
@schrodingerscattt awww sweetie I know how much your hurting how bad your struggling😞 I understand how when thing seen so hopeless, giving up seems like the only option left. but sweetie, the world would be a horrible place without warriors, without beautiful souls, without love and hope. To me you are all of those. You are the reason this world is so special.❤ And I really hope you were strong enough to hold on, in the darkest days hold on to the light in your heart, even if at the time the light is small. I love you so much ❤hugs you tightly ❤❤ and through it all I'll be right here for you ❤
@schrodingerscattt I would love to have a friend
@wonderousWings724
I understand but it's a space for me and my best friend to talk. If you need support, post on other forums so you will get the support you need.
@schrodingerscattt rude
@schrodingerscattt I'm thinking about you ❤ praying for your safety and happiness ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤
Hi. I'm not doing well at all. Really triggered, depressed and exhausted. My mental health really got so bad this past few weeks. I don't have much energy to talk right now. I hope you're doing OK. What have you been up to today?
@schrodingerscattt gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly ❤❤ me I've been doing absolutely nothing, just resting, still not over this flu thing properly. I just get so tired, I don't have much energy at all. But we'll both be ok ❤❤I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I'm so sorry! I feel ya. I'm so tired too. But I have to keep going otherwise I will have no future. My uncle has been supportive but not to an extent I would like. I just feel so so alone and I have to keep up with my studies. And my exams are in about 4 months! But I'm doing my best, truly. I just wish things were different and not that hard.
@schrodingerscattt it won't always be this hard, brighter days are coming your way ❤❤ and your exams try not to worry to much about it. Although I know saying that doesn't help at all😂😂 happy Valentine's day ❤I love you ❤❤ how's your day going?
@Tinywhisper11
I completely forgot it was valentine's day today😂
Happy valentine's day bestieee!!! I love youuuuu!!!💖
My day is ok i guess. I haven't done much this morning. Just a bit tired and upset.
And you how are you doing? What did you do today?
@schrodingerscattt I made a giant cage😁😁😁😁😁 I'm gonna get guinea pigs. My carers friend had a litter of three boys and two girls😁😁😁😁😁😁😁 they are almost ready to leave they're mother ❤❤ I'm so excited 😁😁❤
@Tinywhisper11
That's so great! I'm happy for you! Have you thought about any names yet?
How are you doing today? If you want a vent go ahead I will listen! It's just me who's venting on here and I really want to support you.
@schrodingerscattt hi ❤❤ I actually try not to vent unless I really need to. My past isn't something people like to hear about. We are here to support each other ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Maybe it's going to be better if you spill it out? But as always do what's best for you. I met many people with very hard pasts so i think i'm ready to here anything now.
Thank you so much for being here for me. Lately i've been struggling so that's why my replies were delayed. I'm just very tired and sad. But i'm trying my best.
I just don't have the energy to talk a lot, especially now, in the evening.
@schrodingerscattt it's ok just try to test when ever you can ❤ and I'll always be here for you ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤I love you
Aww thank you! I love you too my bestie!! ❤️❤️❤️