Stars and Sun shining
Missed you.. ʚ🧸ɞ˚
Idk ......
I mentioned sunshine to Anna, she's nice, she hadn't replied yet. But yeah, she's a community leader and she may give ur account back
I had another .....with nahoa...
I missed you, you had disappeared for 4months now
It's kinda weird right now, i mean why should i get up out of bed when nanny will take care of things and why get up when I'll just lose it again?
i never had a relationship where I can talk about things i think, i never had someone I can share my opinions and it isn't a I give support to them or they give support to me kind of relationship.
It's either because they are too young or they don't know how
You are my first...
It hurts when you disappear, idk why, I don't know....I'm not allowed to say goodbye to anyone when I'm not sober, so...maybe we can pause this? For a while?
I'm saving money for an proper assessment and I'm going to tell the doc to tell my parents i needs treatment, they still have an obligation for me, so ....yeah...that will take a couple of months...
Maybe after that? After you get your account back and after i get over this assessment thing, sunny buddy
Please don't contact me if you get your account back, untill I'm ready.
You never gone out of my mind, and even when I said this I know you will never be out of my mind....
I just can't handle attachment issues and I can't do this anymore.....
Its none of your fault
It's not your fault.
None of this is your fault
Don't you dare feel like it's your fault
Naughty people stole my first place on Duolingo😤 (ja,I havs no idea why I share this, but whatever)
I think I hear the kitchen sink has a hamster in it, it's probably water dropping but i'm really convinced a it's a hamster tapping and wanna get out
Speaking of hamster, should I buy a clothes for it? Like this one below?
I don't wanna be ill like this I'm so tired I'm soo hopeless....
But maybe it's a good thing, it's pushing me to adopt to a living style and my body is demanding less self hatred and self blame....
Idk
Now go and get the things I bought for hamster feels like such a chore I have to morally kidnap myself lol...
Who ever said that if you keep buying things online it will give you expectations and thus make u not depressed is.....speaking hamster poop
You don't get to tell me keep my mouth clean of swear words 😄
*sighs* I don't even mind if you yell and tell me stop using swear words..
Have you ever thought about moving on? Like, just leave cups and stop doing this? I think it make you hurt more....idk...
It's your life though, it's just a thought, you don't have to follow what i think
