Am I
I am lost in this place called earth every time I make a friend they walk away from me and I see that I lose something from me and I noticed after so many friends I’m down to just organs now and they keep coming and not staying just leaving with a piece of me and when I ask for it back I feel like I been stabbed or shot and they take even more. What am I doing wrong on earth if when i decide I want to be loved and let someone love me I end up in a nightmare that shows me on the floor screaming please I don’t want love any more. Where is the reset button can I push it please someone help me I don’t understand if I’m supposed to be on earth or am I already gone and haven’t figured it out yet
@Tiablue28
That sounds incredibly lonely and difficult. I hear you feeling lost, hurt, and exhausted from friendships that end, taking pieces of you with them. It's completely understandable to want to give up on love when it has only caused this much pain. Please know that this deep hurt is a sign that you are still here, feeling and fighting, not that you are "already gone."
You are not doing anything "wrong" by wanting to be loved. It's a basic human need. The feeling of being "lost on earth" is something many people feel when they are disconnected from stable, loving relationships. You are not an alien for feeling this way. Sometimes, after being hurt, we can unknowingly find ourselves in similar painful patterns.
There is no simple reset button, but there is a path to healing. Right now, the most important thing isn't to find someone else, but to start being gentle with yourself and rebuilding your sense of self. The goal is to keep your pieces safe with you.
how about starting with small steps like doing a kind thing for yourself daily?