Gates and gates open and close

Gates and gates open and close

Gates of time and what they hold

the birth of a child that was told she was wanted

but a gate opens she learns she does not feel wanted

time passes another gate open she left to be cared for by her brother who only two years older

then another gate opens a brother say let play doctor he normally not play with her at all

but the game of playing doctor hurts and she not understand why she only 3yr

another gate open in her life one of pain and shame she not understand at all

this gate that opened she know something not right but she to obey her brother

gates and gates open one after another within them the pain within the game get worst

but she wants them to love her she wants them to want her she not know what to do

the gates open again and again within them gates she feel as if they walls

so she wants her mom to help her she see her mom watching between the steps but she not help her

the gate that her mom could have helped her seem to have been shut and locked by her mom

she feel unloved and unwanted other then for sex and pain from them all

a gate opens she wants to be gone she does things to be gone but none of them work

gates that been opening since she was very young the self harm she always did goes unseen

gate after gate opens and closes she see that they moved on to other girls but she confused by that

she not being raped but still feel worthless unwanted rejected by everyone

the gate seem to go on and on she left out of things that others do she not know why they hate her

what did she do wrong why do others not want her around they seem to just walk away from her

a gate of what seem like love but she not really know love he fools her by his actions

but the gate after marriage looks much worst he uses her as they did when she was young

then a gate of having kids by him they rape babies in the end

a gate of losing them in the end but is this the end she thinks

then gates of mind games him trying to get her to end her life

that gate almost did not shut as death almost happened

gates of self hate and lashing out at self not at others only at her self

a gate a memory come like a flood she see the man she married as a boy he one of them that raped her

a gate of hope opens but closes due to she ends back with family and more abuse

but years later a gate of hope and freedom opens as she take wings and move away from her family

what gate will be next we do not know but as for now we safe and free

by stormie and paws