Twisted Peaches
Hello @mytwistedsoul
i hope you don’t mind me reaching out… and if you do… it’s ok.
You just seem so uplifting and fun. Someone I’d vibe with.
Thought we could chat.
Did you write your name in ketchup on that piece of bread?
@peachThinker662 I don't mind at all! Twisted peaches sound like an awesome desert! 😃
I try to up lift others. Usually not too good at doing it for myself though but I'm working on it
I did lol!
I’m working on the same thing.
Always there for everyone else, but don’t know how to do for myself. I get it,
Twisted Peaches -it could be a dessert lol
Such talent with the condiments!!!
Or maybe our band?! 😂
@peachThinker662 You should see what I can do with peanut butter and jelly! 😂
Oh I like that for a band name! 😀
Hahaha!!! Amazing
So yes, in response to the post, I’m obsessing that it could be a medication side effect. I meet with the doctor in about an hour or so.
It’s hard adjusting.
@peachThinker662 I hope the doctor helps or at least set your mind at ease. Have you looked it up online? Sometimes that can help give you an idea of side effects
Yes I did. It fits, boooooooo
@peachThinker662 Oh boooo is right! 😕 Keep me posted on what happens after the appointment? No pressure or anything though
Thank you for caring ❤️❤️❤️
I will,
@peachThinker662 Aww hey no need to thank me for caring 💜 You're a nice person and deserve care and concern
Hoping that went well. She sent in the prior auth for my medication. I’m hoping that helps.
I’m thinking of an intermittent leave of absence from work. Because some days are good. And maybe I’ll feel better in a week.
What can I do with myself now? lol
@peachThinker662 I hope it helps too. That's a good idea with intermittent leave! It gives you time to get back into the groove of work again. Like being on light duty.
So my friend, that is Biggest struggle. Who am I? What things do I enjoy? What the heck is self care?
You mean taking care of other people all the time isn’t included 🤔 😂
@peachThinker662 Surprisingly enough it doesn't count. The fact that you do take care of others means you definitely need it. It can even be simple things like a longer than normal shower or a bubble bath. A special treat that you might normally tell yourself no?
@mytwistedsoul
i do like crafts. Painting. But once a project is completed ok—now what?
Books I like when I get hooked on something I finish it in a day or two.
It sounds like I don’t know how to take my time 🤣🤣 attention span of a toddler
@peachThinker662 You paint? That's so cool! Maybe a different style of painting? Or different paints? What do you usually paint?
@mytwistedsoul
I Do paint 😊 Sometimes it’s watercolors, acrylics, stuff around the house. I also like to sketch. I’m a creative person. Often silly and just enjoy laughing and having fun.
I did some “dot” paintings on rocks the other day. Maybe I could go get a GIANT canvas and go wild.
For books, I read memoirs and love stories, often read some screwed up stuff lol I read Alot of true stories about addiction and recovery. A few of Augesten Burroughs books, I do find myself enjoying some self help books and self growth. I’ve never read Harry Potter.
What are some self care things you do?
@peachThinker662 That's so wonderful! It's good to be silly and they say laughter is the best medicine. And I think having fun is something everyone should do!
You make me laugh, and I feel like I haven’t had a lot these days. My co workers always make me laugh but I have anxiety going in? Maybe it’s because it’s been a while? Maybe because my brain and body actually have to function after limited function for 6 months? I’m going to have to look into that.
I definitely think a canvas is in order for today. Take it outside and just flow. I had been wanting to try the dot painting they always look so cool. Finally went and found a beach that had great rocks for it. They had a beautiful garden too, out of a movie!! Can’t wait to visit there again. I’ll have to bring a bucket haha
Building things is great. I can’t be trusted with power told though haha klutz what kind of things do you make? I’m envious of those that can cook! I think it’s a special talent ❤️
I love music. It’s great for singing…even the wrong lyrics 😂 “What did you just say?” “Oh that’s not the words” I had vanilla ice blasting one day in the car, not thinking anything of it, pulled up to a convenient store. The guy next to me was dancing and I was a little embarrassed. But I guess he was having fun too 🤷♀️ 🤣
Music helps me when I’m sad, angry, happy , needs to lighten me up a bit or get me pumped up. I don’t know that I have a FAVORITE song. There’s tooooo many.
@peachThinker662 Tbh I don't laugh much either. It's nice though when something or someone makes me genuinely laugh. Makes me wish I laughed more often
@mytwistedsoul
Belly laughs are the best. When I went back to work someone had wrote in a card that they missed my laugh while I was away. Someone appreciates my laugh. It’s loud! And sometimes I snort 😂😂 Made me look at it a bit differently in the moment, things I may put myself down for, others like about me. You have a sense of humor. I think that’s a wonderful quality. All my friends need to have that 😊
there’s a fear of a new injury, not being enough. I’m a bit of a perfectionist. And yes, I now associate pain as “bad”. All these years I worked with a sore neck, back and shoulders I thought nothing of it. I was still managing with ibuprofen, Tylenol cocktails and my heating pad. And yes, In a way It’s like starting a new job. Using my mind for the work related lingo. I think I forgot that my career is one of the “hats” I wear. Ooooh yes, I do that for a living!!!
I’ll tell you about the beach. There was an old mansion- gardens galore. Butterfly bushes, wisteria trees, lilacs, box bushes that were cut so they looked twirly. Incredible. Like out of a movie. They were actually setting up for a wedding. And it overlooked the ocean. Just incredible.
Are you the one that carved the dragonfly and the bird??? That’s quite a talent to make furniture!!!! How awesome and the creativity and precision that goes into that!!!
Not boiled hot dogs 🤣🤣🤣 you must have been having a hot dog day with Your profile pic 😂❤️
We will have to start sharing some songs 😁😁
This a classic & yes I saw him in concert 😜
@peachThinker662 Aww that's so nice though! When people notice little things about us that we might not think to much of. Those kinds of laughs are contagious! And they can be so hard to get under control which makes it even funnier
The anxiety has been better. Thanks for checking in. I did take the time out to paint a canvas. Well, 2. I wasn’t pleased with the first one.
Someday… I envision being a bride in a beautiful place like that. Surrounded with wild flowers….
It’s ok. 🙂 There’s so many people on this platform, I’m finally adjusting to who’s who. That sawmill food sounds pretty exciting. Wow!!! Have you been able to utilize it yet?
Hahaha that’s a hilarious proclamation. I love the ideas and humor I’ve seen.
I’ve been to a handful of concerts. Have you ever been to any?
Ooooh techno.
@peachThinker662 I'm glad to hear the anxiety has been better. Anxiety is horrible to deal with
@mytwistedsoul
I’ve had anxiety since I was little. It peaked in my early 20s. Classic. I go to therapy and work my 🍑 off (see what I did there haha) When it’s brutal it just takes me back to where I don’t want to be. And then it’s like a domino effect.
I’m excited for you that you’ve been able to use the sawmill!! Yay!!
Sounds like a silly day for sure, but sounds like a lot of laughter!!! I’ll have to try out my signature someday. It’s so weird to go by “peach “ at times. Oh ya, they’re talking to Me 😂😂😂
Do you share with anyone outside of cups that you are on here? I’ve only told my therapist some stuff. Idk I think I just want it my own “peach space.”
Do you mind if I ask how old you are? I’m guessing because of the music we must be somewhere around the same age. If you aren’t comfortable I completely understand.
I got through my work day today. Helllll yea!!! I’m tired but I did it!!
That’s funny you sent that song. My best friend since like forever has seen them in concert too many times to count. She’s met them too!
Hmmmm now what’s a good one to send…
This played when I got my last tattoo. Perfection 👌
@peachThinker662 I hear you.. It's been the same for me too with anxiety. ( I did see what you did 😂) You're right though it is like a domino effect. I don't like being drug back to the past either but my brain takes me there anyway. I'm sorry you go through this too ❤️
Omgosh yes! I was laughing all day over our "proclamation" Hey there you go! Maybe we start a trend where everyone's pfp is their name written on bread 😂😂 Tbh I'm so used to being called Twist or Soul I get confused when people call me by my actual name
The therapist knows about this place. He checks here every now and again. (probably why I don't write here much anymore 😬) But it is nice to have a space to be able to talk about whatever without worry on being judged. Although I judge myself so ..
I'm 29. I don't feel that old. Idk... is that old? I have matured quite a bit the past couple of years (sort of) Is that close to what you thought?
Hey you had work today!? Yay you! That's awesome Peach! It's probably going to take time to build up some stamina for full days - no wonder you're tired. You didn't have any problems with pain?
I love Shinedown! Monsters is probably my favorite. They're a band I'd like to see for sure. I'm a little jealous of your friend lol! That's so cool that she got to meet them!
That is an awesome song you sent! Tattoos? That's so cool! I've been thinking of getting one but can't decide what
https://youtu.be/r6CsPJpzKo4?si=RIWxe9nhPxvO-e4i
❤️❤️❤️ trauma. Trauma. Trauma. Creepy ***. lol I deflect with humor. My apologies.
Hahaha hmmm what condiment can I use. Maybe jelly. I’ll paint the bread. So exquisite.
Isn’t it interesting…to talk to people you don’t know, don’t know what they look like, where they live, yet connect. I judge myself too. Too much. The only place I act my true self is home and on the dance floor.
🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 29 is not old by any means my dear. You are quite mature. Not what I thought. You have very good insight and judgement from my perspective. I think you need to give yourself far more credit than you do!!! ❤️
My left shoulder muscles were sore today, nothing I could handle. I have a bit of a physical job too. I’m proud.
Looove the song you sent!! I’ve never heard it before but I will listen to it again. It’s very deep. Touching (at the risk of sounding corny)
Tattoos-yes. Quite a few. I find it’s a good release. Always seem to get one when I go through something challenging. I should get one to celebrate my journey that I’ve had this last year. My last one was a memorial tattoo for my sister. It was very carefully thought out and drawn especially for her. I get lots of compliments on it, beautiful just like she was.
@peachThinker662 I deflect with humor a lot too tbh. Have you ever had a day without anxiety but then you end up getting anxious because you're not anxious? 😅
@mytwistedsoul
yessssssss…. I’ll be fine and then I say to myself “where’s my anxiety” 📞 hello? Hahaha I was actually JUST telling my therapist how annoying that is. Just let me be dude. (Referring to anxiety)
Peach jelly would be light in color. Probably have a blob of fruit mixed in lol Or I’d that preserves? Maybe add peanut butter. Well, you would know, you’re the expert with the pbj 😂
It really would be interesting. I think we bond with each other so well because that connection is valuable. The support. We all just want to be loved in one way shape or form. And to actually feel it. I never felt love from my parents and sadly It’s followed me. Always chasing it but run from it at the same time. 😂
What’s that quote “dance Like no one is watching”. I have a VERY outspoken friend… she will burp in front of people, talk to anyone and everyone, does not have a care. It’s one thing that I admired in her when we first met. A moment of maybe if I become friends with her it will build me up a bit. And we laugh because if we go out, she talks to people, I don’t, I dance and she’s on the sidelines. She wishes she could dance like I do without a care. I sing too—at home, in the car, and at concerts lol perfectly where no one needs to listen to it 😂😂😂
And no, you were not nearing 50 balding with a bear belly 😂 so silly. You knew the gummy bears song!!! I have not met anyone else that knew them. I’m a cold of the 80s—you’re so young but, it does not come across that way. ❤️
Shoulder is ok…. Working out muscles that haven’t moved in a long time 💪
My sister was amazing. Her birthday of coming up. September. She passed in August. Birthday in September so she’s on my mind a lot these months. Out of my siblings, I was closest with her.
Glad I’m helping out the playlist. Yay!!
This most recent song from you—-😳 listened to it and instantly thought of a few people. That’s a good one to get some feelings out!!!
https://youtu.be/k4V3Mo61fJM 💛
@peachThinker662 I read an article a while back that said we can become so used to being anxious our brains actually crave the feeling 😳 That's just wrong
@mytwistedsoul
Craves anxiety?? Ew!!! So wrong. Different kind of adrenaline junkies i guess haha I’d much rather go on a jet ski, thank u.
Love seems like a basic need. I mean it is. But yes, very awkward at times. I find myself having to justify why would this person love me. And even then it’s still not solidified.
My friend Is wonderful. Only one I have. She knows me like a book. Seen quite a bit and understands me.
Oooooh damn!!!! I might have to relive my childhood!!! Make my inner child happy!! I never even thought of that for cartoons. I’ve gotten in a few episodes of Punky Brewster but I might have to watch some Gummy Bears and The Wuzzles 😂😂😂 I haven’t thought of the wuzzles in forever I don’t know why it just came to me.
I am the oldest of 5. 3 sisters and a brother. My sister that passed was my bestie. Her and my brother. So that’s 3 nieces and a nephew too. Here’s what went down-she died. The kids went to live with their dads who with held any type of contact with them from us. My brother said f this, left his daughter behind and took off.
I don’t see her.
I FINALLY have reconnected with my sisters kids and oh my!!! does it make my heart so happy!!!! It’s a piece of her that I have back in my life. Their faces and their personalities. I just can’t even express how much that means to me. 💗💗
I barely have a relationship with my other 2 sisters. Drugs/alcohol/mental health issues. It’s draining and i have to set boundaries.
I appreciate all the memories, laughter and fun times we had as kids. Even those as adults. We all needed each other growing up. They’ve just been “my babies”.
Hope that wasn’t TMI.
Do you have any siblings?
Any good projects your working on?
I appreciate you.❤️
@peachThinker662 Ikr?! Seriously brain this is what we're doing now? (smh)
@mytwistedsoul
Hello there
You brighten my day . Thank you for being you. So much knowledge and empathy 💕
I made it to work today. So happy about that. I figured out the connection with work and anxiety. Prior to my surgery, I was in AGONY. Never experienced such pain in my life!! I would go to work and tolerate just about 4 hours, leave, get into my car and burst into tears. It was the kind of pain that I couldn’t think straight. And my body definitely knew something was wrong. Now, today at work I started feeling sore and instantly I panicked and thought I need to go home. That flight response. And I had to say to myself, wait a minute, this is isn’t “bad” pain anymore this is “strength” pain and muscles, bones growing. I tucked myself away drank some water and did some gentle stretches. And thought to myself I only have 1 hour left!!!
It’s rainy weather here and I’m loving it. I’m in a sweatshirt and leggings and super comfy!!!
I honestly never have thought to me being a part of my sister as well. I love that. Her kids are always like “you look like mom” and I just never took it in like how you explained. I think I might have her loudass laugh too. I’m ok with that 😂
I don’t talk to my mother. I called her mother or other not so nice names 🤣🤣🤣 My biological father I think went to go get milk and never came back. No, I’m kidding. He told her he was leaving. I wonder about him sometimes ANYWAYS. The man who raised me passed away last summer. We weren’t close after I lost my sister. Lots of anger there. We made amends though and I was able to say my goodbyes.
Aww!!! I’m sure your parents love you. ❤️I don’t know too much about your situation but I’d think to think mine doesn’t know how to show it properly-or she doesn’t 🤷♀️ I often wondered what it would have been like to be an only child!
Ooooh a giraffe!!!! How cool. Do you draw too? I feel like in order to make the carvings you must be pretty good with a sketch book! And your neighbor is lucky to have Your handy dandy talents so close by and so helpful!!!
Such an obnoxious video right here. But good dance vibes. Reminds me of my cheerleading days
@peachThinker662 Aww thank you ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Mehhhh I have therapy today. I don’t feel like it. I love my therapist and all, just some days I’m not in the mood hahaha
I ran a ton of errands today. And YES I did get Oreos 😋
I have posted some memorials online in groups that are related to her cause of death. My thought was to communicate information to my nieces when I wasn’t able to talk to them. They saw them and read them. I actually ended up finding a you tube channel that her husband made and I get to hear her voice still 💕💕💕 Every year I want to participate in a walk for her and I never get to it. Maybe this year… I do have a wind come on my porch that plays “somewhere over the rainbow” when the wind blows.
Ugh!!! I’m so sorry your mother said such hurtful things to you. I don’t understand how people can be like that to children. Children are so innocent. As far as your dad goes, I think it was a beautiful thing you reconnected and saw someone that was different. It gave you some good to hold onto. I can understand how it would be conflicting. I think we always immediately go to honoring people that have passed away and sometimes they weren’t always wonderful. I read this book “I’m Glad my Mom died” and it was an eye opener for me.
My mom was and still is unsupportive, inappropriate and selfish. I relived some physical trauma with my surgery. Crying In therapy because it was reminders of childhood. Thanks for the PTSD Ma!!
I can’t get over the wood carvings. Extremely talented you are. What age did you start doing that? Do you ever paint them?
There’s currently a forum post titled “I Wish…” and this is what comes into my head every time I see it. 😂😂
@peachThinker662 Oh do I understand that lol! I like my therapist too, mostly 😅 I hope you had a good session!
It was a good session. Thankfully LOL
I think that’s why I’ve avoided the walk honestly. Her cause of death was also not who she was. So, I don’t want her to be seen that way. If that makes any sense. I do want to help others though.
Your life went through big changes. Meeting dad. Who is he, who am I, who do I want to be, and expectations of him. Then you were left with an estate. Sounds to me like you went into survival mode in a sense. Growth is definitely uncomfortable. It brings out vulnerability and rawness. I can understand not wanting to talk about it. Because the pain is more comfortable than letting it out. And it doesn’t sound like mom validated your feelings. So why even bother. I think the reason we are in therapy is because of people that needed it to begin with. We are stronger than them emotionally even if doesn’t always feel like it. And there’s no need to apologize. I can relate though, I’ve sent some things that I’m like hmmm should I have said that?
Have you ever thought about getting another pet? I got a dog a year after I lost my sister. Every time I would sit in a corner and bawl my eyes out, she would come and sit next to me or bring me a toy. Even with surgery, she knew she could only lie next to me. She sleeps in my bed, under the covers.
I totally agree she didn’t deserve us. She would threaten to put is in a foster home. Sometimes I get so angry and wonder why she didn’t. But I know we would have got separated if that did happen. I’ve done EMDR. It’s hard!!!! Ooof. How do I fit all this in one box?! Haha I had a recent session where I was crying like a child. She gave me those paddles and we talked through it. I have to give myself reminders that she’s not hear and I’m safe. I hated not having my sister or brother to hang out with. Our inappropriate humor would have taken over and we would’ve laughed until our stomachs hurt. We were actually spoken to one time about that. 😅 A friend of my brother’s “that’s traumatizing, it’s not funny at all” oopsie
I love that you had that outlet as a teen. It’s got to feel rewarding to have wood and then a usable piece of furniture??!! That you made!! I think we are our own worst critics.
