eyes and flowers talkie land
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@UnassumingEyes Hi eyes friend. uhhhh not sure what to say, I know your not always active around here and life can be busy ❤️ but i kind of just wanted a space to poke you every now and then and be able to have a space to talkie when your on cups. If your ok with it (no pressure though, its okie to say no, for whatever reason <3)
Flowers
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Obs asked me to send the link to evas forum post. I did but i dont know why that was relevant 🤷♀️
@unassumingEyes which post tho…? Her diary one…?
Idk why thats relevant either :/
@LoveMyMoonflowers id mentioned in my request for obs to check her account that her forum posts remain. I sent a link to the diary one and asked whether they were going to del the forum posts or something 🤷♀️
@unassumingEyes Okay…
*sending hugs if ok*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs*
Hru feeling?
@unassumingEyes *hugs*
Idk how to feel anything. About this… Im still just numb.
You? <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers idk. The only thing my brains saying is "we cld be feeling worse"
So, er, cld be feeling worse, i guess
*more hugs*
@unassumingEyes
*more big hugs*
love you.
@LoveMyMoonflowers love you too 🫶
@LoveMyMoonflowers
The final verdict, apparently:
it seems like due to some bio violation, account is placed on break. if they request account review, i am sure it will be considered for restore
Im not sure what bio violation it could be (?) or...how to go on from here, really
Also it didnt use to this say while account is placed on break, but i guess that changed...?
I havent responded to obs yet
@unassumingEyes Oh… i see. Hm.
Do you think it is because of the poetry videos she linked at the bottom, in white text? one or two of them was about su1
@LoveMyMoonflowers oh, yess that must have been it. Im surprised someone found those 😮💨
I guess we leave it be, then...?
@unassumingEyes
Yeah…
*hugs if ok*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs*
Also
https://www.fadedpage.com/author-count.php
@unassumingEyes thank forum uncle for that one^
@unassumingEyes I thank thee
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Hey, lovely. Hope youre okay. The worlds no fun without your chaos or kindness
Our good frnd, our local ikea, said some things that i had to share with you. Which are:
@unassumingEyes boopity beepity i have returned and i shall reply to this late 😎
smh lol i need to confront equal about that and tell them that eating their furniture is for the common good T-T i only do it for that reason 😭 ✋ thanks for the quotes tho <3
how farest thee today, if thou okayeth to sayeth, beanie? <3
@LoveMyMoonflowers yeeee late reply is still reply
Your equal believes that you are going to cause deforestation. Personally, i think oxygen is for weak people-/j/obviously😭
I fareth very badeth in all honesty(-eth)
Actuallyactually im fine only overthinking as usual how are youu
@unassumingEyes i reply late to everything and everyone 🥲 XD
that's just a plain insult - not rooted in fact. i don't eat THAT much furniture. 😭 And for every piece of furniture i eat, i plant 200 new trees. starting two seconds ago.
no wait what if it is tho 🤔 jk lol
fine is such an interesting word isn't it 🥲 Come to think of it, "how are you" is such a weird question to ask. I'm sorry your brainie's overthinking 😕 u don't have to say thats fine tho because overthinking is really meh 🫠 *sends optional huggles*
im around if thou needest me 🫡 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers huggiess
That is
Alot
Of
Trees
My sis is crying cuz all her plants wont grow xD
@unassumingEyes *big hugs*
indeed 😎
lmao 🥲 what’s she tryna grow? Should be plants that are able to grow in the region
@LoveMyMoonflowers many plants. They grow and then our gardener cms and throws them away when we arent home it happened thrice 😭
@unassumingEyes damn 💀 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers cld u do me a bit of a favor and just like be around fr a few days cuz i think i might tell uk frnd and i might crash like right after
Like- oh i dont know what im doing 😧 but u get it
@unassumingEyes i'll be around 💜 sorry for not being around much before 😭 i do come on every day but i just stay quiet at times :') *cough* Most of the time 💀
Honestly i get what you mean about how she deserves to know bc there's like… that bit of being honest in the friendship? Like you want to be honest about it? But at the same time there's the risk of things getting awkward and stilted afterwards so yeah i get it a bit 😭
sorry if i misunderstood
How long have you been considering this?
