BPD - How do you feel today?
I know that with BPD, we have a dynamic spectrum of emotions we could be feeling from moment-to-moment, from day-to-day. But here is a place where you can just get out how you're feeling. Post every day week, every day, every hour. This is your place to celebrate and vent.
All my love,
Lee.
Today I feel a little bit sad, a little bit exhausted. I spent some time with people last night, who instead of making me feel good, made me feel socially isolated, which made me feel resentful and angry. I worked through those emotions when I came home, but I guess I'm still feeling the "emotional hangover" of today.
Sigh.
I feel okay, I had a bit of a blowout today which was unfortunate but I'm working on patching it up!
Stressed and anxious. My BPD really resonates with the original "borderline of psychotic and neurotic" description and I have been dissociated all day and not sure if I'm real or what's real around me and it's just an awful feeling :(
confused...
Rage. I feel rage.
can't take it anymore :(
@FuturePsychologist2
So sorry you're feeling that way. I hope you know this community has your back and we're here for you.
Lee.
I feel terrible. I feel as if the person I am completely dependent on is going to leave. I can't think about anything other than self harm.
@Bpdprincess09
I'm so sorry for everything you're going through right now. I know that the prospect of abandonment is absolutely terrifying, and you are so strong for coming here and posting about how you're feeling. Take care of yourself, and if you need anyone, we have amazing Listeners here.
Lee.
@Bpdprincess09 I feel the same way. Have you found any relief?
Today I feel relatively stable, and I think that's a win!
There is that feeling of emptiness. My doctor said to me that she tried for years with her borderline patients to solve that emptiness but it failed. Egh. I guess I can only wait for it to fade
@alexlove
Do you feel like it is chronic? Are there times when you don't feel empty?
Lee.
@ItsLee
There actually are periods when I feel different. Thank you for reminding me that maybe my soul didn't completely died. :)
I feel like I don't know what's around the corner and that's scary. I drank so much yesterday cleaned the house from top to bottom went for a 10 mile walk. My kids are scared and afraid and there's no help for me
@KrackpotKitty
The unknown can certainly be a scary thing, that I can relate to. It sounds like you're going through a really tough time and I'm sorry that this is happening right now. I want you to know that there is always help, and that we are here for you on 7 Cups.
Lee.