my person
feeling very hard to love. the way that i think about my favorite person all day every day is so painful. i feel like a burden to him because my whole world revolves around him and if he’s okay i’m okay if he’s not i’m not and my feelings are so insanely strong and i know he’ll never be able to truly understand them because nobody knows the severity of what i feel for my favorite person besides me and it’s terrible because i feel like it makes it a burden to love me because i need the constant assurance and attention and it has to suck to try to be in a relationship with someone who is completely dependent on them even though they can’t help it. i feel like too much and i’m terrified that one day he’s gonna realize that and leave me. it’s happened before.
@heyspencer
Hi--thanks for having the courage to share that. 
It makes sense what you're saying:
- You feel really dependent on him for your well-being. Like he's constantly in your thoughts, your whole life revolves around him, and you really crave his reassurance and attention.
- You feel afraid that he might find out that this is the way that you feel. It's happened before that you've felt this way toward someone and they've ended the relationship because it felt like a burden on them.
(And I imagine that the thought of having the relationship go wrong in any way is terrifying when it feels so deeply important and like so much of yourself is invested in him.)
Gosh absolutely :’)