I’m trying to find something to do today. I went outside and finished up my painting. I know I have work this weekend. So maybe I should just sit and rest. 🤷♀️
@peachThinker662 Glad it was a good session! Good sessions are always...well... good lol! 😊😁 I don't like the ones that drain you and leave you a shell for a few days afterwards
@mytwistedsoul
Yes! I call those days “therapy hangovers” 😜
I started working where I do to give back to the community in honor of her actually. It helps me see it from an outside view. It took some time, I had to wait until I could emotionally handle it.
My thought was it was an honor as well. But I can see where you feel the one up. On the plus side, you are able to make it your own work of art with a twisted touch. It’s yours and the possibilities are in your control. Did you save his texts? Awe. You sound like you will cherish the breakfast meet up on your birthday. Such a special way to celebrate. So happy you had that day with him 🥰
Your dogs are waiting for you somewhere. You’ll find the perfect match. I agree, they must get along with Pita. Need a happy family 💗 I have 2 dogs. Sometimes I regret the second one- he’s cute and a doofus makes me laugh- it’s just been hard to keep up these past few months. They are both English bulldogs. She’s 6 and he’s 4. And A black, vocal, snuggly kitty. He’s by far one of the best cats I’ve had in a long time. You have a horse? 🤩 And chickens?! And pita , so sweet!!! Oh man I would love that. I’m a huge animal fan myself. My brother got a pig. He sent be a photo of her sleeping in a little dog bed ughhhh 🥹🥹🥹 so cuuuuuttteee!!!!
I’ll post a photo of my painting. I gotta take a picture lol I’m the same as you though…it’s not that great and I can tell you everything I don’t like about it but it was calming doing it.
Today I did rest. Spent some time outside. My schedule rotates with work. So I’ve been off since Wednesday. Working all weekend. Hyping my self up. I got this. I had a re-evaluation at physical therapy and my hand strength has improved tremendously, next to nothing before. It was a confidence boost. Kicking butt 💪
awesome song btw - adding to the playlist 😊
@peachThinker662 Lol therapy hangover is a perfect way to describe it! 😂 Sometimes with thoughts of "I'm never doing that again" 😅
I can definitely understand needing to wait until you could emotionally handle it. I think there should be more things in place to allow people to grieve without feeling rushed or pushed to deal with things. I had the IRS breathing down my neck because he owed them back taxes. I had to have his taxes done from that year. They kept that and a week later they were talking about seizing assets. Naturally I'm freaking out because... the big bad IRS 😬. It didn't help that his GF who he lived with had all his paperwork and things I needed...hours away. I asked her to gather everything but she would forget to give me things. I always tried to be patient with her because she was grieving too.
I did save his texts ❤️ I think my next birthday is going to hit hard. Maybe not, idk lol
Yeah 😊 I like to think that there's a special rainbow bridge us animal lovers cross and all the animals we had and loved are waiting for us. ❤️ Awww! Bulldogs are so sweet and chonky! 😊 Oh yeah it would have been hard keeping up with them after your surgery! And a black cat! I always felt there was something special about black cats. A pig! 😯 They're so cute when they're little! They seem like they need a lot of care when they get bigger. I don't think I've ever know anyone with a pet pig, that's so cool though! I've heard they're really smart too!
I bet your painting looks awesome! But yep we are our worse critics. It's calming for you and that's the important part. Anything that bring calm and peace to us is special and always worth doing. ❤️
It's so good to hear that your hand strength has improved! You are kicking butt! Yay confidence boosters! You do got this! ❤️
Such a deep song! Added lol 😊
@mytwistedsoul
hahahaha For real though. I walk in sometimes and say to her I don’t want to be here. 😂😂
That’s annoying. All this just - boop- in your lap now. I’m glad you were able to get past it. When I was preparing services for my sister, the father of her kids wouldn’t sign the death certificate and it was infuriating. You’re not punishing her anymore, it’s the rest of us.
He was young huh? I saved all my step dad’s voicemail and texts. *** I lost my sisters.
This year might be tough. First one without him. Maybe you could plan something ahead of time for yourself? Or something that incorporates him in a way? Birthdays are a tough day for me. I shared mine with my grandpa. I loved my grandparents so much. I miss the phone calls of happy birthday and wishing it back. I miss my grammas cards in the mail.
I have a a kiddie pool for chunky butts to swim in. But my male dog likes to flip it over and run around the yard with it. Literally on his head running in circles 🤪 and he’s smacking into me because he can’t see. Such a doof.
Work was ridiculously draining today. But, I did it!
And my awful painting 😬 
😂
@peachThinker662 Lol tbh I've done that too 😂
@mytwistedsoul
Ah! Back handed compliment with the house 😂
Hahaha That’s my mom with her voicemails “I know you blocked me but I’m still calling!” She will also then send me snail mail. I usually record them as I read them in her tone and send them to my friend. 😜🤣 It’s actually a good laugh because nothing in the letter holds an ounce of truth. (I really hope I didn’t jinx myself and get one now 😬)
That’s so awesome you travel like that. And it sounds like you have great time too! Good for you 🥰 Sounds amazing and beautiful. I hope you take photos! Breathe it in. So wonderful.
I feel like when it was new on my birthday it was more challenging. Now I think of the good memories. My aunt has sent some photos of when I was younger blowing out candles on the cake together. I find it very special to have shared his birthday and the stories of how excited he was. I was the first grandchild.
Honestly, this morning when I got up, my dog went running down the stairs in front of me, like he does everyday. And I was laughing hysterically because his little butt bounces. I got clearance from physical therapy to taken them for walks. I took my girl. When we got back she plopped in front of the fan. “Yup, both getting our stamina back” love her.
Work was loud and chaotic on Saturday. And Sunday it was quiet 🦗 I crashed when I got home. I was definitely happy with myself for doing it. 2 days in a row baby!!! 😊 Now I’m off for a couple!!
My cousin invited me over to her house this coming weekend. Very excited about that. I’ve always wanted to be closer to her. My aunt (her mom) has been such a support to me, all my life. So now to be able to build on a friendship with her is amazing. And she has the cutest little girls. 🥰🥰
Have you made a good recipes lately?
feel free to dance around to this one 🕺 😅
@peachThinker662 Oh wow she's dedicated and persistent if she sends snail mail. The fact that you record them for your friend is probably a therapy all its own. I hope you don't jinx yourself either 😅
@mytwistedsoul
I think she might secretly miss that she hasn’t got a video in a while 😂 I’m so dramatic with my impressions. Really quite quirky and immature. 🤣🤣🤣 I even laugh at myself sometimes before I can get a joke out. A co worker of mine was telling me recently I need to start going to this particular coffee shop and try to meet guys. 🤦♀️ I don’t drink coffee. So I told her maybe I’ll approach people with a milk carton, elementary school, cafeteria style, slurp it up and ask them if they come here often. She just looked at me 😏 “you definitely need to find someone with a sense of humor” 🤷♀️ why wouldn’t I want that?
Oooooh 👀 those pictures sound interesting. I’ve never seen any of them.
It was a very special bond.
My day off consisted of physical therapy and my yearly physical. I was also offered a new job. I applied and sent in my resume. They called me for a phone interview. So that will be tomorrow. See what they have to offer. Lunch break job interview 😊
I’m excited to go see her. I’m going to spend the night we are going to “get take out and rot on the couch” as she put it 😂😂😂 sounds like a good time.
Speaking of food, pulled pork sounds amazzzzzziiing!!!! I bet those sandwiches were yummy!! I just indulged in French fries and chocolate shake. Happy food! What is your favorite food?
Tonight I’m going to soak in the tub. It’s well needed and deserved. Take care of me evening. I feel like when girls talk about self care it’s nail polish, lotions face masks, and things like that. (I don’t paint my nails.) What are some things you do? Like a guys perspective. Sorry hope I’m not being intrusive.
@peachThinker662 She probably does! Especially if they make you both laugh! It feels good to laugh like that. There's a joke I was trying to read to someone once and I was laughing the whole time. I think it took me 5 minutes just to get the last line out I was laughing so hard! LOL! I almost spit my drink out reading this! 😂 That would be so funny! A sense of humor is a must that's for sure! There should be a lot of good natured laughter in a relationship
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Hahahaha that’s the best!!! And then the joke isn’t even funny, it’s the laughing you laugh at. 😂😂😂😂 One of my co workers, I love him, he’s so flat, but so witty. So he will say things so out of pocket and I’m crying laughing and he’s like well. I think that makes me laugh harder.
Sometimes, I can’t wait for physical therapy. I do a lot of my exercises at home so when I go in there and I’m sore, she massages me 🤤 I have never liked anyone touching my neck and she massaged my incision site one day and I had tears of happiness. It showed me I can be gentle and kind with it. They are my cheerleaders irl for sure.
