i suspect i have BPD
hello guys i hope you're doing good
so i will try to keep my story short as possible
it's been four years that i started to have mood swings i couldn't continue my studies i kept changing majors and i couldn't settle in any of it . Also i have attachement issues and i am too sensitive like i have this intense emotions i feel deeply every emotion is strong i can't control it i don't know how to manage it and after going to psychiatrists and therapists no one could diagnose me cause every time my disorder change like it's really strange but i think im not me like each time i change quickly like i have someone else inside me there was time when i stopped making friendships cause i was scared of getting attached and self sabotage it but because i didn't get diagnosis i thought that i was faking it that i need to change when the euphoric episode came like i was for 3 months stable i thought im good then suddenly i become depressed and empty so i think that this is something that it won't go away and it will stay for life unfortunately i just don't know what to do and i do get angry but like inside im scared of people what will think of me also everything trigger me like if you talked to me in a cold way i will just split and i will hate you i will block you but i will come back to you like seriously that tiring anyway there is still a lot of things but i hope you tell me your opinion on this and thank you
@plumKiwi4299
Hi there 💜 That sounds confusing/frustrating not being able to get a diagnosis. There are a lot of things you've mentioned that feel like they line up pretty well with BPD experiences/themes (e.g. mood swings, intense emotions, unstable identity, splitting/polarization). But then without the diagnosis, I guess there's this self-doubt of not knowing what's going on, thinking at one point you might be faking/exaggerating, etc.
Were the psychiatrists/therapists able to offer anything helpful (e.g. tips, insights, support) with the information you provided, even if they couldn't diagnose anything?
I tend to feel like whether there's a diagnosis or not, if there's a lot of overlap between your experience and BPD, resources/support related to BPD would probably still feel relevant and helpful either way. 😊
Hey there thank you for answering me I appreciate it, well currently I reached out to a psychiatrist maybe he will help me figure out myself more I hope I mean I kind of got lost and confused between this but I hope I can figure it out soon 💚💚💚
@plumKiwi4299
Sounds great, hope it goes well! 💜