@LoveMyMoonflowers ive been considering this for a long time but i kept thinking it wld only hurt her but now i think im just being a coward xD
Thats okay like take ur time always i dont mind
No actually u understood better than anyone else on here so far 😭
@unassumingEyes Eh… I wouldn't say your being a coward. you are still you even if you've changed your beliefs or how you see the world. and tbh its hard to tell people about that kinda stuff 🫠 There's a lot of different factors/circumstances. it's ok to take your time, it doesnt mean your a coward but yeah I guess thats how our brains like to see it. 💜
And Imo it doesn't seem to me that she would get hurt, i mean idk your friend like you do, but from what I've read from your diary threads it seems she's sort of open minded? Idk? Idk there's a million different responses she could have - she could be accepting, she could have the "take your time but you'll come around and believe again one day" sort of response… I don't mean to make you anxious (i probably did 🫠) but yeah i get it its really complicated 😭
*hugs* 💜
Forgive me i wrote an essay
@LoveMyMoonflowers no write me essays i need them xD
I just keep almost doing it and then stopping. The moment smone irl knows it just becomes all the more real. But it is real...and idk. But its absolutely ruining my day today 😮💨
@unassumingEyes
Yeah that makes sense. Sometimes it's just nice to have someone irl who knows… just knows… but at the same time there's tons of other stuff complicating it - how they might respond, how we might feel after telling them, what might change…
If your going to tell her are you planning to do it through text or…? I mean sorry thats kinda a dumb question bc if u called her at home ur mum and sis would hear 🥲 But like idk?
Ik brains like to go all-out nuts but try not to stress too much about it? 😅 💜 Technically you do have time to work it out and think through and make a decision. *more hugs * (if ok)
The stupid heart limit 😭 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers felt
(Replying here)
*hugs* yea thru text bcz of the reason you said
I talked to her today...didnt tell her although i tried but eyes brain didnt cooperate. I did ask her (generally) if she wld prefer the harsh truth or the easy lie. She said harsh truth cuz then she'd be able to accept it and find hope and strength thru prayer and stuff. In the same convo she said one of her biggest fears is betrayal...
Sounds like i ought to tell her, yeah? But ill wait and see if forum uncle has any opinion, but hes so busy i think he might not see the post (and thats alright too)
Hugs sorry for weird eyes brain
@unassumingEyes
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Yeah that's what I figured :/
Brains do get in the way of a lot of things. It sucks. Still i think it's good you got to have that convo and i guess… learn that bit about her? Just to get more of an idea of how she would respond? Idk.
Thats true, he does seem a bit busy… but yeah still I think you should wait. I'm sorry i wish i had more thoughts/suggestions 🥲 I do second what Soul friend said in your diary thread tho - about the true friend thing. I'm sending you luck eyes bean 💙
*big hugs* Nah don't be sorry. you didn't choose your brain or all the stuff it says to you, and its okay to be weird. <3 I love you friend 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers love you too <3
Talk with her just made me think that i ought to tell her even more. And-and i love her, but however she responds, i still have a life to live. I still have my goals and it wld be lonelier than now even but it wld be there still and i guess. But its hard to imagine a future without her, silly as it is. We have such similar ideas, i always thought we'd work together as adults
@unassumingEyes I don't think it's silly at all tbh. 💙 What you're saying makes sense. From what you've said she seems like a good friend to me, and hey… if you're both so similar, maybe things won't change? idk. Maybe she'll be happy that you decided to tell her and she'll respond kindly and she'll get it and that just might deepen the friendship since your being honest about all of it. idk if that makes sense I sound like an idiot lol. Sorry if that came out all wrong 😅
*more big hugs* 💙 Hopefully your getting some rest rn and brainie isn't being too mean :') I shalt check in with thee in the morning (if I'm even awake then)
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs*
Dw youre making sense but eyes isnt very optimistic
I think ill wait till after both our exams are done cuz if i tell now and the friendship gets all awkward both of us are gonna not focus on exams idk
Thank you for listening honestly hope youre okii 🤍🤍
@unassumingEyes *big hugs*
yeah i get that… i still hope things will turn out ok though 💙
Makes sense. That's probably a good idea, yeah.
💙 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers she has asked to talk tonight at 10 pm (thats like 20 mins frm now) and now im a nervous wreck
More on the 12 o clock news... xD
@unassumingEyes Oh… do you think you wanna tell her now? Tbh i feel like you should go with telling her after exams. Just in case things don't go… yk… Emotions and events and stuffs can cloud the focus on exams :')
When do y'alls exams end?