I almost asked if you out Cole slaw on your sandwich. 😂😂 I know people do that or pickles. Still trying to get used to and let down the walls of people judging me. ❤️
You are so correct with the self care activities!! I wouldn’t judge you if you gave yourself a facial though 😊
Thank you for sharing the photos. I love waterfalls. We have one about 20mins from here. I was lying in bed last night thinking about taking a walk there today. Something about the sound, cool air and little droplets hitting your face. Were you in a cave with some of them? The one of the bare trees and the one perfectly little green pine tree. I especially like how flowers grow in rubble sometimes. It’s a reminder despite all the “ick” you can still grow, stand out and be your own kind of beautiful. Fun fact. My biological dad was living in Virginia when we first chatted ever. I drove there to meet him. We were at the beach, the mountains though 😮 gorgeous.
https://youtu.be/_WcWHZc8s2I I just found this song a few years ago.. gets me in my feelings 💕
@peachThinker662 Exactly! 😂 I think that "well" would get me too! Some people can be so funny without even trying.
That makes a big difference when people can show us we can be gentle with our bodies like that. I know sometimes when we get hurt we can often feel like our bodies betrayed us in some way. And it's really great that they cheer you on. We need more people like that in the world
I have to admit I like pickles. A good dill pickle is always great but there's something about coleslaw on pulled pork that makes it amazing and adds some crunch. Oh boy I know how that worry of judgement is. You don't have to worry about that here on these pages. I'm pretty open minded... so open minded sometimes my brain just falls right out 😁
There is something magical about waterfalls. I could sit for hours and just watch the water and listen to the sound it makes. It's peaceful. Some of them were in caves. Omgosh yes! Nature shows us what resilience looks like! The power of persistence 😊
Oh that's so cool that your dad was in Virginia! That is another beautiful state. I've never seen their beaches though. I love watching the waves but the water is a little scary ngl 😅
That's a new song for me but she has a really nice voice 😊 I'll have to check out some of her other songs
I always liked this song
https://youtu.be/4hPv6EuV7dM?si=hST743aDBcS2cgS8
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I love when people are so witty and just come back with things. I don’t think my mind works that quick sometimes.
Yes, the crunch with the cole slaw is necessary. Have you ever made your own? I love crunchy!! Pickles are sooo good too!!! Breakfast foods are my favorite food though. By far!
That’s great you’re open minded. ❤️
Virginia had that HUGE LONG bridge to drive through. Oh my gosh hated every second of that 😂
I enjoy the ocean. Just not all the sand in my bathing suit 😬 😂 When I went to Florida one year, there were signs saying the sting rays were hatching and to do this particular shuffle. When I tell you I was jumping and kicking my legs every where…it wasn’t just a shuffle 🤣🤣🤣 I loved going jet skiing though and seeing dolphins. I even surprised myself and went parasailing. I actually just went kayaking for my first time this summer. Definitely would do that again.
When I was growing up, a really good memory I have, was going to Maine. My siblings and I would take off on the beaches and catch star fish, collect shells, sea urchins and sand dollars. Loved the hermit crabs. Hahaha my sister would come back with her bucket full of sea gull bones and dead crabs-what a goof!!!
My dog just laid on me for a good half hour, he was sound asleep snoring with his tongue hanging out.
I had never heard that song, it was a good one. I enjoy Fleetwood Mac.
Speaking of music, “Jesse’s Girl” is YOUR song? 😂😂😂 you had me cracking up when I read that!!
Hope you are having a good day 😊
@peachThinker662 Lol I know mine doesn't always work that quick 😂
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is it going to let me post this? It’s giving me a hard time
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Yes, I have made my own cole slaw and it was phenomenal. I highly recommend you give it a shot. Pretty simple too. Cutting cabbage is probably the most tedious thing. But I’ve pitted cherries for pie and it was nothing in comparison to that 😂 it was like spitballs with cherry pits, I didn’t know what else to use besides a straw. But that was also delicious too. 😋
My daily breakfast is usually simple-yogurt, granola bar or a piece of fruit. Breakfast for dinner is also a favorite of mine. Or a big brunch. I’ve never had biscuits and gravy. I love waffles and French toast bake. Especially waffles with strawberries and whipped cream.
What’s your favorite dish in general?
Ewww. 3 tunnels!!!?? It’s awful driving and having a panic attack. I get that. Sometimes I want to open the window and hang my head out like a dog! Hahaha
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I recommend Jet skiing. Especially if you’re the one driving it. You can at your own pace and check out the speeds. But feeling that wind on your face and splashes of water. Can’t beat it. I sh!t my pants a bit, not really, but you know what I mean, when the parasail went up. It was that stomach drop feeling. But once I was up, the views were amazing. Just closed my eyes and floated in the air. I want to go kayaking again. I do fear I will flip it over, when I tell you I’m a klutz it’s no joke 😂
I forgot people eat sea urchins. 🤔 Ours weren’t alive, it was more like a big cool seashell to us. 😂 There are parts of Maine that really are beautiful. What states have you been to? Obviously know you don’t have to answer if uncomfortable.
@mytwistedsoul so sorry. Hope you can read this
super annoying
@peachThinker662 No worries! Sometimes the forums can be glitchy with posting things. Idk if it's the censor or what. It's frustrating and irritating at times. I learned the hard way to always write replies on note pad or something because sometimes they disappear and don't post right 😬
@peachThinker662 Omgosh I have pitted cherries before 😂 what an absolutely horrible chore! Cherry juice stains everything 😅 Oh man I bet that was delicious! Nothing like a fresh baked cherry pie 🤤 I'll have to give making coleslaw a try
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Cherries do make a MESS. Buy they are so good. I’m MUCH better at baking than cooking. 🤔 there’s only been 2x I’ve received stitches that weren’t related to the kitchen. I’ve actually had a whole bag of dog food set on fire 😂😂😂 I don’t belong in the kitchen.
Aww cute little guy loves granola. I love that. So sweet.🥲
My favorite dish is chicken Parmesan. Sooo good. I went to my cousin’s last night and we had Chinese food. I haven’t had it in FOREVER. Lo main is definitely a good dish! We Iooked through some old photos and reminisced and laughed. I was so goofy looking back in the day. The haircuts my mom gave me. Oh my!
I did get the impression you have water fears. It’s pretty common.
Damn!! You dug up 20lbs of potatoes?! That’s pretty impressive!!!!!
I do like NF ☺️
You have quite the list of places you have traveled to!! Do you enjoy traveling? What place was your favorite? The only place on your list I’ve been is NY.
@peachThinker662 Tbh I'm better at baking too or maybe it's that I enjoy baking more? The smells of cinnamon and stuff like that is comforting. Omgosh dang you've got to be careful! 😬 Sooooo..... how did you manage to set a bag of dog food on fire?! 🤭 Although I probably shouldn't tease you too much because I've stood in front of the microwave waiting for my coffee to heat up, while still drinking it 🤪 just watching the empty plate go round 😂
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mmmmm … baking always does smell good. One thing I love about the fall. Apples 🍎 and making delicious treats with them. Cinnamon-yum. I feel like I put it in and on everything 😂 I have this bad habit of turning on the wrong burner 🤨 the dog food was on the rear and I thought I was turning on the front. Nope. That doesn’t smell good like baking. Maybe one day I will learn. Hahahaha that’s great about the coffee. And the microwave. We’d make a pair…make sure to have the fire extinguishers on deck. 🤣
I don’t know why parents try to cut hair 🤦♀️ My bangs started back at the crown of my head. 😂😂😂😂
Those taters must’ve been heavy to carry?!?!
Was WV where dad grew up?
My friend I’ve known forever is originally from NC. I’ve never heard of that mountain. I’ll have to look it up.
A bunch of us got together tonight and went to a fair. It was a good time. Got our faces painted except someone had to pick out some one else’s design and not tell them. I ended up with a pirate face!!! I felt the paintbrush do the mustache and I was like NO what is going on?! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Then of course ran into people I haven’t seen in a while after that. Some guy looked at me, did a triple take and him and his friend were laughing so hard. OMG.
I honestly don’t always know things to ask you, I don’t want you to feel like I’m prying or asking personal information but I honestly enjoy the conversation.
These cute little babies made me smile today . I wanted to take them all home!!! 💕
@peachThinker662 😂 I've done that! Turned on the wrong burner. Then stood there wondering why the pan wasn't getting hot! 😳 There's fire extinguishers all over the house. 😂 two in the kitchen I think 😅
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Recently I turned on the burner and to test if I had the correct one.. I touched it 😂 I’m laughing because that sounds so idiotic. But it was hot, I was correct!!! I have also waited for water to boil for 20 mins and then duhhhh the burner behind is bright red. If the smoke alarm goes off, dinner is done! ✅ 🤣
I made some dumplings one year. Holy moly so good. I don’t know how in didn’t gain and obscene amount of weight. Yum yum. Yesssss CIDER!!! I think it’s almost Apple picking time!!!!
The bangs stayed out of my eyes and kept me out of everyone’s 😂 😬
Maybe that’s why you feel close to WV. A place that feels close to him.
Seriously, 😒 if I leave the house looking like a bum to just go get gas. I see people. But on the days I’m in a great mood, feeling myself…nooooo why would I 😂
sooooo What your saying is I can’t bring your money from your bank account to you? 😂😂😂😂😂 I’m totally kidding. I feel weird just asking “what’s your favorite color?” Mine is green incase you’re wondering. I know you have been. It’s ok, I got your back 🤣🥰 now that that awkward question is over and done with. 😮💨
I hope you enjoy talking to me. My anxiety likes to tell me how annoying I am. Actually, that might be the inner voice of mom 🤷♀️
Out of the states you have been to I’ve only been to NY. I’ve also been to VT, NH, ME, PA, CT, MA, RI, VA and FL. I drove to VA. so maybe NJ and DE count? I like traveling. I used to be a big beach person but I’m getting more love for the mountains. I went camping this summer and had some really good memories come in.
