Falling
I’ve been falling for so long I don’t think I’ll ever climb back up I fall and fall screaming and screaming for someone anyone to see me and yet they have all disappeared everyone I’m alone scared screaming and falling falling falling down down down I grasp for anything anyone anywhere a hand a wall but it all falls away as I fall farther down I hear my cry’s and silent screams for help I hear the monster in my head who stole my joy the mirrors that hurt my body the broken bits of my heart floating around me darkened and shattered from being shared and smashed over and over again I see the walls the walls I built so high not even I could see over them I feel the sinking feeling and the loneliness the long nights of crying wishing I would just disappear all the poison inside my heart the very air I breathed those I trusted the poison was everywhere I see the breakdowns and the feeling of being torn apart by those you trust the constant worries and overwhelming anxiety constantly beating me down I fall and fall huddled trying to make it all go way I shout and scream but I can’t even hear my screams I’m simply falling eternally forever shattered terrified and the darkest coldest loneliness down down down the hate I see in the mirror down down down the broken feeling of being your own worst enemy down down down lost friends down lost family down shattered scared broken alone falling forever
@Sunshineanddaffodiles
I'm really sorry you're going through this difficult situation. Thank you for reaching out for help. You're allowed to feel broken and falling down. The spiraling of thoughts can be eased with deep breathing exercises and yoga done safely. It will take some time to see the results but once you start doing them you'll feel better, it would give you ease thinking at least you're doing something hopeful to assuage the hopelessness of the situation.
It seems like your problems are kind of complex, and maybe guidance from a therapist would be helpful to build a strategy so that your mind doesn't constantly keep creating difficult thoughts and emotions, gradually strengthening the hopelessness. They are manageable and will allow you to find steady and stable relationships over time.
Sending you lots of healing energy. <3
@Sunshineanddaffodiles
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, my friend. It must be incredibly difficult and overwhelming for you right now. Just know that I'm here for you, and you don't have to go through this alone. You are strong, and I believe in your ability to overcome these challenges.
I’m here for you ❤️ we can always talk
I should have probably said this before but this poem was from last year fall so almost a year ago allot of stuff changed and I’m definitely don’t way better then when i was during the time that allot of my poems were created thank y’all’s for all the kind words it means allot ❤️