Are these symptoms of BPD?
I get possessive and people and desperate to keep them around, consistent feeling of well...nothing and loneliness, loving myself one minute and hating it the next, anger that sometimes explodes, and isolation. I don't think it can be diagnosed here, but opinions do count. For more context I do have anxiety, panic disorder, and PTSD from childhood trauma.
@AwkwardMelon04 You're right, nothing can be diagnosed here 
Also, yes, opinions do count. My opinion is that if you have PTSD from childhood trauma, then you can get treatment for that. Treatment for PTSD works well if the person treating you is an expert. Soon you won't have PTSD any more.
It's the same for anxiety and panic disorder. You can get treatment for those, and the treatment works well. Soon you won't have anxiety or panic any more.
OK, now after the PTSD, anxiety and panic have gone, if you still have all the other problems you mentioned, then maybe it would be time to have some serious discussions with a psychiatrist about personality disorders.
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@AwkwardMelon04 I'm sorry that you have been suffering with so much emotional pain. It sounds like that you are struggling with is common among survivors of trauma, especially childhood trauma.
Would it be possible for you talk to a local doctor about your concerns?
I only date homebodies so that I don’t feel extreme abandonment if they go to a bar with the guys or wonder why they would rather do anything other than spend time with me. It’s unhealthy but I get the desperation and I hate it.