Those piggies made the phrase “pig pile” real. Such cuties with their little oinks. Have you ever been to a cat cafe? I also really want to do yoga with animals when I’m healed up enough.
@peachThinker662 😂 I've done that too. Not with a stove burner but with a wood stove. Imagine my surprise! We should be able to turn off smoke alarms by yelling "I'm cooking!" 😂😂
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Ouch with the woodstove! 😂 Wouldn’t that be great with the smoke alarms. “Yes I know, opening the windows now” I think my best kitchen mishap would have to be when I cooked a turkey. I used one of the aluminum pans that are disposable - you’re supposed to put something underneath them- so when I pulled a heavy bird out of the oven, with all the juices, it cracked. Onto an electric coil, flames shot across the kitchen 😂😂😂😂 won’t do that again. Lesson learned!!
Apple dumplings with vanilla ice cream is the best I think. But I’ll eat them any way. Yum yum.
Reject from the muppet show is spot on 🤣🤣🤣 Aw. That makes me a little sad you couldn’t have friends. My mom would go bananas if I didn’t make friends. And by bananas it was traumatic. Now I’m like crap I didn’t make a friend —hello, how are you?!?! 😬 😂
When is your birthday?
Are you in a relationship?
Who is your favorite muppet character?
When I went to VA everyone was so nice too. Different story in Manhattan or Boston 😂 Well - I appreciate you letting me know, I hope you have a wonderful getaway but you will be missed. ❤️
I knew you were wondering! 🤣 I like sage green and aqua color. I painted my room a sage hue with terracotta curtains. Relaxing 🪴 Good color choices with the blue and purple.
“Hush, I am not annoying”
Yes, I just noticed a tree already starting to change. … the mountains are incredible with all the different leaf colors. It’s annoying when you are trying to drive and someone in front of you is doing 20mph taking photos 📸 👀 Just pull over and get out sir!
I went to a cat cafe a few years back. Kitties, kitties everywhere. You could get a drink and snack and they had different climbing things for them, on the wall, cat trees. And of course you could adopt. How tempting. I’ve wondered that about goat yoga. And I definitely would go just to play with them- stretch to pat the cutie patoootey.
Aww I love the (my) flower 🌼 How pretty. I’m currently sitting by a little river. Just got out of a job interview. Trying to decompress, In my dress. (That rhymed) 😂😂 How lady like of me!! 🤣🤣🤣
@peachThinker662 Don't forget to use a magazine or dish towel to fan the fire alarm too! 😂 The moment you stop it lets loose again 😂 Omg! Yeah lesson definitely learned! That would have been terrifying to see the flames shoot out like that but afterwards. .. please tell me you had a laugh. Were you able to save the turkey at all? That would have been an unforgettable turkey dinner 😳
Such an adventure to get that to post! 😳 Something set off the censor which decided I sounded like I was in crisis 😂 It was one word! One lousy little word...... Disappear (smh) 😂😂😂
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I thought the censor would be our kitchen adventures 😂😂😂 Yes!!! I do the exact same, bring out the potholders too, if of course they haven’t already been set to flames 🤣 After I realized I didn’t set my kitchen on fire it was a “h0ly sh!t did you see that?!!” With laughter for sure and surprisingly the meal was really good!
Yea, she is a piece of work. Or a piece of something 👀 “Little peach “ that’s something that was said recently too, I can look at photos from a period of time and think she didn’t deserve that and then other photos I’m disgusted. Maybe it’s the bangs and braces 😬
Birthday- December. I am also not in one. Haven’t been in about 5 years maybe? Challenging making friends as you get older, nm with the challenges you went through growing up. It’s not tmi about the Oscar shirt. Just please tell me you don’t wear crocs with jib bits? Or whatever those charms are I think he’s technically a muppet but just not the Muppet Show. . That chef is funny. I would have to go with the goofy looking lady in the band. Let me google her name…” Janice “ Also just learned the band’s name is Dr Teeth and the Electric Mayhem 😂😂😂😂
Can you read my mind? 🤣 Because I probably would have thought that! I think that was a very idk the words but kind and generous of you to communicate it.
My bedroom became my challenge last year. I went and traveled about 2 hours and hit every thrift shop I could find to do my room over that way. It was actually pretty fun and exciting.
Dang peepers!
I didn’t go home with a kitty. Self control 😂 oooh that would be super exciting if you found a dog… or two. The right one is waiting for Twist!!
Sunflowers are so pretty though. One of my favorites actually. thank Mr Chippy, it’s appreciated.
I walk that trail all the time and never just sit. I’m happy I did. Relaxing. 😌
You can wish the job interview away 😂😂 Unfortunately, I would have been the only one filling the position-when they need 3! She was kinda meh too. Really didn’t answer my questions bit of 🚩 🚩everywhere. But, I tried. ❤️
@peachThinker662 Omgosh potholders always take some damage don't they? 😂 Lol! I can picture the scene! Wide eyes and a shocked expression! Yay the turkey was saved! And a funny memory to laugh about after the fact! That's a win for sure!
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Those poor potholders. There was lots of commentary in regards to not getting in on video 🤣 and I sure wasn’t doing an instant replay.
Yea. I agree. There was a time in my life I didn’t feel comfortable at home or at school. She was just a kid ❤️ just hard to do the whole imaginative you’re ok stuff. I’ve written a letter to her. I have a photo of her on my fridge.
2 weeks before Christmas. Right in the middle. I can understand that in regards to a relationship. Some people want text messages answered right away and always want your time. Clingy yuck. Jealousy yuck. 😂 Sometimes my body pillow isn’t enough, just want a cuddle buddy. A hug. My track record with dating isn’t the best. But, it’s certainly helped me realize what I DO want.
Aren’t they hideous?!?! If your wearing those jibbits ok if you are 12 and under. But, a GROWN A$$ Man?! No. No. I’ve seen it, and my reaction 😟 😕 😶 that muppet character is so stupid, I can’t help but not laugh 😂 😂 she definitely be doing something. I mean she’s electric mayhem, without a doubt 🤣🤣🤣 I had a neighbor years ago that reminded me of her, her name was Rhonda, so I’ve always called that muppet Rhonda. Lmfao!!
Considerate and thoughtful ❤️ Yes!!!
Aww fluffs 🥰
Hmmm… I think sunflower seeds taste way better personally. Maybe the veggie seeds taste like veggie seeds or they enjoy the flowers 😂
You are making my day!!! 🤣🤣🤣 Yes. I decompressed in a dress. It’s not creepy. It’s hilarious. Like i said, i was not very lady like. I never am in a dress. So challenging.
Those mofo’s sent me an email they went with another candidate. I didn’t want ya anyways 😝
Do you have a beard? What’s your favorite board game? How tall are you?
❤️
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hi. It’s me. over thinker. that was an oddly specific question. let me re phrase that.
“Do you have facial hair”
@peachThinker662 That would be one of those videos you'd have to watch a few times to get the full picture of what happened
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Oh for sure!
It is. And it’s nice you understand. ❤️ It was weird, I had gone to therapy since a young age, and one day I had a therapist say wow you had an abusive childhood. And I was like huh 🤔 I thought I was living a “normal “ life. That was pretty mind blowing to say the least. And when I cry now my therapist says “that’s 7 year old is coming out” and I get what she means but sometimes it’s like shut up!!! Don’t call me a baby 🥹 oop.
I am a Sagittarius, is that a good? 😊 or trouble 😊? Hahaha I have a 50/50 chance with you … Aries? What’s your experience been like with romantic relationships? Yes-warm genuine hugs are the best, and it would be lovely to have a best friend I share my life with in a healthy way.
Stop it! I would have been crying from holding in the laughter. Face red. 😂 Oh man! What a sight. Yes, monster feet sleepers would have totally been the way to go 🤣🤣 I’m glad you agree about Rhonda 😌
You’re right, there’s no cracking sunflower seeds open. It can be daunting. Oh no, you poor thing. I think I would give up the pumpkin seed addiction to. 😅 I choked on a taco one time, 7th grade, in the cafeteria. 😎
What about speedos and crocs? Poor Bob. 🤣 I work with a Bob. I hope I don’t picture him in a speedo next time I see him. 😂 😬 Sorry if you wear them but any man, any age in a speedo 👀 do your thing man! 😂
Nothing wrong with scruff…. “Fur faced” 😂 Nah, no beard for me, I’ve thought about growing my mustache out (jk) 😅 I can’t remember the last time I played Clue. I like Uno. I’m a little competitive with games. It’s actually a little ridiculous. 🤣🤣 I get to slam down cards and yell at everyone! But I feel like I’m a bit of a punk when I play anything😂 keep it interesting. 5’3”!
@peachThinker662 I think that happens with a lot of people with (what's the fancy term now? adverse childhood experiences? Just living sort of semi normal lives. Thinking that they're just a difficult person, turns out they had an abusive childhood. Surprise! That shapes and colors everything in adulthood. Oh gosh yeah, I get what she means too but it's not cool at all that she does that. It's hard enough to show emotions and crying... crying is hard to do too
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I had a session today 😑 I have a hangover. I think it’s all the tears. Dehydrates ya.
