so my life is a bit of a mess right now..
ive just graduated university after 4 years of full time study, 2.5hrs commuting everyday and working along side studying and im so lost.
im at a job at the moment that has turned extremely toxic very fast and i dont like the way its going and im afraid its going to effect my mental health again. and i honestly feel like not going anymore, but i cant stay unemployed because i need to pay my rent ð«£
i have previously admitted 3 times for BPD (on our national health service page thing says ive actually got "EUPD") last year and i slowly feel like im going to be admitted again.
I live alone and i currently dont have a psychiatrist (because i screwed up the last one and theres not alot in my city) and we have 2 mental health clinics as well as 1 psychiatric hospital (which is literally like what you see in the movies i.e inhumane)
im just lost on what i want to do in life, i haven't got any ideas and if im completely honest i wouldn't mind not having one.
any ideas on how to somehow start getting my life on track? how to find a job that i actually like? how to get on my feet mentally and perhaps any advice on how to manage my BPD (EUPD)?
I feel so alone
@sleepynoodlecy
Is the job you have what you studied in university? is there a field or career you were interested in when you entered school? so many graduate and find working and how real life works differently then the last few years of school.
how is the workplace toxic ? not fitting in .. or just not interested in the job? perhaps co-worker issues? If you are Not sure what you want to do ... perhaps review what skills are transferable to other work situations.... many people i know ended up in jobs they did not even consider when they graduated ... it takes some exploring to find what you can see yourself doing.... i did temp work for a couple of years because it was seeing the inside of a job ... not a flawed job description .. without a long term commitment ....
