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@Tinywhisper11
Heyy! Hope you're doing great. I would love to chat with you more and it's so hard to do here. I am lost between all your different replies in my posts so let's just talk here, if you want ofc
Today I saw a picture that reminded me of you. I remember you were saying that you wanted to see a waterfall in a forest and it's the first pic I saw opening pinterest! It's so pretty! I like to imagine that we are there together just walking around and admiring the beauty of it. I would like to be dressed as a fairy😁 it would be so fun! 
@schrodingerscattt that's the waterfall I dream of seeing 😍 yes we could be fairys, and maybe behind the waterfall is lots of treasure waiting for us ❤❤ thanks for sharing this with me ❤❤ how is your day today?
@Tinywhisper11
Yeah!! Treasure! But what will the treasure be though?🤔
My day is not great, but i don't want to talk about that.
How are you doing?
@schrodingerscattt it's almost midnight I just woke up from another bad dream😥 I hate nightmares, so I came on cups to try cheer up a bit ❤
@Tinywhisper11 oh and behind the waterfall is a magic world, with only good things, a place full of beauty where we can be ourselves safely ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
That's fantastic! I would really need to go there right now. And would there be unicorns?
@Tinywhisper11
I hate nightmares too. Especially the ones that feel real and leave you feeling scared long after you wake up. I'm so sorry you had one. It's ok. You're safe on here❤️ Try to remember that it is just a bad dream that your brain created and not your current reality. When I have a nightmare I usually hug my teddy bear and it helps. Or I also listen to an audio book. Maybe you can try this and see if it helps.
@schrodingerscattt Thank you ❤ I hope my teddy bear and hide under a blanket and cry, like a 5 year old😎 of course there will be unicorns, my unicorn mayo will be there. Mayo neighs 😁 have you had your Starbucks tea today?
Yeah. I'm at starbucks right now. I feel very down. My mental health is going worse again and i feel like it's all my fault. I'm tired of being strong. I want someone to help me. I feel like nothing will get better. It feels like i lost all my chances yk, and that i'm destined to misery. I just wanna cry. It's so unfair that some people have parents they can count on and i don't. I just wanna run away from my problems and cry. I feel like giving up but i don't want to give up. Life is so beautiful and that would be a shame to give up on it, but i just feel devastated and heartbroken. I also feel very homesick. It's been ages since i have been to Russia, and today i contacted a relative and now i just wanna cry. I miss speaking in Russia and being there. I wanna go back homeeee!! I feel like a fish out o the water here. I'm just feeling very lost and confused right now. I need a big hug. But don't worry, you bestie ain't giving up. I'm here to stay and make the most out of it!
How are you doing right now? Did you get your guinea pigs? I'm so excited for you!!!
@schrodingerscattt yep I got the three boy gineau pigs. I'll take photos soon to show you, they are adorable ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤when I feel like like you I get this urge to just run away and go curl up in a cave and just peacefully stay there. Why not go home, after you've done your exams, perhaps saved up a bit of money and go back to Russia, stay with some family. Till you get back on your feet over there. So much as happened in your life, it's ok to feel lost and scared. Do you have a plan, a goal to work to after your exams??
@Tinywhisper11
Hi. I feel SO bad. I wanna d@e. I hate my life SO much. Everything goes wrong and i don't have the energy to endure this *** anymore. I just wanna cry. I WISH someone was there for me. I feel like i am a failure. When i was a kid, i thought i'm gonna be a cool grown up that has her life together but everything is falling apart!! Everything! And i thought i made new friends on a new app, but they ended up being psychos. The story is long but turns out they are really bad people and were just using me. I just wanna close my eyes and when i reopen them everything will be fine. I don't really wanna d@e, i just want my life to get better and feel f loved! I wanna be loved. I am so tired of not having great parents. I don't know how you do it. I don't know how you find the force to smile and keep going. My spirit and soul feel crushed. I wanna give up!!!!!! I am tired of being strong. I am tired of fighting every damn day. I hate it, hate it, hate it. Why someone has a good life and i don't? It's terribly unfair. I just need to ground myself because my mind is all over the place. When i vent more i definitely feel better, but i didn't want to bother you, so i was bottling up everything. So yeah, i just want to give up. I want someone to care about me and love me. I don't understand how my parents could treat me this way. I am starting to doubt if i deserve love. I always thought that love was conditional, and thought i would not be likeable if i don't have great achievements. I was NEVER enough for my parents! I feel very salty about it. I also feel like an ungrateful brat. You went through so much, and still are smiling spreading love, and me, whining and complaining like a stupid b. I am not resilient and i am pessimistic. Ugh. If i survive and pass my exams, it will be the achievement of the century.
I'm also really exhausted because i had my pe lesson this morning and my teacher was impressed!! I'm really proud of this!!