Oooh I was right 😁 It’s because of that loyalty and protectiveness. Heart of gold!! I often have a hard time allowing people to get close. I have that avoidant attachment I think it’s called 🤔 I like to find the ick, make a list and set them free. But what’s interesting is my relationships that I’ve had the men were abusive, addicts and people that didn’t want to be with me. Hello adverse childhood experiences, it’s me again!! I’m working on that too. Take in the gooood. 🧘 Loyalty is never a bad thing.
😂😂😂 You got caught laughing at him!! Ahem 🤧 I mean Damn hay dusts gets you every time.
I walked around for an entire day, “Hey “peach “ choke much?!” Ya ya. Find some new material. Honestly, I go for the soft tacos now. I will eat crunchy but my throat hurts looking at them 🤣
*whistles* 😉 Hey hey. Nice outfit!!!
I feel like I stare when I see people in speedos. That is A HUGE amount of confidence. Lettin it alllll hang out! 😂😂😂 I might actually say something to Bob, because I will be laughing. If you saw Bob, you would too. 🤣🤣 He loves to give me a hard time, my turn, hahahaha.
I mean I was rocking a pretty sweet stash over the weekend with my face paint. I was turning heads. It could’ve been my incredible resemblance to Jack Sparrow with my natural curls. I can Fandango 💃 GALILEO!!!! 🤘 😂😂
Are you ready for your trip?
How long are you going for?
I hope you peep some leaves 📸 just make sure to drive super slow. 😂😂
Saw this interesting tree today and thought of you.
@peachThinker662 Yeah it does feel like a hangover. Sounds like a rough session 😞 I always end up with a headache and feel exhausted. I hope you're feeling better today
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I’m making sure to carry around water today.
Yes, I agree with that statement. I did an activity one time in therapy where you put your parents qualities and partner qualities. Little—actually too similar!
Just no jib bits Mr horseman…or maybe you could get him a cute little horse shoe. lol
This is why we get along! Hahaha 😂 I’ll be talking sometimes and just starting coughing and sneezing, eyes watering “sorry about that just choked on my spit” it makes no sense. And then comes the huge BURRRPPPP!!!!
Don’t forget the hat!! I’m crying laughing. I’ll see Bob this weekend. Oooh the visual!!!! Hahaha. Maybe that’s why they wear speedos, to have that ooh yea (like that song must be playing in there head) everyone is checking me out hahaha
I hope you have such a good time. So adventurous, brave and courageous!!!!! Will you camp out? I give you so much credit! Idk if you are doing that alone but wow!! Seriously have an amazing time. You kick a$$. I’ve never talked to anyone online, this is so different for me so it feels weird to say I’ll miss you. You have been someone I’ve been able to laugh with and talk about some things I don’t tell most people. You are an amazing person filled with humor and compassion. Thank you for being you. Ok, enough with the mushy gushy!!! Hahaha
Hi cute deer!!! I love them!!! thank you for sharing the photo!!!
have fun and we’ll chat when you get back
@peachThinker662 This is a tough day for you. I'm sorry, I wish there was something I could say to ease your pain. I hope you did get that cupcake, I didn't know her but I think she would have wanted you to treat yourself in some way. ❤️
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That’s very kind of you. Thank you ❤️ I sang happy birthday to her and enjoyed a dessert. Then my dog barked at my singing and decided to jump at the table for the treat too. It ended up being a good laugh at the end of a day that started with tears.
Surprised and not surprised at the same time. I would always compare one particular relationship to her but the other ones were a WOW
😂😂😂 Give it to him in a Ring box.
Well, we are both challenged. And handle it with grace 🙃🤣
I’ll let you know how it goes with Bob!!! Let me describe him to you…I think this will make it that much funnier honestly.. He’s gotta be in his 60s, salt n pepper hair that has a perfect side part, big belly and a deep raspy voice from chain smoking. The laugh on him, makes me laugh, big deep laugh. One day he said something to me about a dog and asked me to look at his face, then in turned BARKED in mine!! Immediately screamed. I thought that man was going to need a diaper so I cannot wait to ask him if he owns a speedo!!!
Pleeeeeaaaassssse tell me that is you wearing the hat ?!?! 😂😂😂 that is amazing!!! A few years back a co-worker and I wore these glasses… maybe we can get some to add to the outfit
First— gdamn that’s a huge photo
Second- how do I have a job with all shenanigans my co workers and I cause 🤣🤣🤣
Sounds like you will have a relaxing getaway. Lots of enjoyable things to look forward to! Can’t wait to hear all about it.
I’m not crying…🥹 You’re crying. That is so sweet of you. No need to thank me, I should thank you. 😊 Yea, those vulnerable statements, just have to breathe through them and hope for the best, you’re doing great!!!! 😌
Thank you for the gentle reminders 💕 I have plenty of dresses to decompress in. 😅 You’re the best ❤️❤️ Love back to you!
@peachThinker662 Do do do dooooo! (sounds the kazoo) I have returned 😁
I'm glad to hear that the day ended with a laugh. Those anniversary days are hard. 😞 Everyone seems to say things get better with time but tbh I don't know if I believe that
Omg was it that dog jaw joke I've been seeing on YouTube? 😂 Did you find out more than you wanted to know about Bob and Speedos? 🤭
Yep that's me in all my dorkiness behind those glasses. 😂😂 LOL that's you right?! My what big eyes you have! I love those glasses!
I think it sounds like a great job and you work with people who sound pretty awesome. I think it's important to get a long and be able to goof around. As long as the work gets done and no one gets hurt have at it! ( How is work going? Are you doing better with the anxiety? Not having any pain are you?)
Did you get to decompress a few more times? Thought about that a few times while I was fishing 😂 thinking that if I had a dress on it would have been cast and tug, cast and tug (apparently in my mind I was wearing a small dress and it was riding up... hence the tugging) smh 😅
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yay!!!!🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
Yes! It was the dog jaw joke! Jump scare. 😂 Bob does not have a speedo, he did laugh hysterically at me though. 😂
Stop with your dorkiness 🤣 best dork I know! It is me. Thanks, I think those eyes are my best feature 💁♀️💅
That’s the one thing I love about my job-my co workers. Work is challenging to get to. They’ve made it so I can go in an hour later short term but I just get so tired. The anxiety is slowwwwwlly trickling down. It doesn’t like when I’m tired or hungry though. The pain is good. Manageable. ❤️
I actually decompressed in my work clothes today 😝 I don’t know that I have a fun rhyme to go with that?!
You just made me laugh so hard with the fishing statement 🤣🤣🤣 OMG I missed you!!!!!
Did you have a great time??? Tell me all about it!!!
@peachThinker662 Hey you brought a kazoo too! 😂
@mytwistedsoul
So, I’m getting written up today for not going in. Hopefully it’s just a write up and not a termination 😅 I’ve decided if they write me up, I’m going to drop down to 24h/wk as opposed to 32h. My job is VERY demanding. Physically and emotionally. And well, I’m fragile right now and I notice that.
I go from hmmm do I need a snack to ravenous and eat everything in the kitchen 🤣🤣🤣 I can’t tell you how many times people ask me “are you eating again?!” Good suggestion of starting to carry around snacks with me.
I’m getting some blood work done on Thursday and oddly I’m excited and can’t wait for it. I’ve been anemic before so I’m definitely curious.
Today is another dress day 😂😂 it’s a cast and tug kinda day. 😝 got shorts on underneath. Interview!!!!
You’re used to the deer in your yard but, yes bears are another story. Despite their chubby cuteness. You caught the flies? Are you Mr Miagi? That’s true talent there. Awww the hummingbirds. I love seeing them by the plants, I would’ve got so excited if they came up to me like that 💕 Dude. I would have screamed if I saw snakes. 🏃♂️ see ya! 👋 ✌️ I’m not a fan either!! Copperhead 😬
I’m so happy you got time away to relax and enjoy yourself ❤️❤️
@peachThinker662 Oh no! Well that's really lousy of them. I mean I get that they need employees to be there but they could start with a warning or just a talk with you. Dang I'm sorry to hear this but I'm also really proud that you recognize that you're fragile right now. Instead of pushing yourself to a breaking point. There's been a lot going on for you with getting back to work and the anxiety and the anniversary of your sister. 😞 You're always welcome to talk about anything that's bothering you. No judgement ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
The dress worked!!! I got the J O B!!! Im so happy right now. So excited. 😆
Yes anemia can bring on fatigue. Gotta Try to eat some spinach or something 😂
yes!! I bet the bears like the chickens 😬
I’m sorry, I’m crying laughing at myself right now. 😂😂😂😂 I stop and then think about it and start laughing all over again. I seriously thought you were catching black flies and putting them on the hook. I have these moments. 😂😂😂
so does this mean you make your own hook?
This reminded me of when my sister had made peanut butter blossom cookies. I love them and I wanted to make some, but I was complaining because I couldnt find x large Hershey kisses 🤣🤣🤣🤣 stupid things I say. There’s a big list. 😂😂
Just have to slowly sort through it. It’s not a race. ❤️
@peachThinker662 Yay! I'm so happy for you! (gotta do a happy dance here) ❤️ It's a magic dress! I wonder if I could catch bigger fish with a magic dress? 😁 Joking of course 😂 then again ... 🤔
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Literally just thinking of you. Weird how that happens sometimes. I was checking out the place you stayed online. Gorgeous. I could almost feel the breeze looking at those mountain tops….