@LoveMyMoonflowers june xD see the issue? But...oh lets see. The more i think the worse i get
Itll depend on her mood and how free she is rn. I aint ruining a good mood, and im not bothering her when she has study plans xD
@unassumingEyes Ack yeah June's forever away. and our brainies don't seem to speak the languages "kindness" or "respect" very well 😕 *more hugs *
Yeah i get that…
i wish i knew how to help more/ navigate this 🥲
ANYways this is tooo much about me so i hope youre lifes okayish and there isnt too much of ewschoolybobs exerting dominance on you
@unassumingEyes 💙 💙
idrk what to say so i just use hearts 🫠
@LoveMyMoonflowers clever that shld work irl xD
@unassumingEyes lol
@unassumingEyes
@LoveMyMoonflowers aww thats so cute i cld just explode from it
*hugs*
@unassumingEyes *big hugs*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *biggest hugs and lots of love*
@LoveMyMoonflowers *rants about god while he judges me*
Okay first of all why did He do the whole "you forget everything you knew as a soul before birth" thing why complicate it whyyy xD
And then "you have to believe bcz He told the Prophets the truth but by THE WAY other people will claim to be prophets so goodluck distinguishing em"
And "this is His Book and this is His Book and forget those books now this is His Book"
If i point everything out i'll get tired 😭😭
The real winner is if you dont believe you suffer for all eternity...bcz i really really really dont see the point of that??
@unassumingEyes sorry for seeing/getting back to this a tad late
i agree with this entire thing fr XP ive nothing to add, some other stuff is kinda christianity specific or idk idk about all the similarities but theres kinda a contradiction in every little thing and its just frustrating and people are like its soooooo simple such a simple message, just believe and submit to gods will and believeeee bwahahahaha your on your way to heaven but like
*you go and read the book*
it not so simple anymore XD
"this is His Book and this is His Book and forget those books now this is His Book" This is so real tho 💀
Yeah same sometimes feels like it wont end
yeeeeesssss also theres the factor of *cough* location. Like helloooo not everyone was born in a super christian (for your case, muslim) household and they got to hear tHe tRuTh theres like what 4,000 religions in the world? Tell me compared to *** and heaven which one will have the higher population according to this, oh but forgive me god is actually super merciful and gracious and this is his willlll its good and perfect and beautiful so like…. yk just ignore all those people burning in *** while you enjoy your little square of land in heaven XD
did i go too far 💀 gremlin comes on fast when its this…. 🫠
I love how at the beginning i said i had nothing to add and then i ranted like isnt that so perfect
@LoveMyMoonflowers nws
My gremlin comes out too i was holding it on the leash when i wrote thag xD
Noo like frr u srsly gonna send then all to h.ll bcz they didnt believe you, an invisible being who we cant see, touch or hear, exist?? Hello???
And like "He sent his signs through the prophets" because sure, one guy going all "An angel spoke to me with Gods message" is definitely gonna be believed no questions asked for sure ofcourse why not/sar/extremely
Like, i wld think that guys crazy and go straight to h.ll 😭😭
and there are some really good ppl of other religions right i asked mom what wld happen to them once and she was like God decides
Which is basically "i dont have a clue"
😧😧
@unassumingEyes It's ok tho lol we can be gremlins together XD
Its 2:37 but yk the religous trauma gremlin is ever-present and always has something to rant angrily about 😝 I feel evil for it but yk
Frrrrr omg fr tho like its…. its almost as if its possible he doesnt exist 👀 Like omg a few thousand years ago or something a guy wrote a book or five hundred million people wrote a gimungus self contradictory book together about an invisible guy who we are all required to trust our lives with like hmm what could it possibly mean 👀 👀 Nope not fiction 👀 nope 👀
Im ngl sorry idk a lot about islam but muhammed fr scares me, from the little stuff Ik 🥲 🥲 🥲
Nah fr i would too but the way you make a whole group of people believe whatever you want, is by using fear to control them and like Idk i have doubts and fr might reconvert and be christian again one day but like…. Theres so much bs i see right now this is my angry phase (or maybe not phase idek) please just leave me alone people XD
Omg yeah fr. I used to discuss a lot of doubts with my bro and he said he didnt know, ask mum and dad. Asked mum and dad, they didnt know either 😝
Although for that in christianity generally the bible says smth like "all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of god" and apparently if your a good person or try to be it doesnt matter if your not christian XD you just end up going to *** anyway like isnt this such a great thing to believe about people /extremely sar
Like my parents just go "Yeah its sad but its their fault for choosing not to believe" *moves on with day*
Like ughhhh
@unassumingEyes
Its all like this isnt it 🥲 i felt so seen when i found this on Pinterest lmao
@LoveMyMoonflowers also heart limit 😭
@unassumingEyes Ew the heart limit
Also follow up to the weirdo reply to the serious post earlier from the same guy:;
I love berries sm
Are they okay??? 😀😀
@unassumingEyes :D :D :D