And yeah, i do have a goal but i haven't thought it through yet. It's all messed up in my head. But my global goal is to move out to another country! That counts as a goal right? Even if i don't know how to get started on it it's definitely gonna happen.
I would love to see pictures of your guinea pigs!!!! They must be so cute!!!! I'm genuinely so happy for you.
I love you and you are my best friend for ever and ever. You're really my inspiration to keep going. I promise i won't give up. We have to live in our cottage together and visit this beautiful waterfall. And many, many more great things!
Hey. I'm gonna vent here because I feel so bad.
I feel like my parents destroyed my potential. When I was a kid I had such big dreams! I wanted to go to a specific country and have my dream career there. I wanted to be successful and happy. They didn't support me at all. They didn't care. Now I'm feeling miserable and broken. I don't have the energy to do anything and the hopeful kid in me is gone since a long time now. I just feel crushed. I feel like I don't matter to anybody. I feel a waste of space. I just want to be loved and taken care of. I want to achieve my dreams but how it's going to be possible if my parents are in my way. What makes me mad is that nobody understands it beside my uncle. Everybody thinks they are perfect parents. Nobody knows what was going on behind close doors. My dad was never loving, affectionate, empathetic and supportive as everyone he talks to thinks he is. It's a mess.
I wish he was never my dad. My mother it's a whole new story of abuse. I don't even wanna talk about it. I feel like my chances of getting a good life are gone and that I am doomed to misery. I feel like a failure. I was supposed to be successful and happy and look at me now.
I wrote a whole paragraph, but it got deleted, so I'm just gonna say the main ideas. So, I'm not getting what I want for 7Cups anymore, and I'm just so sad that I'm here. I don't feel like I'm growing. It's not giving me anything positive lately, and I don't want to go away permanently, because it's just going to be way too sad, but I think I'm going to be way less active and visit the app just like once a week or even less. So, I just wanted to say this to you, because I really, I have to prioritize my well-being and my health, and both are declining right now. So, I have to take some time off from 7Cups.
@schrodingerscattt you can vent here as much as you like, that's why we created this safe place ❤ remember you are still young, you have your whole life ahead of you. Theese hard times are just one chapter of your life, happiness, love, pride are all things that are waiting for you in the next chapter. So keep pushing through and know that the next chapter is gonna be everything you wanted and so much more ❤ I understand about visiting this site less ❤ your health is priority, and some people benefit from this site, and some people dont. It's completely ok to take a break, see if it helps your wellbeing ❤❤ and as your friend I will be here when you need me ❤❤ I love you ❤❤
Hello. I missed talking to you so baddd! I tried to take a break but honestly it didn't help much. I still feel bad and am far behind in my studies. The situation with my parents is still the same and it sucks. I still wanna give up, but there's something in me that tells me to not do that and that there's hope for thr future.
It's incredible how much I actually missed you!!! Like I've never had a friend I missed so much if I didn't talk for a long time. You're the best bestie❤️
I also saw your beautiful palm tree. Omg it's so cool. I'm very happy for you!
How today has been? What have you been up to?
@schrodingerscattt awww I love you too bestie ❤ yep! Don't give up, never give up. Storms will come, but they will pass and the sun will shine on you once again. Your like Cinderella, a really crap start, with bad parents. Then one day something magical will come into your world, and you'll live happily ever after ❤ fairytales are real, so keep holding on ❤
me I've been having fun with my guinea pigs😁 their names are pig, sparrow and runt😁
@Tinywhisper11 they are so funny ❤❤I love you ❤ gives you a gigantic huggggg ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Awww they are so cute!!! I wanna hug them!! I'm so happy for you❤️❤️❤️ and thank you for this beautiful and encouraging message.
I still need time, as I'm still struggling, so I won't reply right away.
Have you painted anything lately?
I have started a new hobby! Technically two! I'm trying to be more social you know.
I also tried Journaling as everyone praises it, but I hated it. Not for me😂
I also try to listen to music when falling asleep. I believe I got the idea from you, but I got so many advice from so many people so maybe i am confusing it with someone else. But it's definitely helping!
But do you also have this feeling when you wake up and feel so damn exhausted even if you slept a long time? And struggle to get out of bed? Lately I've been struggling badly to get out of bed and it sucks. I feel comfortable there. The world can be a scary place sometimes.
I'm genuinely so tired right now. I really wanna sleep. I also wanna vent. Can I vent to you a little? You're such an amazing listener. You're always compassionate and so, so kind! Honestly, I don't know how you're doing it😂 are you a magical creature or something? 😁😁
Maybe you are a magical, kind fairy🤔
But then, who am I? I always wanted to be a mermaid when I was a kid. So that's it, I'm a magical mermaid!🐚🌊
I'm so hungry right now, I'm gonna go and eat.
Have an amazing day bestie!
Byeeee!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Hey. So I'm gonna vent right now, because I have a lot of things on my mind.