Now that’s going to be the “Magic dress.” I have my decompressing and a magic one. 😂 And no, the job does not sound as demanding. Infact, she said some people that have held my current position are sometimes bored. So, it’ll be a good balance I think. I have to wait for some paperwork to come back and get my paperwork for them completed. So by October 1. I stepped out of my car there today and it just felt so calm.
I love spinach. Salads or steamed. No can though either for me. I could do a beet & spinach salad 🤔 Alot of the foods that are high in iron, I don’t like. I won’t eat mussels or clams. Definitely no to liver and any other guts of an animal 😂 I eat a lot of chicken and fish. I’d rather not do iron supplements because they come with their own side effects 🫣 Technically, you are supposed to have vitamin c to increase the absorption rate with iron and avoid calcium. 😳 I’ve been taking calcium. Damn. Can’t win. I’m growing a new bone right now. I need the calcium. Yikes. 😬 Who knew it could be so complicated?? That was a mouthful on nutrition.
That’s such a neat hobby!!! I love that. I’ve never heard anyone do that before. You have a creative brain!!
I’m usually telling my dog he’s got the smooth brain. Guess they do take after their owners 😂🤪
Adulting is a test I didn’t study for either. Thought I knew it ALL as a teenager. What age did you move out on your own?
You’re so supportive. I hope you know that. I’m going to try and not overthink about work tomorrow 🤢 ugh that sentence just gave me bubble guts. My body is rejecting the place!!
@peachThinker662 Lol it is kind of weird when that happens but it's also pretty cool too. Like somehow our thoughts connected across the universe 😊
@mytwistedsoul
Right? It is kinda cool. Thankfully you didn’t think I was creepy. 😅
Oh my gosh. ❤️ Thank you for sharing the photos. Absolutely beautiful. You weren’t lying when you said how clear the water was!!! Like a scene from a movie. I loved the sunset too with your sunfish! You saw a lot from the trees, The sky, the water, mountains…. Wow. Take me with you next time 😂😂
I know the woman they spoke of that “gets bored”. I didn’t find out until later. lol. Very typical statement of her. She’s one of those busy bees that can’t stop moving. Her and I have worked together in the past. The grounds it’s on was beautiful. I almost took a photo and then I was like nahhh 😂
Have you ever heard of Haggis? There’s a restaurant in town that serves it 🤢 I refuse to go there because I just think that the sound of it is so gross! I’m sure it’s very high in iron 😂😂 I guess that probably why they say to eat balanced meals. I guess the calcium binds to the iron and flushes it out. So if you’re anemic, you want to save as much as you can.
Awww Bandit. He must’ve been so tiny!!! And definitely adorable. Made the dentist appointment worth it for sure.
You were young when you left. I’m glad you had some help with your grandparents. Look at you now!!! ⭐️⭐️⭐️
After being awake until 1230am, nervousness of going in and nervousness of not being an able to sleep, I made the choice to call out. I finally fell asleep around 2am I think. Arm wrapped around my dog, following her breathing and music. My grandmother used to rub my head and play with my hair, I had ex boyfriends that used to do the same when I was stressed. It’s so calming for me. Gotta teach the dog 😂
I’m off tomorrow and Friday, working the weekend. So I’ll send an email over the weekend while I’m there to my notice in. I was actually able to get Alot of phone calls and such completed today for the new employer. Connected with some co workers I haven’t spoke to in a little bit so it was nice. 😊
The support here can be overwhelming for me at times, I don’t always know how to respond to the compliments. ❤️ but it’s nice at the same time.
@peachThinker662 Aww no way, you're definitely not creepy at all. It really is cool 😊 Tbh it's always nice to hear I cross someone's mind 💜
@mytwistedsoul
You are thought of and you are appreciated 💕 I think cups is just a whole new ball game for me. To see things out and be reminded of someone on here. To notice their presence. Activities they’ve enjoyed and want to try. To never have met someone or seen them and yet, the impact they have on me. I feel like I often hold myself back related to how I look or what I’m wearing. I know those are wounds from probably age 5-17. So maybe it’s a good thing I can be comfortable here. It’s a start. I know everyone is different. My whole life revolved around friends, going here, going there, it was my escape. If friends were over maybe mother wouldn’t be so evil. If I wasn’t there then I didn’t have to deal. As I got older, I just wanted to feel accepted. Now, in this stage, friends are getting married, having babies… I’m kinda just flying solo and feel this need to have friends. You inspire me with the things you are able to do. That it is possible. ❤️
It would be Alot of fun! I also loved that tree that looked like it had legs. Ready to walk right down the mountain!
I don’t think my therapist understands why I’m changing jobs but, maybe I’m not explaining it correctly…. 😩 Just understand me please!
Pig stomach 🤮 ewwwww I’ll pass on that too! I’ll be next to you licking nails 😂😂 I know I wasn’t eating the best before surgery. Whatever I could get to and satisfy the hunger, I did it. I could hardly walk. A woman from work stopped by a few times and dropped off meals. So incredibly grateful for that. She was the only who did that.
Oooh puppy hunting 🐾 mine is currently sprawled out on the back porch next to me. Belly up, with his slug lips showing 😂😂
Work has been weighing on me. I have to get through these next 2 weeks with some major body builder strength or something. I’m just at the finish line!!!!
I’ll pass along the squeezins. 🤗 She sprawls out, head on a pillow, under the blanket. So spoiled. But I love her. Wouldn’t it be amazing if I could teach her that 😂
Compliments are complicated!! I used to just pass them off, then I started saying ok, now I’ve graduated to thank you. 😂😂 instantaneous Un comfort and what can I do for you? Get this off me. 😂 I always wonder if I’m doing the right thing. But thank you is a good start. Just have to believe it.
I feel like I was emotional during this. Not in a bad way. Just like in my feelings. Idk how to explain it. I’ll shut up now. 😂😂
Are you feeling a little more back on track from your vacation? Crushing the to do list? Hope you’ve had a good day. ❤️
@peachThinker662 I think it's good that you're comfortable here. It does feel a little weird(?) to be here with people you've never met or seen and yet they're considered friends and they do have an impact. Hopefully it's good impact but I know some people can affect us negatively too. Coming here is a pretty good start imo. You figure with the problems you had with your neck and the pain you were dealing with that probably put a lot of socializing on the back burner. Wanting and needing friends is completely normal. Have you ever looked in to Meetup? It's an app (not a dating app) that helps groups of people connect through shared interests. There was another person here that used it. It might be worth looking into 😊
Did she have your friends thinking she was pretty cool? Mine always acted completely opposite of how it was at home. She had so many people fooled. She probably still does 😕
Omgosh that tree was wild! It did look like it was ready to walk off!
Some people (therapists included) don't always understand the need for change. Your current job is demanding in many ways and while they have been somewhat understanding of you needing time to get back to that, there's still a lot of pressure I'm sure. It causes you anxiety and maybe there's a little fear that you could reinjure yourself because it's so physically demanding? I think that's a pretty normal response, especially since you were in pain so long and ended up having to go through surgery. I think it's good that you found a new job that won't be as taxing on your health. She should be proud of you for taking that step for yourself.
You know, I can't help but wonder at what some people's frame of mind was when they decided to eat certain things. 😬 I know hunger can make people do some crazy things and they probably didn't want to waste stuff but seriously? Now that is a very nice person and very thoughtful! I'm glad that someone showed up for you like that ❤️
Slug lips 🤭 he's sunbathing! 😁 Omgosh there's so many different kinds of puppies! 😳 and they're all so cute! I half think a part of me is afraid to take that step. Getting attached and worrying if it gets sick... and having to say goodbye again. Even though I know that it's a part of life... but I miss having that companionship
Try to take each day as it comes until you're able to start your new job. Each day you get closer and closer to that finish line.
Aww that's their purpose! To be pampered and spoiled! 😊 Payment for the unconditional love they give
Believing them is the hardest part. I've reached the point where I can actually be ok with compliments for an hour or two but then my brain starts to whisper it's nonsense and they start to feel uncomfortable. "Get this off me" 😂 Omg yes! 😂
Absolutely nothing wrong with being in your feelings! There's a lot going on right now and we talked about a bunch of things that would get emotions going ❤️
I put the pro in procrastinating 😂 Nah, I did get a few things done with the garden and greenhouse. I'll probably go out here shortly and clean up some leaves. They've started to fall and I try to keep after them so it's not too much all at once. I should also see what I need to get a roof over the sawmill before snow starts to fall. Which ugh... snow 😜 Can't believe we're halfway through September already!
Pita was chilling 😊
@mytwistedsoul
Cups has been helpful for sure. I never expected to have friends on here. People that I think of and care for. Surprised myself a bit. I thought I’d come on and meditate a few times with journal prompts I guess. Moment of newness and gratitude. I took myself outside my comfort zone and received quite more than I anticipated. I have looked into meetup a few times. I chicken out though when it actually comes to doing something. 😬
She did act opposite in front of new people and it would absolutely disgust me. My friends knew she was cray cray. She still acts like an idiot. She can be very sexually inappropriate so she loves men and I think she needs to get over herself. (Yea i have anger there) Everyone got along with my step dad though. I think he was the way he was sometimes from having her to deal with. I have to give him credit. Took on her, plus 4 kids and was generous to us. I was writing to “little me” and my good memories I don’t think would’ve occurred without him.
