Stars and Sun shining

i have a part time job, i called the police on my mom, i went for a ride in a special police car. I am now discharged from the hospital (they hold me for 11 days because can't figure out what's wrong with me mentally) i am diagnosed for serious depression(or something like that) i am on medication. Community assigned me with a lawyer and right now i have no idea where this is going. I know i should be grateful but ....i'm still having dark thoughts and depressed.