I'm trying to come to terms with the way my parents are and it hurts you know.
I've been on another site lately and got so many different types of advice, that I am confused now. I don't know if I should be grateful for the things they did to me because I never asked to be born. So they should have thought first about the consequences of their action, because having a kid is not like going grocery shopping, it's a BIG responsibility for your entire life and it demands a lot of selflessness.
They weren't ready to be parents at all. They didn't mature as people and didn't develop as individuals. They don't even have much friends!!!!
No wonder I still struggle immensely with my social skills because I never saw what healthy social skills were! It was never modeled to me!
So no wonder now I'm friendless and lonely af.
It makes me mad. But I can't change the past right?
I wanted to ask you, how do you Dela with this feeling of loneliness? This feeling that nobody understands what's going on inside of you. It hurts a lot because I want to be understood and accepted by my parents. I had in my head an ideal figure of them. I thought they were different. I thought they were "perfect people".
It's so damn far from the truth.
Their parenting was so horrible. They didn't prepare me for adult life at all.
I have to navigate cooking, finances, interpersonal relationships and amny other things on my own. It's tough when you feel alone in life. No guidance, no help, no example. Only you. Trying to survive and do your best on your own.
Lately i realized, I have to grieve a lot my past and the things that happened. It's weighing me down and preventing me from moving forward.
I'm really upset I didn't got the father and mother I wanted. I'm really upset my childhood wasn't ideal. I'm really upset I have to give up the hope that my past could have been different, because the past is gone and the future is not here. So I have only the present.
I'm desperately trying to do my best. I'm trying to achieve the things I want. But I still feel that the pain is here. And it's driving me to do and to say things I would never usually do.
I want to get rid of it and be a functional and healthy human being.
I want to be free from the pain.
I want to heal my inner child who went through way too much. I want to comfort her, and be here for her.
She didn't have people she could rely on so now she has me.
I'm genuinely heartbroken while writing this, so I need the biggest hug. 😭
Acceptance is so tough.
Very, very, very tough.
If you have any tips on how to just accept it, please share. I'm really struggling right now, so any help would be welcomed.
I have so many things to do today despite not feeling well(stomachache and headache) so I gotta go.
Thank you so much for being here and being the amazing person that you are❤️
I hope life will get better for me and I will finally see the better side❤️❤️❤️❤️
Have a great afternoon friend!
Hey. I'm feeling EXTREMELY bad lately, so i'm gonna try to go on a longer break.
@schrodingerscattt yes we are magical you and me ❤❤ and most other people are too ❤ I hope in your travels through life that from now on you only come across magic people. How I deal with loneliness and acceptance. Well lonliness I don't feel so much, I'm just thankful to be free and alone ❤ but acceptence is something I struggle with alot. Here on cups and mostly here at the carehome I feel accepted and able to be me. So yeah I get how hard that can be. This different sort of advice from the other site it got you questioning about weather it's your parents fault??? And I do listen to music before bed, I have told you but probably others have too, whoever you got the suggestion from I'm glad it helps ❤ I find if I have a really long sleep, then I get more tired. About 6-8 hours is perfect for me, then I sit straight up ready to start the day😁 I love getting straight up in the mornings, I'm not one to just lie in bed, or have to push the snooze button on my alarm clock every 5 minutes😂😂😂 perhaps your getting to much sleep lately. Which is better than not getting any. You now depression can make you sleep more. Well whatever the cause is, I'm glad you're getting good sleep ❤ it's ok to break when ever you need to and as long as you want to. I won't be going anywh ere. I'll be right here waiting for you ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ I love you bestie ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Hey. I hope you're doing fine❤️
Thank you so much for your beautiful answer.
You've been an amazing friend to me. Thank you so much for having been in my life. You're really an amazing person. You're the kindest person I ever met in my entire life!
Lately, I haven't been feeling well and really wanted to leave cups. I felt very sad to leave you and not talk to you, but it just doesn't feel like it used to. I used to love talking to you, but now I don't really feel anything. It's too heartbreaking for me to end our friendship but I need time. A lot of time. And maybe after taking more care of myself our friendship will feel again as it used to.
But in case I will never come back, thank you for everything. You are an amazing human being and I wish you all the best in life❤️ good luck on your life journey and I hope you life will become better and better every single day, and that your health will get better and you'll be able to live life to the fullest.
This decision has to do nothing with you. I don't want you to feel bad about it. It's really about me.
I wish you all the best❤️❤️❤️
Goodbye
@schrodingerscattt I love you ❤❤ bye ❤
Hey. I am back. How are you doing? I am sorry for all of this. I am just in a very bad place right now. I felt like i was using you because i was constantly complaining and wasn't bringing anything to the friendship. I would for us to keep friends but i promise i won't tell you anything about my life. You don't need all my stupid drama anyways. I will do my best to be a better friend.