There’s definitely fear of reinjuring OR just being injured in general. A part of me what’s to be past the surgery. New environment where no one knows. Nobody is asking how I’m doing, how I’m feeling…everyday! I have no problem when someone asks about the surgery and I am able to educate them on it but just not an every day thing. It’s in my head enough 🤪 I worry constantly. OMG my lower back hurts does this mean this…it’s worst case scenario stuff. I have no husband or partner and I don’t want to fall down without any one to catch me 😔 I often look for a pat on the back from my therapist. Like a got a sticker for the day or something 😂 She was asking me a lot of questions about the new job and it made me feel like she was in disagreement. Today I’ve just thought to myself, she’s not living my life and I did try with the current job. I always run, but I did try.
I can understand that. I’d be lost without my “baby”, but think of all the good times and days you will have with the puppy/dog you choose. They really do bring in good and I think that good can outweigh the yuck stuff. It is very unconditional love. 💕
Yes!!!!! The brain saying it’s nonsense. Exactly!!! And then overthinking how do they know, do they really care or are they just saying it to say it
Today, I’m just out of it. I don’t like this feeling. It’s been a very very long day. Maybe too much time in the house in my own head idk. I cried myself to sleep last night, cried again today. Therapy hangover?? 🤔 it’s like I was running and running with my brain and now -new job. That chapter is almost closed. -got Alot handled with my bills.- relief there. So why the let down. Idk. 🤷♀️
Ewww no speaking of snow sir 😜🤣 You have quite the list of yard work. Reward time as you finish 💖
Awww Pita!!!! 🥹 He looks so chill and relaxed. Little sweetheart.
@peachThinker662 This was me too. I never expected to stay as long as I have. I figured a few months maybe a year at most. I've met some really amazing people here. I'm glad you had the courage to step outside your comfort zone 😊 I'm glad so many of us were given a chance to get to know you. Tbh the meetup thing seems overwhelming. There could be a dozen people or more there and it would be too much 😳 Maybe there's a class at the library you could join? Might not seem as overwhelming that way? You'd be there to learn something not just meet people but you might make some friends
Do you ever feel like people get to know the ugly you? Like I mean there pieces that hurt the most and not the fun, everyday you? I honestly felt like a new kid at school when I first started here. 😬 What do I do? No one knows me. And then I said screw it. They can’t see me but I can see them…jump in!
She is a man eater!! 😂 good choice!! I’ve wanted to get the anger off my back and shoulders for so long. I’ve tried to do a letter and not send it. I’ve tried to ignore. I’ve tried to write down good memories with her. I’ve tried to even talk to her. …None of that has worked. It’s kinda interesting because I’ve read different things that when your neck bothers you, it’s words that haven’t been said, holding back emotions.
Yes, it could be a combo. And lovely female hormones I’m sure play a factor. I haven’t felt like this in a while. And when I do, it feels like it’s never going to pass. My nervous system is healing right now too.
I think so too. My aunts and my uncle think I made the right choice. And I value them. I value you. ❤️
Aww you’re a nice person!!!
To be honest, I haven’t really felt like I’ve had purpose. I’ve written things down I CAN do. I just can’t clean the entire house, mow the lawn and go and do my errands all in one day (which yes, I used to) and then spend 1 day watching movies.
You’re planting more sunflowers 😂 I’m sure the horse and the birds appreciate it. Yum. Donuts. What kind did you have? I think I’m going to make something with apples today!
I’m done with that job J. lol. I can’t called you twisted, sorry. You’re not. ❤️ are you ok with J? I’m a J too. Anyways, I’m not going back. I’m taking it as a weeks unpaid vacation. Sometimes I think I did my best and other times I think I could’ve done better. Honestly though, In doing my research some people don’t go back until 4/5 months after. Considering I’m a stubborn mule, I let the pain go for too long and used up paid time with that. Emotionally, I went from no bending, lifting or twisting (BLTs haha) to hey you can go to work. I really wanted a chance to bend comfortably doing the dishes, feeding the dogs, walk the dogs before I jumped into a vulnerable, unpredictable job.
I did eat breakfast today. Got dressed. Went for a walk and journaled a bit there. I had a cute chippy yelling at me.
I gave pita a belly rub through the phone. He’s so cute. I loved it. 😂 he did have a foot in his house, not a care!! Just wanna hug him!!!
@peachThinker662 No. No one knows those uglier pieces. They might catch a glimpse and chalk it up to a bad day but I've gotten good at tucking things away and on those real bad days I usually avoid people. Do you allow people to know those pieces? You can sit with me at lunch 😊
@mytwistedsoul
That does make sense of what you say about the uglier pieces and that words said here are perceived as a rough day. I avoid people at times too. I understand that. I avoid at times like you say. There’s things I would rather hold in than let people know. 😁 thanks for letting me sit with you.
Watch about boys she’ll chew you up. (Anyone for that matter 😬) Yes! Depressed and anger. Ugly crying for me. Some people just don’t know how to be honest. I think to my self, what’s the common denominator here, you have 1 child that talks to you. It definitely would help if they took a smidge of accountability and actually meant it. Not to just say to pacify.
They’re good gardeners. Don’t have to hire any help 😂 I love Dan. ❤️. Aww and he loves candy 🥹 that would make me giggle if he was searching my pockets for snacks. So stinking cute!!! Donuts and milk do complement each other perfectly. Sounds like it it was like a cake 😂 mini celebration cake. I got some grocery shopping done so I think I might go with dumplings or pie and challenge myself a bit. Apple crisp is too easy 🤣 Trying to occupy myself.
Today definitely felt productive and more “me” like. I got things done but I also made myself aware to go slow, be patient, not a race. I cleaned A room. Did A load of laundry. And most certainly finding out what I enjoy instead of what I feel needs to be done. Cough- perfectionist! 😂😂 I need to learn to let things be sometimes.
Hey J 👋 Thank you SO SO much for that statement. Today, going grocery shopping alone and doing my laundry independently were major wins for me. I even vacuumed my car. There’s no more stress of what do I do with work. I can just be me right now. 🥰
I used to journal when things were bad and then they’d get good and I stopped. Last week, I finished a journal and did a happy dance. You’ll get back to it when your time is right. It can be challenging. I did yell back 😂😂😂 “whatcha doing!” And of course called it like I would a cat.
Pita sounds like a snuggle bug. The little brr 🥰 both of your animals sound so sweet, they must have a loving owner ❤️
Thank you and It is a snoot to boop 😂 He was eating all the grass and leaves outside today like a lawn mower. My little gas powered dog 😂💨 He follows me everywhere! The bathroom door will be open a crack and I see his eyes peeking through. 😂😂
Hope you are snuggled up and have a sound sleep ❤️
@peachThinker662 I always thought it was funny that here's this emotional support site but we all disappear when we need support the most 😬
@mytwistedsoul
I find the same. Emotional support site but not reaching out enough. Sometimes I wonder for me if it’s because I’ve started to create friendships with people. No, idk them in person, but that would mean getting close to someone. They see ALL of me. Yikes. 😬
That sounds like a fun lunch!!! 😂
I’ve always wondered the same but I’m not holding my breath either. 🙄
Still have yet to bake something. 😩 I guess that will be my one task one day. I’m like a squirrel—oh laundry, sweep, bring the dogs outside etc🥱
yup. I push myself too. And then I end up in bed for most of the day, like today. It’s bad that I don’t even have the energy for a bath! I’ll definitely shower in the morning for my physical therapist though 🫣😂 I feel like I ran a marathon. My butt, legs and feet are so sore. Then my shoulders and my head was POUNDING earlier that my eyeballs hurt. Thankfully that has resolved 😮💨
Ouch. It sounds like you had a tough experience along the way journaling on here. Could you do a private one maybe? I saw they offer that. Or on your chalkboard 😶🌫️ what ever makes you more comfy.
Pets are way too easy to spoil sometimes. Every time I come back from the store mine are looking in the bags for their goodies 😂 just like Dan knickers at you “where’s my candy?!” A mini moo is for sure!! 😂 When I see him peeking I call him out “do you mind?” He backs up ever so slowly, ears back, looking left, looking right .. almost as if I wasn’t doing anything. 👀 Maybe he thinks the toilet is like a BATH 🤣 he’ll jump in swamp water but no not the bath tub! Soap? Yikes!!
@peachThinker662 I've wondered that too. That closeness can be kind of scary sometimes. This is a place where anonymity helps to open up and we share secrets. Often we share things here that we've never shared anywhere else.
@mytwistedsoul
I never want to feel like a whiner. “Boo hoo-I need sympathy.” That’s my true issue. I want to be positive and celebrate my wins but it’s not always that….
I made the dumplings today!!!!!!!!!!! 🤤 ooh and so good. I think they were similar to your donut with the sugar content … but much needed.
Totally would feel the same way. Trying to dump out feelings and it’s doesn’t like it-delete. 😂 ugh that super sucks that you ran into issues…that’s frustrating beyond words.
The lava 😂😂 maybe that is the thought process. Because he loves his pool too. I’ve tried bringing soap outside, it became a wrestling match that I did not win.
@mytwistedsoul 🤣🤣🤣 he’s a goofy goober 
@peachThinker662 Omg! He's adorable! 😊❤️ I love his nose! That's a snoot to boop! He's got such nice coloring too! You're totally not wrapped around anyone's paws I bet! 😊
@mytwistedsoul
My sweet girl 🥰 snug as a bug
@peachThinker662 Omg she's adorable too! 😊 All snug and dreaming about milk bones and walks ❤️ They're both very sweet! Thank you for showing them to me! 😊